Day 181. On thursday I’ll hit my 6 months sober. Got sober on January 9th. Six months later will be july 9th. I wonder why the app hit 180 alteady. Anyone know why?
Besides that everything is prerry good 
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Maybe cuz different length of days for some months…
I suck at math so I didn’t check, lol
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Ah Ha!!! 
Could this be why you like hiking in all kinds of weather? I think YES! 
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Outstanding! Just hit day 10 myself, and feeling good 
Congrats on 15!
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Woohoo NC people!
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Maybe!
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wow!!! 500 rocks, well done 
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Day Damn 0.46
I failed. I slipped off last Wednesday, felt it was just ok, after 2 weeks, still motivated to stay sober. Then on Saturday I blacked out. My gf washed me and the whole bed, I let you guess why. Big talk with her the next day, and then goes to groceries and drink secretly. Then yesterday I just drank the whole day. I ended up Mr Hyde just wanted to hurt myself and disappear.
Clearly just working out more isn’t doing it. I just can’t drink. I have to be honest with myself. It’s a pattern, the same circle going around since years.
I don’t even like beer and drinks. I just enjoy it because I know it’ll numb me.
Haven’t been able to get passed 20 days since I stopped therapy. So this morning I called my therapist, we’ll see if she still have places for me.
Of course now I have a paper due tomorrow, I didn’t do shit the past week, and now I feel like shit. Going to be a rough day battling the thoughts of shame and guilt. But I am reading some good books these days, and I still feel the strong motivation I had last time to get sober. But motivation itself isn’t enough. I have to remember, I can’t lie to myself: if I drink I’ll become Mr Hyde again and this is no good. What’s hard is when I start feeling that I don’t care about myself and then self-destroying or sabotage feels perfectly adjusted to what I deserve. This is why therapy is important to me, because if I just focus on sobriety itself it become so painful and I become obsessed and then I just want the obsession to go away. I’ll have to give it more thoughts. I know now for sure I can’t just give up on the observation of myself after 2 weeks: this is where I always go back to case one.
Anyways, have a great day everyone. It is a good day to find what sobriety can give you, which mean what your not-numbed self can do.
Let’s go 
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Thank you Donna! You’re awesome! At least my friends remember. My fucking husband hasn’t said a word and I’m not big on celebrating, just an acknowledgment from him would be nice.
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Thanks for the reminder @anon79808082 
@Lisa07 Happy Happy Birthday lil Sis
Remember what we did on your 17th??? 
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Thanks for the kind words! I’ll be fine. Just had a little pity party this morning before work. I’ll be having chocolate after work so that’ll make things better! 
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Happy birthday lovely lady. Xxx
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Could be yes… when I Google the length between the two dates I get 5, something months. So no full 6 months yet lol
Back to day 1 
Need to make it stick!!
Can’t keep doing this. I’m killing myself and ruining my life.
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really happy for you Nat 
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Mate. How long now?
Ain’t it about time you accepted this and just got on with a sober life.
If I can do it so can you.
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