Good morning recovery family 
Just wanted to check in as I havenāt been on in awhile. Things have been okay. Keeping busy. Doing lots of cleaning and decluttering. Hubby lost his job tho due to refusing unsafe work so financially we have been struggling. He is filing a wrongful dismissal claim due to what happened. It can be abit difficult for him to gind work as we donāt drive and he has a criminal record. He works construction as a heavy machine operator and alot of jobs around here are requiring record checks or a vehicle. I only work 1 day a week as I look after someone who is very ill so I donāt bring in my much money. Had to swallow our pride and ask for help. Money stuff always bothers me yet most of our money troubles was from when we used drugs. And we are still digging ourselves out of that one. Physically Iām doing wellā¦ lost weight even tho Iāve had no contact with a gym lol (gym in my building is STILL closed). Feeling very tired tho and am having to rely occasionally on caffeine pills 
to function. And mentally and emotionally im better now that Iām clean. Been taking my meds properly and not skipping any (which I used to do when usingā¦ my BPD wouldnāt be managed very well). Now trying to focus on future goals and what Iād like to see for myself and my hubby and I in the near future. Hope everyone is doing well. Will make sure to get on more. Miss you all 
Good for you for not caving in! That still sounds like a great and relaxing day, I love Supernaturalā¦such a good show!
Iām happy youāre here Jenna. You want to be sober. I feel you need to be sober too. You can make it through. One crave at a time. Youāre not alone.
Late check inā¦ busy dayā¦ SOBER <3
Day 7 sober? I havent been counting. After my last post (while drunk) I confided in my brother to hide all the booze from me.
Started journaling and soul searching. Ive woken up each day and me and my mom do yoga in the yard overlooking the horses in green pastures. And then I run a few miles. Its the best part of my day. Ive moved mountains this week tackling things on my to do list.
I did some meditating and regrouping and have also made $10k a day for the last 5 days in a row in the stock market which is nuts. I am still taking it all in. Up $60k in 2 weeks. My goal in making the money was to leave my man and after meditating I realized that was my roadblock. I was never going to make the money with that intention so I just reached deeper and decided to take him with me on this journey and after that I started doing really really well.
Sobriety is treating me goodā¦ happy sober day everyone! 
I saw Motley Crue back in 1983, and again about 5 years ago. Great to see and hear them live.
Daily checkin: I am 3 years 6 months and 20 days sober. I am incredibly unhappy about being unemployed due to layoff 3/27. I have sent out job feelers to two friends in two different industries. I have asked for a phone session with my old SF therapist/executive coach. And I plan to read self-help stuff later on!! 
Glad you didnāt drink! Or choke someone lol 
that made me laugh! Been there!! Good job on staying strong 
Day 17. I find early recovery is fun when you get into it. Like, just to get into a routine; it just feels right to me. I like the life lessons Iām learning but it does make me wonder what I will retain when those storm clouds come. I seem to always to forget what I learned. But, I heard someone say to not have expectations and thatās been working pretty well so far.
Day 346. Start of the three day weekend. Solid a.m. workout, ran some errands, and now to relax.
Finalllllly got my Marvel cards in a binder. Series 1 holograms and the missing few from Series 3 are on the way, and then theyāll be complete. Probably my favorite series from my younger days.
Have a strong day!!!
Hi there! Things will bounce back. This whole COVID thing may take awhile, but the labor market will be there. I admire your sobriety and appreciate you sharing.
Checking in on eve of 42 days
Hell yeah!
Edit: Lol just noticed the quote talks about losing site of the shore and in my pic from today Iām right next to the beach. Unintentional!
Nice!! Congrats on 90 days Paula.
Very well done, congratulations on 90 days!
288 Days. I had a nice relaxing day by the pool with my daughter. This day was so overdue. The past month has been hell and I felt every post of mine has been negative. It feels great to finally post something positive. Iām gonna try the same tomorrow. Can it be possible to have 2 good days in a row? I sure hope so.
(1010) 
donāt think about it so deep, tho I was similar 
and make 1.5 years, then tried moderate drinking, suceeded nor for a long time. And I am back here. Nobody never judge or said anyhing what is in your head now, orherwise if you relapse (hope not) people gonna remind you that one year as the way to show/remind how strong you are, you did before, can do again. And even if, believe that year under any circumstances matters a lot in your head. Here I am back with 5 days, and fell no stress, no anxiety mostly like ya did one that means I am strong enough just beat my own record now 
Gonna tuck in early, sober, now that the nighttime pee walk is done (er, for the dog - not me. I prefer indoors 
). So many zoom work meetings today, and Iām tired but a good tired. I had only fleeting thoughts of former Friday habits, and just took the night to relax.
I used to feel like I had no time to unwind, to hang out with books and magazines and music - but I think todayās āeurekaā is that non-sober time was never time to myself, it was just the opposite. I used to reward all my hard work with my favourite beverage(s), but it just took away from the break I really needed. Makes sense, yeah?
I hope you are all resting/rested well, fellow TS friends. Happy 4th of July to my neighbours south of the border!
M 
ps - I will tell you all my days when I surpass my earlier number! 
