day 250! it’s crazy to type that out lol. anyway, had a very good day today. I’m starting to realize that I’m a very extroverted person and need to be hanging out with people almost every day, which is a good realizatjon to have 
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They told me information that I already knew about how the school works for 45 minutes and then they let me go… Kinda disappointing but today I’ll have actual subjects, like mathematics and physics, so it should be more interesting
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- Coffee. Taking the day off from clearing, cleaning and improving my apartment to go cycling. It’s my vacation after all. Some big t-storms drove away the most intense heat yesterday, temps should be ideal for a nice ride. In an hour or so the morning showers should have passed and I’ll be off. Clean and sober. Have a great day all. Love from Amsterdam where a lot of us were caught out by the rain yesterday in our shorts and t-shirts riding our bikes.
Some beautiful milestones here today! @Nvbookthief 250 is awesome, congrats! @C_8 yay Cate! @SoberWalker wow Claudia! Gefeliciteerd!
@M-be-free49 Huge congrats on coming through the day sober M. That took some real grit and determination. And knowledge of and love for yourself. My bestie, who is a very sensitive and smart girl, still keeps saying how sorry she is I won’t and can’t join her drinking at times. “Normies” (in this respect) really don’t get it. One of the reasons we are here friend. Proud of you. Big hugs.
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober
Day 87
No family drama to report, the weekend was nice and relaxing. We did a lot, “End of the summer” stuff, but the heatwave continues so it doesn’t feels like the end of the summer.
Still trying to enroll the boys in the after school club, I was supposed to do it online, but since I have shared custody with my ex and he neither answers phone calls or texts or shares his social media with me I can’t do it because he needs to online sign the documents.
So yesterday morning I call the lady in charge and she says I can pick the papers up at jer office. Walked to the office where the lady in charge of it all is located. A nice morning walk of 3 km in +25 C and gazing sunshine. Unfortunately the office was closed for educational day, and was supposed to re-open today. Leave the kids at school walks back to the office this morning, and guess what? Office closed because of the Coronavirus. So I emailed the lady and asked her to send the documents via post instead. And she said that I could just make a not about the other parent being unable to sign, because they are aware of the situation. Another good thing that comes from living in a small village.
With this I’m discovering a new side of myself, I’ve always seen me as a nice, friendly, carefree and maybe a little quiet calm person. Who occasionally gets really anxious. I still do the anxious thing a lot, but I’m also having zero tolerance with people who’s making a fuzz. If you’re rude I’m going to cut you out without even take the energy to explain why, because you should know. If you’re causing me trouble with purpose I’m going to Raise Hell and Ewoke the Devil in the blink of an eye, and probably smile about it.
It’s not a good trait, but it’s interesting to see this side of myself.
Usually, or maybe I should say before I just had another glass of champagne with the attitude
“It is what it is, I can’t do nothing about it anyway”
But now, I’m actually trying to change the situations to the best and those who can’t keep up is going out. I’ve already cut out quite a few people, and the ones I have to put up with, like my ex isn’t going to have a pleasant ride if he keeps standing in my way.
I didn’t even know that I had it. It’s scary, and interesting at the same time. I still wouldn’t be rude or hurtful on purpose but I don’t really regret cutting people out from my life either.
And the appearance of fall still wants to make me cry. I shouldn’t but I can’t help it. We talked about it this weekend and decided to save as much as we can for the drivers license and at least a Christmas holiday trip to the North. But to make everyday life more joyful we’re also going out to eat, or Fika every Friday from now on. We don’t have much to choose from in the village but as soon as I get my license we’re going to be able to get out of town too.
And with another of my infamous long posts I wish y’all a happy week 
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@SoberWalker Congratulations! Amazing stuff!
@M-be-free49 For friends an announcement like that can seem sudden, we are so good at hiding our problems. We often take months, years to accept we cannot have “just one” even if it is a “special” occasion. U speak highly of her, so am sure she will come around and be a support to u. Well done for surviving a stressful day.
@Milo @Nvbookthief
Congratulations!
2nd check in. Left the kids in the house to grab some groceries (5 mins away), the crazy thought I could grab something and chug it, and then have a nice buzz for the afternoon, did pass through my mind. But I am never happy with a nice buzz. People who are satisfied with one drink don’t consider chugging a drink on the way home from a supermarket.
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Thankyou so much for always beliving in me . Your such a great friend. Xxx
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Checking in on day 25 wishing everyone a blessed day.xx
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Just finished day 62. Going to bed feeling grateful 
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Day 5 today and finally feeling better since my relapse… I really need to dig deep and work hard on myself so this doesn’t happen again… I can’t keep doing this to myself this illness will end up killing me. I’ve been trying to connect in zoom meetings but my head has been all over the place so my concentration has been poor … but today im feeling brighter and will keep doing everything possible to keep focused. Happy Tuesday everyone x
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@SoberWalker Congratulations for reaching that milestone. Good job, hard work pays off. I am happy for you! Keep on going
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Boom! There it is! Congratulations @C_8!! Welcome to the 300 club big sis. You’re doing absolutely amazing! 
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Nice numbers!
NAT your a trooper and nothing will keep you down for long sweet I definitely 
know that,live you lots
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700 days Claudia. Nice going! 
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82.31 days. My 14-year-old will be back with me full time now that school is mostly online. She’ll go to her daddy’s on Wednesday evenings and come back to me Friday after school. They are only in school Thursday’s and Friday’s due to Covid, if it even lasts. A lot of schools closed down on the first day yesterday, so we’ll see. I’m happy to have her full time again. I never forgave myself for moving to a bad school district a few years back at my then new husband’s insistence. I’ve always felt like people judged me that she lived with her dad.
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