Oh you’re doing awesome girl ! I have my counter for ciggs too hehe
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Glad all is ok. 
I’ve totally been there so many times.
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Just wanted to check in and say hi to all my clean and sober friends. Keep doing what your doing, proud of you all for staying the course and grateful that we have each other to lean on.
Saying good night and pulling the covers up on day 1027 of recovery and sobriety. It really is a beautiful thing.
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Day 673 
Life is giving me challenges…
Last sunday we went for a holiday to Germany with our 3 kids. That evening my oldest son got problems with his blatter, we thought a urinary inflamation. Next day it went bad. His back hurts and he started vomiting. The pain increases fast. We went to a German doctor, then to ER. They took him in and gave him a bed. He has kidney stones. Maybe he needs a surgery 
So fingers crossed please!!
This is going to be a vacation we won’t forget quickly 
But he has a nice view from his hospital room!
Haven’t seen that myself, because of Corona rules I’m not allowed to visit him
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Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Claudia during this trying time. Wishing the best of outcomes. 
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Thank you Edmund
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day 222! I’ve actually had a really good couple of days. I think it’s because I hung out with one of my friends on Saturday, and after a conversation with him my eyes opened to a lot of things I’d been missing in my life. hoping it keeps going for the rest of the week!
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Back here for the millionth time…day 34. Feeling defeated, overwhelmed, depressed, anxious, sad, very sad, and just flat out unhappy. The choices I made while intoxicated have ruined everything. Ruined me. Every minute of every day is a struggle. I am tired. My heart is broken. My brain won’t rest.
Just needed to vent.
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I hope he’s feeling better soon, it sucks you can’t be there with him… that must be awful for you hun. Hug for you…
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Welcome back @MissJules this is a good place to vent. One day at a time, one hour at a time, even one breath at a time. It takes what it takes. Congratulations on your 34 days that is a big deal. Be kind and gentle to yourself and remember easy does it.
This is what you have to look forward to in sobriety. This is called the “promises” in the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous. p 83, 84
(These promises will come true if you work for it.)
If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us-sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
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Aww sweetie, I’m feeling your sadness… hang in there though, big hug. 
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It’s good you are here Missjules. I’m glad to see you. This place is perfect for venting. And for mending. You got a full month of not being intoxicated already in the bag. That’s progress. You’re here sharing. That’s progress too. Hang with us, keep sharing, support, be supported. Together we’re strong lady. Hugs.
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Thinking of your son… prayers for a speedy recovery. 
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Thank you so much for this. Reading what you wrote made me cry then smile. It gave me a little hope. I appreciate you.
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Thank you. I’ll definitely take that big hug 
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Thank you so much! I am already feeling a little lighter. 
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- Coffee. Going for my covid test soon. A Dutch style testing street has been made in a big congress centre in town. No need to lock my bike outside. That’s good. Little bit nervous but it’ll be OK. My throat is still sore but not that bad. I’m tempted to take my road bike and go for a ride after but I’m supposed to go straight home after the test and stay there till the result is in. I’ll comply. Luna likes me home. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
@SoberWalker Thinking of you and your son Claudia. Kidney stones are not nice (understatement) but after treatment he should fully recover. And indeed he has a nice view
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@SoberWalker My thoughts are with you and your family. Kidney stone pain is unimaginably bad. I hope your son can pass them without surgery. Either way I hope he is on the mend soon.
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No one’s wearing masks, it’s not mandatory? How long til you get results?
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I’ll get a call with the result within 48 hours. And no, masks are not mandatory here, only in public transport (which I’m not supposed to take). Distancing is more important they say over here.
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