Thank you! Just come out of hospital and waiting for ultrasound on liver. I am worried about the damage I have done to my body after years of heavy drinking
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Yes I can understand that. Hoping for a good outcome Caroline. So it’s time for you to live a sober life right. If there’s one thing I’m absoltely sure of, it is that we can’t do it alone. We all need help. This place is a good starting point. Lots of knowledge. Lots of helpful people. Lots of support. Glad to have you aboard, together we’re strong!
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Hey everyone and Happy Sunday!! I am on my 10th day and absolutely enjoyed spending the weekend with my family, sober:) Today my husband is at work, so I’m here with my 3 little ones getting ready for the week. We are doing some homework, cleaning, and just enjoying the day. It is going to be a busy week for me; work, 2nd week of college classes, and my kids’ school Zoom meetings. They miss going to school and I don’t blame them. Being stuck in the house all week and not being able to see their friends is heartbreaking. But we are making the best out of this crazy situation:) I loved reading everyone’s stories today, inspiring!! Everyone hang in there. One min, hour, day at a time!! Have a good one guys!!
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Hi everyone, I’m off to bed shortly. I’m creeping up on 18 days now, and I’m pleased about that. I had lunch in a Japanese restaurant and it didn’t even occur to me to order any Sake or anything like that… and lunch was pretty darn good, too. A bit on the expensive side, but what the hell, once in a while it’s nice to go somewhere a little fancy, though it would have been nicer if I had been with someone, instead of alone, as usual.
So tomorrow morning, back to the factory. No news about whether or not the clients will want me to stay on past Friday, but I’m hoping that the won’t. I’ve spent 3 1/2 weeks in this hotel just this month, and I’m getting rather tired of it.
Still, work is work, I guess.
Ok… goodnight all… have a good and sober week… I’m looking forward to hitting 21 days.
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I can relate to that…
Day 2. Decided to drink and I’m not even sure why. I’m not depressed or upset or trying to bury emotions, I think I was honestly just bored and it was a habit. But I know I have come so far in my recovery. I feel great today and have been so productive. Drinking really is stupid and pointless and destructive to our health. I cant say it was pleasurable at all. I never think I’ve had enough and then comes the hangover and shame the next day. I feel much stronger and more determined than ever.
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I’m sorry you had a bad day and the sad news about your friend. I also found out my best friend has cancer today and it’s sh**. I reached 31 days today but I just feel blah. I hope you’re ok.
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I think I got it off the Zedge app. I think if you search ‘astrology’ you’ll find it. I think. It’s been a while 
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Day 235.
The situation with my parents got worse. I don’t know how to feel or act.
I called my mother to talk about recent events. That didn’t help.
Part of me thinks it’s getting pointless to keep this fight going. Other part of me wants to keep fighting because I want things to get better. But I don’t thinks that’s gonna happen.
My whole family is aware of the situation and is trying to help.
Last night I had my worst suicidal toughts so far.
If things weren’t gonna get better today then I would end my life today. Somehow. Sound heavy. I know.
I sometime don’t see a way out. I can’t really communicate this to anyone because no one would understand.
I think ending my life might fix things. My parents don’t have a horrible son who does and says everything wrong (that’s how they see things). And my girlfriend can find a much better guy with a much better family.
I wanted to share this last night but I was to emotional and tired to do so.
I feel lost.
Thank you for reading.
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Don’t know how to share a twitter link. Don’t even know if I’m “allowed to” And I won’t do it often but this short tribute to Chadwick Bowman is worth a look.
Don’t do that to yourself Mike. You’re a great dad!! Parenting is the hardest fucking job. We all lose it every now and the and yell at our kids.
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Suicide is never the answer my friend. It is never a favor to anyone. Nobody would ever be better off. Love yourself my brother, give yourself grace.
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I’m trying really hard to do so.
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Exactly what @Dan531 said - ending your life is a solution for no one. Please try to picture some light, some blue sky, above the clouds that are heavy upon you now - it’s still there. This too shall pass.
Please stay on here or call someone to come and be with you.
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Maybe you need some time away from your parents to let things cool down. Suicide is never the answer. I’m sure your parents and girlfriend would be devestated if you were gone. You’re worthy of a happy sober life and it will come in time. Sending you a big virtual hug.
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Hey Mike. I don’t have much to add that everyone hasn’t already said. Except your a bigger stronger dad than I was. I wish I done even just a part of my parenting without smoking dope or drinking.
You’re going to be, and do, OK. That’s all we can do.
There’s no fucking manual on this.
Side story. My little girl told me one day. I’ll never forget. “Dad!! “ she said “You know yelling it louder and louder isn’t going to help. “ 
Keep up the great work.
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@Fargesia_murielae @Lisa07 @M-be-free49 @Dan531
I think some time away from them is a good thing too.
My brother texted me today too about. He wants to ‘talk’. Meaning he’s gonna shove all the blame on my and my girlfriend for not letting my parents push us around. He’s nog gonna see this situation from both sides. Because he’s the good son. Can’t do nothing wrong. They always help him out when he need help,… i can keep going.
My parents see it completely different then me.
We’re just sticking up for ourself.
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Distance yourself from your brother too. I’m sure the “talk” will be on his terms. You don’t need any more stress at this point.
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No I don’t. My brother and his wife are on my parents side. Not on mine.
I can tell you so many things that happened in the last months. Bad things.
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