- Coffee. I’ll make do.Just for today. My weekend beckons. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
@anon89207786 Do what’s good for you Jan. Three steps forward two steps back. Hou je taai. You’re not alone.
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Happy that you’re feeling better. @anon79808082 I am glad you have taken the time to read the thread and that it has helped to bring some sense of peace and serenity into your sobriety. It is a pleasure to serve. Helps me stay clean and sober more than you’ll ever know. Staying gratefully humble in recovery. 
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Thank you @RX24. I was getting excited thinking tomorrow is 10 months but it’s really not until the 19th. I’ll hold in my excitement another 5 days. lol
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- I swam in the ocean today. 5 days in a row now. The water has been really warm and I had a lot of fun with my family
We went to dinner after, which put some romanticizing thoughts about drinking in my mind. But I looked at the people that were most likely regulars at the bar next door (everyone’s dining and drinking outside these days) and they didn’t look like they had genuine presence or acceptance. These are things I work for in my daily life. I was trying not to judge them, just see that lifestyle for what it was… And it’s not for me. I just want different things in life and drinking won’t allow for those things to be reality.
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You’ve got this. I’ve been right where your at. Sending some strength your way.
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11 months is definitely something to be proud of. Congrats Conor and keep up the good work!
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240 Days: Life’s chaos continues, but it’s all good. Super busy trying to get everything ready for moving next week. Work has never been busier. Really focusing on being mindful of my emotions and not letting the hustle of my insane days and other people’s attitudes affect me personally. For the most part I’m happier then I have been in a long time. I still have my issues and there is a ton of things I need to work on and improve, but I’m headed in the right direction and I need to allow myself to enjoy the moment, accept my imperfections, but maintain my focus to try and better myself everyday. It’s definitely a challenge, but the little daily victories are starting to add up.
Today was a long day dealing with work. I was driving back to my office to work late on some bids for new jobs and I found myself thinking how nice it would be to have a drink to relax. The thoughts passed and I was in my office only to have the thoughts return. I stacked the bids on the corner of my desk and I left. Work can wait. Jumped in my truck, rolled down the windows, turned my phones off and the music up. In the 20 minutes it took to get home with the wind in my hair and the music in my ears those thoughts were gone.
Little victories, continued steps in the right direction. I can’t go back to where I was, forward is my only option.
Love seeing everyone’s numbers going up. Good days and bad we’re all in this together.
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Well put Hidden.
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Day 4 sober bad nights sleep took ages to go off but atleast it wasnt drunk asleep I’ll take it 
taking doggy to vet this morning for her yearly vaccines not sure what the protocol is but masks are required all over the place now so I better get mine ready…ii see a funny photo from a family who were in the Spanish flu pandemic and they put a mask on the cat lol. Peace out recovery friends xx
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Day 231
I have managed to dream about games for an entire week. For the biggest part they were dreams that were fucking random and suddenly games appeared, like the world turning into Minecraft. This night really was a using dream. I dreamed I was playing PUBG with my brother, but as if we were in the world itself. We picked up gins ourselves, but whenever I was aiming at him, it felt as if I had a controller in hand instead of a gun. Strange that it was a PUBG dream, since I barely played PUBG, I always played a PUBG ripoff that was made before PUBG mobile was released. Now I have a lot of cravings for PUBG and I’m upset I can never play again
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Day 53.
There’s huge headlines here today about a sexual abuse/rape case and the news are overflowing with people’s life stories about the subject.
One of my oldest friend started to send me texts with articles I sure don’t want to read, nagging about that I need to talk about shit I don’t want or need to talk about. And I’m like one text away from asking him to go to a much warmer place and stop being a jerk. But I know he doesn’t mean it that way, so I just blocked him for now instead.
Weather is still shit, and our roommate got to pick one thing he really wanted to do during our vacation, and he wanted to go to a Cider store in my hometown that’s famous for it’s cider.
I know that one of the jerks from my past works in that store from time to time (he is not a father to any kids) but I agreed to go, hoping he is off or at holiday the day for the visit.
Today’s horoscope says that the past is going to haunt me today, and I hope this was it.
Asked my sister in law to stop calling my husband 10 times a day yesterday, and mind her own problems more or less. We’ve done what’s required and we’re gonna be there for the nephew like always. But we’re not going to visit her during the vacation and we don’t have time to talk to her 10 times a day by phone.
So now she’s mad.
Besides that a pretty Okey day, hopefully without a lot of drama.
Sometimes I think I could collect all the drama and start ny own tv/internet show, Gypsy Galore Swedish edition 
Wishing y’all a wonderful day.
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Welcome back Peace 12. It really is great to see you again.
We’ve missed you.
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Your doing awesome my friend, keep em coming 
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Don’t make a biggy out of it, you didn’t get to decide if they drink and you didn’t get to decide if they didn’t drink. If they did it for you though that’s a beautiful gesture from people that love you
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Day 163. On day 9 of 30. 100 situps and damn am I sore😂. I’ve realised that during my funks I kept saying everything is spoce to be happy, I should be this and that and all of these ppl around me are negative. The truth is it doesn’t matter if I’m 5 months sober or 2 years sober, yes things are going to get better, but life is seriously going to throw a curve ball at you from time to time whether I’m rich, poor, or always in good spirits. I need to take life and just keep learning from it instead of expecting this or that out of it, because Everytime expect to be this far or should have this I make my self miserable. The only way to keep achieving greatness is to keep getting up and going out and pushing myself everyday. Have a good Weds everyone
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