Good morning everyone.
Looks like everyone is doing a great job… great numbers and great insight and reflections. Keep on rolling!
@mleclaire Hope everything will be ok with your physical situation. those are always some anxious moments…
Day 4 here, terrible sleep. Sore like crazy from last 2 workouts.
Huge DISAPPOINTMENT from my internship… I have to think non-stop to find something positive about it, but yet it’s never enough to compensate de disappointment. I respect everyone there and I respect every kind of professional work in the world, but for myself, there is some stuff I just can’t, and in this job there is a lot ! Thank god it’s part time… Still, 4 days a week until April !! I just can’t see how I’ll get there?!
BUT I am still grateful for this because, maybe I needed a slow week start to get my first sober week as I start a new job. After 6 months off, just so hard to JUST go to work at a certain time and STAY there for a certain amount of hours without just going to do whatever I want whenever the F I want… So I am grateful for that. I maybe wouldn’t have been able to do a whole week of the real job I am looking for right now. I needed that temper week. I can’t complain I had 2 morning at home for the first week…
Does anyone have a job they don’t like and have way to fight automatic negative thoughts about it? I just fight them all day and that’s what’s killing me. I keep switching them with thinking of what new workout I’ll try today (instead of drinking, he he ).
Been there, lots! In the distant past I had boring internships and would have to try my best to find even a small nugget of interest in what I was researching or looking for. More recently, I worked in a really toxic environment that was almost like a codependent alcoholic relationship, so I really had to look at the big picture. How is this job going to further your long term goals? How can you benefit from networking opportunities and build relationships that might help you? What can you take away from each day that is a lesson, even if it’s a lesson about yourself? Also, that big picture reflection at points during the day or the end of the day can help you process thing s if the workload is heavy or new to you. Hang in there, you’re just getting started and it will get easier.
Thank you. I mostly ask myself the first one. It’s hard because on day 2 I already knew I wouldn’t want to continue after this internship into that part of my professional path… And I tend to hate doing stuff I don’t like. BUT as you say, anyways I need that internship to finish my school and get my diploma to do what I want. Or even if I want to do something after, I haven’t done all those years to just not get that recognition of work by a diploma. I just worked too hard. I’ll try to see what I can learn on day to day and also asking that big picture question.
Thanks!
Day 48 here. I made it back to Vegas. I ended up staying in Utah for 3 weeks lol Anything to escape the heat.
Identifying all the codependency in my life and detatching has been so liberating. I was so angry all the time that I was spending all my savings getting my daughters father (who I can hardly stand) through school and I was stuck at home with our kid and that was my own damn fault!!! God, I am done wallowing. I am going to better myself. I am going to figure out what I want to do. Im not going to do it for tons of money either. I have been chasing money all my life and that has never brought me happiness.
Its been a year since I quit my job and dumped the drugs down the sink. I feel like my brain has finally normalized. This year has FLOWN by!! Its been amazing!!! Just really happy guys. Hope you all have a great day! @Girlinterrupted Your pictures are so great! You have inspired me. I want to do something creative today so I am going to start scrapbooking. Wish me luck!! @anon60334405 Dont be so hard on yourself. You are a kick ass dad! These little stinkers are hard work. I feel like I am running a marathon just to get my kid changed and dressed!! She actually runs from me now and laughs about it.
Second day waking up hangover free! I received my LifeRing workbook a few days ago and spent the last two nights writing about my health. MAN. Eye opening how many different ways alcohol ruins your body. It’s really motivating. I started a book last night. And as soon as this weather clears up I’m going to start walking the dogs. Looking forward to many more hangover free mornings. Haven’t told many people outside my family about this yet, but plan to start soon.
I am so proud of you!! 
