357 Days. I have no more patience for hubby’s drinking. I have to learn to control my outbursts. I know I can’t make him change and I have to guard my own sobriety but lately I just can’t deal with it. I’m tired of hearing all the excuses and trying to hold this family together. So many things going through my head as I approach the big 1 year.
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Well done!! Congrats on 1 month Fleur.
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That sounds tough, but remember how important ur own sobriety is. Can’t wait to congratulate u on one year!
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Thank you @M-be-free49. You’re right & it already has. I’m grateful for my life today. Once in a while there are still remnants of the past that show their heads and remind me of the old days. They’re fewer & far between though now.
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I’m sorry you have to deal with all that Lisa. I’m not sure if I could hold it together as well. Kudos to you for staying sober almost one year with mountains of pressure. But you’ll come out the shiny diamond 
(I know that was cheesy 
) Hugs 
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I’ll always be a shiny diamond, it’s my maiden name. lol. It’s funny you said that not knowing it was really my name years ago.
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really?! Ha! That is too funny! Didn’t @Misokatsu say today was full of coincidences? LoL 
I had no idea Lisa!
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That’s right, she did say that. Too funny!! .
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So sorry to hear that Lisa. That sucks. Have you ever thought of Alanon? Probably the thought of going to another type of 12 step meeting is the last thing you want to do. Or anyone. Just saying. I’ve known a lot of people that have done both. I always thought it wasn’t fair that I went to Alanon meetings while my kids were actively drugging and drinking. But it sure was good for me. Since you can’t argue with a drunk or drugged person I just told them I was going to find a meeting. The look on their face was priceless. I’d do it again just for that. They thought we were going to have a great big blow up family argument. I said fuck it and went to my first meeting. Man that was hard. Best decision I ever made.
“If nothing changes. Nothing changes.”
Love ya.
You’re in my prayers.
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Looking good @Apes2020 except for the dodgers hat 
. The San Francisco Giants hat would look a lot better. 
lol maybe on your next day’s run. congratulations on day 143, You’re doing it, keep up the good work.
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Where are you located ? I’m at about 600 m up in the Swiss mountains, but certainly no snow yet, though it has started getting quite a bit cooler in the evenings.
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Today was alright, looking forward to day 4 tomorrow. Someone please tell me to go to bed! I can’t get off this forum!!! 
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I went to a couple on intherooms.com but I’m having a hard time trying to fit more meetings in my schedule. As soon as I’m done with my court ordered AA meetings, I’ll start going again and split my time between AA and al-anon.
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Keep up the good work sober twin
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Day 91. Had another dream smoking meth last night. This time I regretted smoking it in my dream. Often I wake up after meth dreams and feel high for some time. I didn’t today which is good cos that can send me sideways.
Woke up to a dead cat. She was in her twenties and had cancer so it was coming. Still very sad all the same 
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Time for bed for you! we have the sun here now for a few hours Sent him back little later!
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I’m so sorry Bec. I wish I had words or a big hug to comfort you with. It’s probably is good to feel those feelings no matter how shitty it feels. And with 470 days under your belt you CAN feel. Glad you shared.
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Oh Bec I’m so sorry. I wish I could give you a big hug right now. If I were with you today, I’d go over all your wonderful memories with you then eat chocolate and watch the Notebook under comfy blankets. Sometimes sobriety slaps you in the face with too much reality. We may not be physically there but we are in thought and prayer.
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This makes me cry too. I’d totally give you a hug right now if I could. I’m so sorry for your pain. I think how you’re handling today is necessary and justified. 
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