51.01 Days
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Congratulations! Your home looks SO beautiful!!! And that view from the window, stunning! All the best for a new chapter of your life and moving on 
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Sure sounds lovely, a gals’ day out 
I bet it was important for ur daughter too! 
Wow, good for you Emm! Wise boundaries 
I’m glad your dinner was a success and you had such lovely time 
And checking in we know that food was ok too 
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- I’m going to enjoy this last day of my vacay. The sun is out. I’ll be out soon too. Sober and clean. Have a good day all. Love from Amsterdam.
@Joy 400 Days of freedom from stupid smoking! Yay you!
@Brookiemonster618 That’s a very good thing you did. Concentrate on that. The storm with your mum will pass.
@Lisa07 Sorry for your shitty day. If any marijuana product should apply for your husband, I’d say CBD oil. Stupid doc. Hope today will be better.
@M-be-free49 Excellent M! Thanks for sharing that happy story.
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Being self employed is stressful… I feel for you and understand completely…
I’m glad you have still had work through this pandemic
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 7
Last Sunday was filled with regrets and anxiety and I felt terrible for the relapse I had. Today I woke up at day 7 on my new try, and the week haven’t felt difficult at all. I’m trying to look forward and only forward, husband had a few beers yesterday (like 3) and I didn’t have a problem with that either. And when I woke up today I felt so grateful that things are starting to come together nicely, more and more for everyday.
My brother called yesterday, I linked him a house for sale only a field away from my parents house earlier this week. It’s my brother’s former best friends house, he was there almost everyday as a kid playing with his friend. It’s a sad story they grew up lost contact in their late teen years and the friends father is a former UN Soldier, who eventually developed a bad PTSD the company he owned fell apart, he started to take drugs and abused his wife and kids to the point where they all moved out. They even had a huge Police action where they had to hunt the father in the woods because he did something like Rambo in the first move, building traps and hiding with a lot of weapons. Eventually they caught him, he risks a long time in jail now, and still have a drug problem. So now the house is out for sale.
My brother called to tell me that they had made an offer to buy it and that they will continue a bit over the said price. We’re all excited to max and hopes that he’ll get it. He called me on video so I could talk to my nephew who turns one in October. It was a nice call.
Late yesterday eve my best friend who lives in U.S (she’s American) and we had a long talk about everything. She told me as a secret that she’d smoked some weed during their vacation a few weeks ago, and that she might keep that up now when they are at home as well. She rarely drinks and I can see how she need it to hand stress, but I didn’t even know what to say about it. She offered us to get some for the next time when we come, I politely decline and said it wouldn’t be good for us risking going through costum even having some kind of traces on our clothes and taking the risk of not being allowed in U.S again.
I really love her, and misses her badly. And I know she isn’t an addict but with my background it still worries me. But maybe I worry out of the blue she’s a doctor so she probably knows what’s she’s doing. I have no idea how to handle it, maybe I’m making a hen out of a feather and should just leave it because it isn’t an issue.
Also I’ve been having some bad stomach cramps lately, I’m not supposed to eat either gluten or dairy but I’ve done it for years anyway, because it makes things less complicated. I’ve always hated to be the “allergic kid”. (nuts, peanuts, gluten, diary, soy, pollen, and furry animals, raw carrots, and allmost all fruits except bananas,)
But now my diet is causing me some troubles so from today I’m going back to the way I’m supposed to eat. While I’m changing my diet anyway I’m also cutting sugar out, hoping my skin will look better.
New week new me or something. I’m going to stay focused on getting healthy again, and feeling my best both in body and soul.
I wish y’all an amazing Sunday 
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That’s a stunning view. Hoping you’re day will be fabulous 
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I’d say if it’s on your mind like you tell it here share your feelings with your friend. In a totally non judgemental way. Why not. BTW, that she’s a doctor doesn’t mean much in this respect. Doctor heal thyself right. And they are the worst patients, even worse than nurses 
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day 269! tomorrow is only 90 days until I hit one year 
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Morning check in. Good to have this on my mind to check in,
Need a shave but have a bit of an arthritic finger 
Used to get gout when I was drinking heavily, then wasn’t drinking during our lockdown and still got some for form of arthritis - maybe it takes away any unnecessary thoughts 
Anyway, enough of my rambling, hope everyone is doing okay this morning/evening/night time or whatever time zone you are in
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D 820
Looking through old photos, and I realized that it was 4 years ago this time that I was solo traveling in Iceland. I had never done a trip alone before, and that week was so incredible for my personal growth, confidence, and self-empowerment. Probably the best thing I’ve ever done for myself.
I had met my ex about 2 weeks before I left, and I was wrapped up in the relationship from the time I got home up until earlier this year. It feels like so long ago, ancient history, when things were fresh and new.
Anyhow - I’m done being sad. Now I am beginning a new solo journey of a different kind. I can’t wait for this pandemic to be over so I can go back out on my own, traveling, growing, and learning. Building myself back. Because I deserve happiness and I’m not so bad. Ideally the next trip will be some combination of Norway, Sweden, Finland, Denmark.
Off to my 7am mtg in a bit. Take care, friends.
(That tiny barn was where I stayed, it was rad)
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Thank you for sharing as well. It feels good just to know I’m not alone.
You have a really good thing going, lass. Again, I must say that it takes courage to face different fronts (mental health, friendships…) at the same time. You’re going thru many changes inwardly that may not even be aware of and that may cause emotional instability. But I think you know this already
Be proud of every step you take into your new life! You’re a trooper! 
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That looks amazing, it’s on my hit list for travel.
Onwards and upwards 
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Day 36.
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Finishing up day 26
First day back at work tomorrow
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Omg these pics are amazing! Love the rainbow 
with the waterfall.
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Thanks so much! 
hope your sober Sunday is going fabulously!
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Thanks M 
those cravings didn’t stand a chance! 
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