@BobIsGone Yay for getting married! So happy for u!
@Natnat Seriously does take a good few days to get back on an even keel. But once there time to get strategies in place so don’t relapse again (need to take own advice here!)
@Girlinterrupted That’s great news!
@jjcarson92 That is fantastic! Go you!
@Thirdmonkey That is hard. But sober u can give the support
@Clarity Helping others sounds like a great idea to get out of a funk. Let us know if it helps.
Another challenging day in this beautiful life. Feeling good sobriety wise though, in fact maintaining sobriety is enabling me to deal with things better! If I was drinking I would have over done it significantly the past few nights and potentially even missed work and left things undone and without follow-up. Through it all I have been able to stay focused and productive though. Thank goodness these days keep adding up! I am thankful for the people in this forum, especially the ones that let me vent about my craziness 
Check in number 2: First, thank you for the kind words. When I picked her up, it was the first time I have ever not seen her smile. I took her this wonderful piece if land. It is a place I go to walk, just to get away. We talked and laughed. We both took a half day tomorrow. Praying we are worried for nothing.
Day 13. Just another day off. Laundry, blah, but only sheets and blankets so it didn’t seem like a lot. Parks and sun. And fast food, but I wasnt eating a thing for weeks so I can forgive myself. Now investigating my daughter’s school schedule. The website doesn’t say a lot so 2 1/2 weeks to go and I’m still feeling in the dark. Our county wasnt hit as hard as most others in NY so I’m not scared to send her back. I’m just so over it all. I know people have died, and still are, but I crave normalcy. I literally have not had a real minute alone since March 14th. Ugh. Seems selfish but its something I need. Right now work is my alone time except I’m surrounded by 100 people. Still makes me happy but obviously not the same. Just trying to get by for now 
I checked in this morning with sunny optimism but today was rough for a lot of reasons. I’m emotionally exhausted and it was just a very stressful day. I am grateful for an open conversation that needed to be had with my boyfriend (communicating my needs/feelings over a topic that’s been looming) and it feels like a weight off my shoulders and I think it made things better. I’m also grateful that tomorrow is a clinic day for me, so I will be seeing two patients virtually, one is new so Im nervous/excited about it. But Im glad the day is over to be honest- Looking forward to a new day tomorrow.
Day 187~ Today had me thinking a lot about self body image and the serious toll it can have on your psyche. It can and will consume you if you let it. I’ve always going back to young girl had issues. I was either too big too thin not tall enough or the famous you have a beautiful face if you only lost a few. I was literally 8 years old when an adult at the time said that to me. I can still feel the embarrassment and pain I felt in my heart after that. That day will forever be tattooed in my brain. My early teens I starved myself literally to become a size 2. I was the hot girl but inside I was dead and a miserable bitch. I hated having to live up to that image. My early 20’s I gained a lot and for once in my life I didn’t care what I looked like. I was just living life. I loved that people liked me for me not the way I looked. The idea of connecting with people based on my personality and other traits was so empowering to me and made me feel like I mattered. I lived like that for a while but then allowed myself to slip into a depression. I stayed in that depression for a looong time. I stopped caring for me. That’s when the drinking really just took off and that controlled me. I would go out anywhere looking like a hot mess hiding under frumpy sweatshirts with my hair a wreck. I would avoid pictures and mirrors at all cost. I was hiding in plain sight. Getting sober has helped me find that healthy balance. I am me. I am worthy of feeling sexy and beautiful the way I am. I don’t have to be a size 2. I still have flaws and insecurities but those insecurities no longer rule my life. I’ll always be a work in progress but I no longer will allow my mind or others comments or judgements crush myself esteem.
The main thing is be kind to people. Don’t judge. We are all fighting battles that some would never guess or understand. Most importantly love yourself no matter what. You do matter.
I love your positivity! I’ve seen it for months now. I know I haven’t responded much but you definitely have the right attitude girl 
I learned a while back, while I still drank actually, to not care about what people think of you. I am what I am. I’m not going to change for you. I am, however, going to change for me. And its gonna blow you all away! Keep up that spirit (I know you will). Keep fighting the good fight
Thanks Laura It’s so true change for no one except yourself. 
I’ve started taking supplemental testosterone because my numbers are really low and even though it’s only been a few days I can tell a huge difference. It’s almost like a, “where have you been all my life??” kind of thing 
Hormones are such powerful things. I’m not sure if we fully understand how truly important they are until they’re out of wack.
1 month! I celebrate you! 
and on the eighth day, God said, “let there be 9”…
Day #8 is in the bag… good night.
And to those of you facing very trying times, hang in there and go forward into the unknown together…
Woo hoo! Congrats on 1 month @Chiron! Still my favorite milestone. I was on that pink cloud and loving life. I wish I had that feeling every day.
11 Months. A full year is right around the corner and I’m struggling with the fact that I haven’t changed much since I started. I guess I expected to be super happy with myself and my life by this time. However, in reality, sobriety is a long process and I need to be patient. Someone at AA told me “don’t leave before the miracle happens.” I’m gonna stick around and wait. Deep inside, I know I’m worthy of a happy sober life and it will come eventually.
My husband finally quit drinking AGAIN, hopefully it sticks this time. He’s going on day 3.
So proud of you Lisa you have so much to be proud of. Thank you sharing your journey with us and leading the way. Congrats to your hubby too! Sobriety really is the key to happiness even though sometimes it doesn’t seem it. Keep kicking it’s ass! 
Day 701 
Thank you all for the nice words yesterday at my day 700 sober. Here at home nobody mentioned. They think I’m a non drinker and that’s it. They see me as a formal problem drinker and I’m “cured” now. I quit, that’s ok and now move on.
It makes me angry some times. All that hard work to mantain my sober life but nobody in real life who sees it 
Glad I found this app 2 years ago! 
We see it , 
Checking in day 24