Wat ben je al ver ! 
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Day 5
My husband is off for 4 days so no fear of drinking. Took some morning-trips with the kids, then helping with homework in the afternoon. Glad for not having to think about drinking.
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Dank je, kom jij ook als je je focust op vandaag.
(cliché, maar het is zo). Had ooit 5 jaar en toen teruggevallen.
Thank you, you will get there to if you focus on today (cliche, but it’s true). Had 5 years sober before but had a relapse.
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Ik weet het , mijn laatste terugval duurde bijna 2 jaar😔
Maar i ben er weer
I know my last relapse lastet for 2 years but i am back!
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And that makes us 2 strong ladies! 
Bikkels we are!! 
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Yess we are 
Now i am off , going to walk the dog 
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Enjoy, you will feel satified:) I love gardening:)
Take before and after pics please;) would love to see:)
Aw thanks.
You must be on the other side of my world.
Have a great sober day.
Meanwhile I’ll be letting the dogs out for a final and bed over on my side of the world
Made it another day
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“It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.”
― Confucius
Day 29
Spent some of the day with my ex-lover playing Terarria and spent the rest of the day playing around with Linux Mint in VirtualBox. Not a very exciting day but I got through without giving in and my ex wasn’t drinking or drunk while we played, so it was good. She had stopped drinking for a couple months, but has recently started again.
Her drinking, and her behavior while drinking, was part of the reason we separated, and she knows that she has a problem, but she’s still in that mind space of wanting to be able to moderate her drinking. She’ll dry out for a while, but she always starts again and it doesn’t take long for it to become a full blown issue again. I try to be there to support her when she tries to work on the issue, but sometimes I just have to step away and tell myself that she’s no longer my responsibility.
So yeah, I’m happy she waited until after we hung out to start drinking for the day.
@anon79808082 Thank you for the crystals link! I love this kind of stuff.
@GVLNative Congrats on 90 days! You rock!
@Just_Laura You’re doing great, Laura! 10 days is awesome! Also glad to hear new kitty didn’t destroy your house while you were gone.
@M-be-free49 Road trip sounds great. I hope you have a fun time. You’ve got this. You will ace all the tests on this trip.
@Misokatsu 5 days is really good. You’re doing great. You’ve got this.
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day 248!! very close to 250 
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Hi Ness, there is a women of AA group on here, if you’re not in it already. I’m not in it but I would be surprised if there is gossip and pettiness! @aircircle can link you in if you like.
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What did you decide about your tattoo?
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- Late coffee. Rested pretty well. Feel pretty well too.
Got to go on clearing stuff and stop procrastinating. Will do. Sorting out clothes today.
I was looking for my glasses just now. Turned out they were already on top of my head.
Here’s one thing that turned up when I was emptying a deep cupboard the other day. It’s the way kids were taught the basics of spelling over here. It must have been from my parents, I don’t think I was taught in school using this method that stems from the late 19th century. I do remember using it at home though. And it being helpful.
Just some observations. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
Edit: After posting on facebook and some googling it turns out this method was used well into the 70’s so I did probably use it at elementary school
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 85
School starts Tuesday for the kids.
I’m going to hand in the applications for the after school club tomorrow, current waiting time about 3 months if I’m unlucky.
My husband has gotten his own place to stay for work, with start at the end of this month. A relief for both of us, and I thought it was going to feel great having him not to worry about if he’ll be able to go to work or not. His boss was very helpful with that. Instead it feels like he is going to move away, he won’t be gone anymore than he already is, but I can’t get rid of that feeling.
My new schedule for school seems to be very incompatible with school and after school club times, especially with the fact that I’ve got a 2,5 hours one way travel time to get to the university so I really hope most of it will be done via zoom this fall.
I finally made up my mind on what to study and It’s going to be Cultural science, it gives me the possibility to be creative and to actually have a chance of chasing that writing dream as a culture journalist or something similar. It feels great and I’m more excited than I was for the librarian school.
We had a “last days of summer” pool party yesterday, and I feel so sorry that everything is going back to everyday life and that the summer holidays are over. I’m counting the weeks to the fall break, when we are supposed to go on a trip somewhere. Hopefully there is some place open where we can go for Halloween. Normally we would have spend Halloween in US, but because of Coronavirus we can’t. Last year we also had a cruise to Germany and arranged our village first trunk or treat ever. But once again, not this year because of the Coronavirus.
No family drama to report today, besides that. Probably because I had my phone on airplane mode all day yesterday, to really take in these last days of summer and nice weather. It’s supposed to start raining again and get our usually +12 degrees Wednesday. And after that we’ll have about 8 months of rain, darkness, snow, half melted snow and cold weather. Just the thought of it gives me anxiety,even if I know there’s some good changes ahead.
Wishing y’all a happy Sunday 
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I’m on my first week and have also had trouble sleeping. Just awful.
Although I’m trying not to hate myself, I slipped up yesterday with one drink after 6 days clean. Feel I just have to look forward now and try not focus on the failure too much! x
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Welcome here @Ses. Coming here and seeking help is a sign of love for yourself, not hate. Looking back is useless unless you can learn something positive from it. Identifying what triggers you to use might be helpful preventing it from falling again into the same trap.
For the rest what is important is that you are sober now. And that you are here. There’s a lot of great support and a lot of great supportive folks here. read, comment, learn, support and be supported friend. It helped me so much and I hope it will be just as helpful to you. Together we’re strong.
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Excellent analysis I think Jenna. Hang in there. You know you deserve it to be loved. Most certainly by yourself too. Reaching that point of loving yourself is exactly the trick to being happy I guess… Hugs.
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Thank you dear. I do need to analyze those feelings,so you’re absolutely right in that. Guess it has felt more temporary before, and now I know for a fact that isn’t so.
On the good side I guess we can always come and visit during weekends if we want to spend them in a city. But it still feels strange.
Cultural science feels interesting for me to, and I will have the opportunity to write and read a lot. I know we’re also going to watch movies and do some theater. So it feels amazing. I love the university, and I’ll probably end up being a university teacher eventually who knows.
We got a few risk groups over here so hopefully the University wilk understand that. I don’t know much more until the class actually starts, but I know that as a freshman it’ll be some at campus and some by zoom. It’s all going to be easier as soon as I get my driver’s license because the 2,5 hours one way public transportation commute is only a 40 mins car ride. 
How’s everything going with you?
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hey cat how many of your nine lives do you think you have used to get here? Proud of you over here 
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