I worded that wrong, I meant to see that they seemingly have a better life
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Day 12 today and itās my last day off before i go back to work ! Itās been a long 6 months off and I canāt wait to see people again! Im feeling so good about my recovery Iāve been doing lots of ca meetings and really getting lit up by them . Iām so greatful the darkness is lifting out of my life . Iām having a day with my son today he lives 20 miles from me and I feel so blessed he chooses to spend his day off at home that wouldnāt have happened a couple of years ago as he would avoid me cos I was so bad on drugs ( I donāt blame him ) I have so much to be greatful for today . Hope everyone is ok and having a blessed day x x
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Day 7.
needed 
.In the process of moving 
.Been anxious but excited.Actually Iām all over the spectrum with my emotions.Grateful to go through it Sober!
@anon60334405 Congrats 5 months!!
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Iām not sure really, I just think I could my best life without it. All everyone post about is partying and just looking for likes. I donāt post often, and Iāll post alot about my sobriety. And I know not many ppl really care, this town needs some change so I like to share my journey tho in hopes in May inspire some ppl. But I didnāt know I could keep messenger so thatās cool to know. I figured if I get rid of it then nobody will absolutely know my steps anymore, pretty much I feel alot of ppl are just waiting for me to fuck up. Tupper lake is just a different breed of ppl
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Yeah, i certainly think about it more near milestones.
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Thank you 
A huge congrats on 5 months man. Nice work! Im with you on the Facebook deal. Zuckerberg did a great job on making it difficult to get rid of itā¦ Evil prickā¦ lol.
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@Sam7. Itās hard with this covid and having to say In i understand we get bored and it can bput us in a state of mind we dont want to be in and dont need to be in all we can do is stay connected to this room to our meetings and we will get threw another day clean and sober dont give up we got this keep up the good work 
Thanks bro. And yeah for sure, I kind of am upset atmy self because Ive been posting and saying Iām going to do it. But have not done it yet, so now I kind of feel like a liar
Day 34 sober itās been rough for me 2 days ago I had a cluster fuck of nightmares which is all a symptom of my CPTSD, this caused me to to feel very low and very sad resulting in a tearful end to the day in my wifeās arms. She is such a beautiful woman a fantastic support and Iām coming out of it now feeling alot more like myself. This is what it does it messes with my emotions and Iām right back there and feeling lost and alone again and that so far from who I am. I would usually have a drink just to get some kind peace from the feelings while it is happening but I didnt and it wasnt an easy thing to do,even yesterday at 945pm sat in my PJs playing my computer I had cravings to get up and go over the road for some beer. Mad mad mad the world of addiction I tell u but Iām still sober taking it 1 day at a time thatās all we have thatās all I can doā¦peace out friends xx
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I often started to workout but stopped after 2 or 3x . I did it to loose weight and failed.
Now I do it bc I want to be strong. Months ago I was too weak to get off my couch without pulling me up, like a grandmaā¦so I thought that needs to change! And here I am. I thought I maybe can spread some of this feeling here?
And btw: my clothes start to fit way better already 
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Today, for my 40 days clean from self harm, I bought myself a cute little lion plush since plushes help me with stress and anxiety
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Congrats on 5 months @anon60334405! Thank you for being here. Youāve been such an asset to this community. Always welcoming the newcomers and lending tons of support.
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I know that feeling all to well. My longest binge was a couple days. I was playing an RPG, watched youtube and Twitch. No sleep for about 60hrs. I donāt recall much of the outside world during that binge, all I remembered was my computer and telephone screen. Glad Iāve managed to kick gaming
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Itās none of our business what other people think about us 
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Thank you so much.im glad i can do my best to help and feel support from all of you. much love 
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Day 296 under way here. Itās scorching hot 
here in Texas today and Iām off work (Yay!) for the holiday. Planning a lazy day with maybe some chores and a meeting thrown in. Iāve done so many this week and Iām really starting to understand my addiction and my brain a lot bettor. Itās amazing how just talking and listening to other people with addiction really can help you understand yourself. Much like this forum does for me. It really helps to read about the struggles and triumphs on here! So keep going folks. Congrats @anon60334405 on 5 mths. Youāve fought hard for those!! Well done. Keep it up!
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Thank you :), I donāt have pc. So I might just for now try deactivate it and see how that feels and goes, I downloaded innsta gram and will check that out after the girls go with theyāre mother Sunday. Also going to take the girls today after work to pick some rocks and then tomorrow we will paint them and light off some ground fireworks Iām gonna pick up on the way home from work. Pics will follow have a good day
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