We had something close to a storm tonight over here as well. It’s still really windy. I’m glad it worked out for you anyway and that you didn’t get hurt.
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 10, double digits again, it feels awesome.
This time I hopefully won’t loose it.
Last zoom class for the week in a few hours.
Kids are still home being sick, one of them will probably be able to go back to school tomorrow. The other one is staying home the rest of the week.
We had something close to a storm last night, I like storms but things are always a little bit scary when I’m the only adult here.
Seems like it’s my turn to get a cold to. Didn’t go to the zoom meeting yesterday because I didn’t feel well. Thought I would feel better today, had a night filled with fever ans nightmares, just woke up and actually feeling worse. I’m glad that I don’t have to go out at all today.
Planning to go back to sleep because I know the boys will sleep at least another hour. And hopefully I’ll make it to class later, luckily it’s via zoom and I can do it by just listening. Have to write another paper with due date on Friday too.
So it’s a painkiller, witches brew, sleep and bathrobe kind of day here.
I hope y’all are having a wonderful day 
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I understand the weary, disappointed feeling. You have got two options: pick yourself up and try again, or stay lying down and give up. Spoiler alert, the latter option sucks.
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Big congrats to you 
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Morning, welcome! If you stick with us I’m sure your happy times will reappear
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Hello and welcome.
Everyone on this forum has heard me repeat this ad nauseum, but it’s still true… doing without alcohol isn’t DEPRIVING yourself of anything, but rather FREEING yourself from an industry that has spread illness and misery and death for millennia.
Day one is a great step… then day 2, 3, onward and upward.
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Great to see peop checking in with milestones.
It’s also great to see people checking in with day 0/1.
To me it means that they still want it and checking in here means that it’s on their mind rather than reaching again for their doc so even if it’s guilt or whatever emotion it’s still great to see.
Day 16, not sleeping properly can fuck off 
Learning to let things go a bit. Got a wri warning at work last week because I more or less went missing for a week (not the first time)
Normally I’d let that wreck my head and lead me to drinking which is obviously nuts
But going to an AA mee a day since last Saturday and remembering all the things I learned the last time and still learning has lead me to say, you know what, sobriety is more important.
Workin from home for the rest of the week, prefer to be in the office but maybe this is the way it has to be for me and sobriety this time 
Have a good day all!
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908, I’m grateful my intense cravings finally went away. For the first time in a long time, I wanted to drink to escape feeling overwhelmed. I just wanted to stop feeling anything for a while. But I dealt with it best I could. I’m a little tired of my coping habits, so I need to switch gears there… but I’m not sure what needs to change.
I got a promotion recently. I’m really fortunate to be in this position. For now, this is what I’m doing so I am happy and thankful. Homeschooling/virtual school has been WAY harder than I anticipated. Like way way harder lol. I told an acquaintance recently that I was having a rough day and I felt like I was going to crack, and they mocked me heavily. I’m not sure what they were trying to get at, sounded like they were calling me a spoiled brat… maybe I should have stuck around and tried to see how my words looked in a different light, but I was just over it. I know I have a really fortunate life. But I also have been severely depressed for 2/3 of my life… and I’ve used self hate/despair to fuel a lot of my drive. I’m happy and I’m ok now. It took a while to get here…I’m really looking forward to sharing space with someone that understands me and can see my true intentions, or at the very least is a little more kind and loving when things are difficult.
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Hi Kayla! Welcome!
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Checking in day 52 !!
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day 272! actually having a good couple of days, I think I’m starting to get some of my mojo back and come out of depression 
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Thankyou for all the kind words!
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- Coffee. Haven’t been this late out of bed for quite a while. I’m dreaming a lot these last days. Had a strange variation on a drinking dream. Thinking -in my dream- about how I drank and now I had to reset but that was OK somehow. That having drank was OK and that I had missed drinking. Maybe subconsciously this is true, and something I haven’t dared to admit to myself. That on a certain level I still miss it. That I still miss to have this escape from normal life. That’s something I have denied I guess. So maybe it’s good to realise and acknowledge and deal with. Because I’m not going back. Never again. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
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Day 2 Sober check in.
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It’s soooo beautiful there. Good morning. I think it’s amazing that you realised, acknowledged, and dealt with that. That’s so much progress if you ask me. Have a great day!
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Good morning all. And happy sober Wednesday. I’m on day 12 today. So close to 2 weeks! It’s beyond exciting. I never would have thought this day would come 1 year ago, or even 2 years ago today. I did a so called starter workout yesterday and I’m foreseeing an Epsom salt bath in my future today. I hope you all have an amazing sober Wednesday.
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Welcome Kayla!
- Idk have a good day everyone not much to report
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A few hours to day 30.
My third time here, since I started trying to work a program for abstinence (not just wishy-washy hoping to drink like a normal person). I feel fairly secure in sobriety, but also aware that I have felt secure before, and then some bullshit rationalisation crept in, and it fell apart. So I feel relieved, cautious, rather than happy or proud or anything like that. Anyway, bedtime soon, and another sober day tomorrow,
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