Been a rough few weeks but I’m working my way back up in days. New goal will be 100. Haven’t been active on the forum recently but have been doing 5 meetings a week with an old friend with similar issues. Not sure sponser route is for me at this time. I’m pretty busy with work and just don’t have the extra 3-4hrs a day to make that all work. Hope everyone is doing good. I have a lot to catch up on!
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And I know exactly how that feels with my son too. Those kids you love and want to kill all at the same time make me a little anxious. I am also finding that pouring my sparkling in a glass I get more, faster and it tends to make me calmer for some reason.
I hope you son is still doing well. I think we are very much out of the woods here. Besides mine is married now so he’s her problem. 
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I think he’s okay. He started me on this road and, being an engineer, charted my nondrinking days vs his. So my “grade” improves every day. If that makes sense
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What? 3-4 hrs a day to work with your sponsor? That’s just crazy.
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Happy 7 months to you!! 
I am a Pats fan too!!! (even though I am from CA)…LOL what can I say… I like to win!! 
Hope you have a lovely day!
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Thanks so much and woot woot!! Our boys played good today! 
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Day 180. 6 months. 
I woke up this morning with a sense of relief and accomplishment. It’s hard to think about the day 6 months ago when I decided it was time to change my life. I had drank to the point of almost killing myself from alcohol poisoning but my tolerance had been so high that I wasn’t even feeling the “drunk” effects. That’s a scary, and slippery slope to go down.
On a positive note, I am in a much better place now. Physically and mentally I have improved, got a new job, made it to my 30th Birthday alive, and am just embracing what is to come.
Any NFL fans out there watch the games today? I have the wonderful pleasure (sarcasm) of being a Detroit Lions fan as I’m born and raised in Michigan but they are hands down the most frustrating team and awful team to watch haha
Happy sober sunday!
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Football shmootfall! 
There’s so much to celebrate!
@Dragonflygirl82 nice numbers! 
@Brittb12 and you too!
@Lisa07 can you hear it? I think the “5 sleeps drum roll” has started! 
in a perfect world, we could all teleport ourselves to your favourite park or somewhere and celebrate - a picnic, games, music, coolers full of seltzer… The cops can drive on by, we’d be high on life and your year of sobriety! 
ps - boo to full bars at theatres and spilled popcorn, yep…
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Just read your first post so I’m a little behind. I don’t blame you for being bitter. I’m sorry you had to be worried about him and being out with his buddy all night and into the morning. I did dumb shit like that to my wife ages ago. I feel ashamed now. It was not right of me. Anyway. You are only in control of your own sobriety. No one else’s. My wife still drinks. Every freakin day of my sobriety. I’m Enjoying sobriety so much it really doesn’t matter to me anymore. Stick with it. It feels great after you lay some tracks. And you are worth it. And so is that 6 year old. Someday when the moment is right tell your husband how important your sobriety is to you. I finally did that with my wife. It did help. But she said she’s still drinking. And that’s ok. I can’t make anyone sober. Just take care of me. Sorry I get a little long winded. Stick around and keep checking in.
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Me I did
Movie theatres in Santa Monica they just bring the booze to ya.
It’s nice to be able to sit through the whole movie now.
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M1 d3
Making some attempts to improve life, professionally, personally, and even though the attempts are small, am feeling the worry of “what if I screw up” “what if I embarrass myself”. I know trying new things is important, the act itself is worthy, even if it doesn’t work out and not trying will produce nothing at all, but just so sick of second-guessing myself. I look at people just living their lives doing things, and it looks effortless. Maybe they have an internal negative dialogue too, I don’t know. I just feel tired of trying so hard for what seems normal for others.
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Day 76.
I can’t help but remember significant dates. This day 2 years ago was a hard day for me, a really hard time in my life overall. It might sound like a strange loss to be so sad about, but on this day 2 years ago I had to say goodbye to my Dad’s small acreage (no house on it but a workshop with cabin), my favourite place on earth. (Siblings had it and the house sold within a few months after Dad died in case the money was needed for Mom’s care, which it hasn’t been and won’t be, but don’t let me drag you into that.)
It felt like I lost part of me that day. I used to go there for an afternoon, sometimes with my work – or for a couple days at a time, keeping the woodstove going all night, deer in the meadow, hikes nearby, and yet a 5-10 min drive to a small espresso-serving town. Perfect. Spent lots of time out there with Dad too. I always felt healthier when I was there. Drinking, definitely drinking anything in excess, just wasn’t important when I was there. I did drink a lot though when everything changed and it was to be sold.
But, it’s 2 years later now, and I’m still here. Glad to be sober. Even when things are sad.
Your stories of resilience help me every day.
G’night, big love to all. 
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I think everyone questions and second-guesses themselves over at least some things. Putting yourself out there to try new things and improve is huge - the effort alone deserves applause, never mind the outcome! 
But yeah, it’s hard…
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made it 45 days no drinking…but I reset my time two days ago. I’m disappointed in myself but I know I can do this. Anyhow…day 2 again…
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59.93 Days
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Day two is one more day then day 1
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Going on holliday, see you in a few weeks 
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I really love this. I’m adding it to my daily affirmations.
Just remind yourself of this along the way.
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