Lmao yeah her name is Sophie. I said Sophie you little bitch stop sleeping in the middle of the stairs. Sheās grey 
and @Chiron yeah she certainly did knock me down a peg haha
Hereās to your full jump year anni @purr! Huge congrats! As well as on passing your exam! Enjoy your pastry, you have most certainly earned it. looking yum! Have a great rest of your day friend.
Day 25 sober. I donāt have good internet connection this days but I am enjoying to be with my family and almost no cravings. I have to fill my heart of this days and be grateful
Haha sheās very loved. I really wasnāt even mad. Which is surprising bc Iām a grouch when Iām still half asleep
Keeping you and your son in my thoughts and prayers @SoberWalker. It must be difficult for you, not being allowed to visit him. 
Double digits 10 days sober using SMART online meetings regularly almost day to day. Wen I woke up I felt hungover for a split second then I jumped up and did stuff I needed to do and it went straight awayā¦strange
Well done and congrats on 6 months @Pink31!
Iām dying 
such a great pun
Crossing fingers that he does not have celiac disease. Itās not fun! But at least he knows what bothers his stomach. I never got a diagnosis but I know that my skin clears up when I quit gluten. But itās a pain in the arse I tell ya 
I had to bc my last dermatologist told me āItās rosacea, avoid the sun! You must protect your skin with sunblockers!ā And I did but always had bad flareups. Since last monday when I was at the dermatologist I love to be in the sun again! And guess what: my skin is okay with it 
Second check in. This is where I was tested for covid just now. As you can see no huge crowds there. Still the news today is worrying. The number of new cases doubled in a week here. Too many people all around Europe are not adhering to the rules any more. Too many tourists in town and too many Dutch going on holidays too. Social distancing is forgotten by enlarge. If weāre not very careful weāll be back where we were just 2 months ago. Well at least Iām sober and clean. One thing less to worry about. Love.
Day 159~ Started the day off with a walk around our local reservoir and did some yoga and meditation. Physically feeling awesome. 
Havenāt had any urges to drink in a while but I know that pesky devil is always lurking around waiting for me to caveā¦ not today buddy!
Emotionally Iām still a bit of a wreck. I donāt know what the hell is going on lately but my emotional energy has been off the freakin charts. Might be time to cut back somethingās/people that are emotionally draining and cloud my positive thoughtsā¦ the toll itās taking on my mind and heart is just too much. I need to continue my path of self appreciation and love in order to heal and grow. This to is just another lesson on this journeyā¦ sometimes Iām just to open and to willing to allow others in. I need boundaries and need to stick to them. Itās such a hard thing to do but I know itās necessary. Much love 
Right on!! Or to offer a āwhyā. It is perfectly acceptable to simply say No.
All Iāve known are smokers because Iāve lived with them my whole life and it seems cool in the moment but once I think about it, its disgusting and causes a lot of damage that i dont want to go through
Jumping in here on Day 60, have a great day.
Iāve been reflecting a lot on the idea of powerlessness. In particular the phrase āWe admitted we were powerless over alcoholā. Thatās a tough pill for me to swallow. Thatās a real blow to my pride and ego, to admit that something got the better of me and that I canāt overcome it on my own.
I can easily subscribe to the idea that Iām powerless over alcohol once I put it in my system. Iāve proven time and time again, that once I start drinking I canāt control the quantity or when Iām going to stop. I admitted that truth to myself years ago. But I wouldāve liked to hold onto the idea that, I alone, could simply have the will power to just never drink again.
Looking at it objectively, the powerlessness goes way beyond when itās in my system. I didnāt really drink until I was 21 and living on my own. My parents and my Church put the literal fear of God into me not to drink in my younger years. Once I did start drinking though, I remember immediately having the thought of āOh, This is whatās been missing. This is whatās going to get me through the rest of my life.ā Iād found that āthingā that made me feel comfortable, confident, happy, and carefree. From day one, I let alcohol become my savior and I didnāt even put up a fight. I welcomed it with open arms. I invested in the promise of alcohol, hook, line, and sinker. I gave my soul to it. Thatās powerlessness.
Like I said, itās been years since Iāve fooled myself into the idea that drinking was safe for me. I know that for me to drink, is to ensure chaos and destruction in my life. I know it will cause me to blow off work. I know it makes me angry and volatile. I know it causes me to withdrawal mentally and physically from my life. I know it removes my inhibitions and allows me to more easily cross moral and ethical boundaries. I know it brings depression, anxiety, shame, and suicidal ideation. Despite all of that information and despite experiencing the consequences time and time again, Iād still get to a point where I could convince myself that I didnāt care about those consequences and Iād go for the ride anyway. Thatās powerlessness. Most normal people have consequences and then quit repeating the behavior that caused it. I still couldnāt simply tell alcohol āNoā even when I knew it would ruin me.
Iāve been thinking about this, because Iām trying hard to embrace the idea accessing help and guidance outside of myself. If Iām honest, Iāve always been doing that with alcohol anyway. Iāve always been looking to something outside of me to bring me peace. Now Iām trying the same thing, Iām just looking to a healthier alternative. Iām looking to a fellowship of people whoāve remained sober and have a guideline for how to do so. Iām looking to do my best to adhere to a standard of living (Higher Power) that will hopefully satisfy the same needs that Iāve been seeking to satisfy with alcohol. I may be powerless to alcohol, but Iām not powerless to making the choice to access help in overcoming it. 
Thatās right, our Gouvernment doesnāt really have the authority you sometimes could wish for. And most people actually does listen when they do recommendations or something like that, because itās rare. But then we have people like the guy who was here today, his cornbread clearly isnāt done in the middle (or at all I guess)
Sweden doesnāt have a huge population and itās relatively easy to keep a distance especially out on the countryside, but because of the vague guidelines some people thinks weāre out of danger here. But thatās far from the truth.