Get comfortable being uncomfortable…I know it’s easier said than done…I handle it in the same way as walking into the cold ocean…I try to not think about it and just do it.
It will pay off for you, even small changes can lead to big results 
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Trying is get proper sleep when you sleep in a different bed for half a week is not easy when you’re sleeping isn’t great 
I wake up, check the time and it’s 4am ffs, got back to sleep though 
Slight anxiety but in the office today so I consider that a ‘safe’ place to be even if it does wreck my head at times and also sometimes take things personally when they really aren’t but that’s that voice inside my head.
@Misokatsu I too look at other people and think, ‘why can’t I be like them’, seems normal and easy but we really have no idea what is going on inside their head or what struggles they are going through so I try to think like that instead (although that in itself is hard).
Anyway, rambling again, have a great day/evening/sleep everyone and keep checking in 
p.s sometimes typing on this phone only half the words get written, don’t know if it’s me or the autocorrect wouldn’t mind but I bought myself an S20+!! Might be the keyboard but can’t be arsed changing it
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Hang in there love. hope you managed to get through the day. How are you feeling now?
Most of the times I am positive. There’s no other way. Or because I know it could always be worse and has been.
I’m not sure, nah reflecting about it quickly and I can surely say that I’m always positive. I do have a tendency of worrying and planning for worst case scenarios but it’s easier to be positive if you’ve got an emergency plan.
Ohh pancakes, delicious. I tried carrot cake oatmeal this morning. Still yucky, no matter what I do with it, oatmeal tastes like wallpaper glue. And for the last week I’ve tried almost every recipe I’ve found for different varieties of oatmeal.
I’ll bake cookies with them instead and change into eating Christmas/Santa’s porridge. It’s a rice porridge where you cook rounded rice in milk with vanilla, butter and sugar. And eat it with syrup and cinnamon, some people have butter in it to,or put sugar on.
We mostly eat it for Christmas here, and if you’ve got leftovers you can mix the cold Santa’s porridge with vanilla whip or whipped cream with vanilla, add Satsumas or oranges, peeled and sliced. We call that dessert Rice a la Malta, serves it with fruit soup and eats for Christmas dessert.
Over here we don’t give the Santa milk and cookies, we put out a bowl of rice porridge and a Christmas ham sandwich for him, so he’ll have enough energy to walk around in the snow and so he’ll stay warm. And therefore we call it Santa’s porridge.
Well my family does both, Swedish porridge, ham Sandwich, American milk and cookies, Reindeer mix and carrots. 
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Just awesome! Congrats young lady on 7 months , you’re doing great. Keep up the good job!
Blessings and sobriety!
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Be safe, stay sober.
Blessings and sobriety!
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day 277! mostly had a pretty good weekend. as always, very sad I have to go back to work tomorrow
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 15 yeehaw.
Kids are still at home, I’ve talked to their teachers and I’m about to call the school nurse for consultation on when they are allowed to go back.
I’ve got class from 11-15 today, all on zoom luckily. And as everyday I’m extremely grateful for that possibility.
I rearrange our bedroom one more time yesterday. I don’t think I like it this way either, so a total renovation is coming closer for that room too.
But first we’ve got a lot of other rooms and the outside to do.
Cold and rainy, I haven’t started the heat in the house yet, so I was cold all night. The day is supposed to clear and this week is supposed to stay around +15 degrees so there’s no point in starting the heat until next week.
And now to the next episode of Gypsy Galore, that y’all have been waiting for.
My brother is still trying to buy that house, but it seems to go out of his budget unfortunately.
Pa says he is feeling better, doc says he doesn’t and that it’ll take months until he really does. Pa is probably coming by Friday so we can go and buy groceries together. There’s a store in a nearby town selling groceries from other countries, like Turkey, Iran and Balkan. And they’ve got a lot of things we uses for cooking. Ma hates to visit that store, so me and Pa usually goes.
One of my sisters have stared to hang out with an old friend of mine and my other sister. He’s nit a good guy and she’s mad at us because we’ve pointed it out.
I’m planning to invite my aunt for Thanksgiving, because my teen and my cousin are great friends. No other family members really likes my aunt because she’s a little more upperclass than us and her kids surely acts like it, so the rest if the family has threatened not to come if I invite her. She has her birthday at Thanksgiving too ao there’s no way I’m not going to invite her.
My closest friend, or actually the friend who used to be. The friend who turned his back on me when I started to get sober, remember him?
Yeah, that guy who eventually got back to doing drugs…
He wants to get back working with my husband again starting next month, he has quit drinking, I think it is because he is doing drugs but he claims it isn’t.
I talked with him this weekend and he has moved from the town he was living in, to his father who lives in my neighbor village. I could take my bike to go and visit and be there in about 30 mins.
His son is starting school in our neighbor village today.
Since he in his own world once again have his shit together he wants help. And because he is “back home” and we’ve always been like siblings he wants me to help him out with storing his things that he can’t fit in his Pa’s house. He wants to spend the weekend here with us/me helping him out. I deeply doubt his claim that he neither does drugs or drink anymore. Because he surely did not long ago. But in the other side, If I could quit so can he. And what kind of friend would I be if I turned him down? After all I’ve counted this guy as family for as long as I can remember. He’s like my bad twin or something.
And my sister is once again on the edge with he alcoholic husband, my offer of a spare room is still standing. And no one in family have any patience with her husband anymore, he refuses to even try to get help and acting like a rude prick at the moment.
To be continued…
Wishing y’all a good day and a wonderful start of the week.
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Jenna you are a worry bug, just from reading this post I can feel that you’ve built up such anxious thoughts and feelings.
A minor sidestep to your mornings agenda, I would set the alarms for the days you have things going on prior to the arrangement even a simple reminder the night before so that you have it as a fresh reminder.
Don’t let it consume you, if a person can’t see an accidental error that is slightly there issue aswell.
I hope that you put this morning accidental error to rest and carry on with your day, beating yourself up and feeling negative is not gonna make you feel at ease.
YOU deserve the kindness, you are a dam kind person!
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Congratulations to 80 days, that’s awesome 
We all make mistakes, it’s human to accidentally sleep in from time to time. She should understand that too. And I can see many possible solutions to that issue.
If she can’t take that it was an honest mistake that’s not your fault.
In my opinion she should’ve been out having enough time to actually be able to turn around if someone would happend so she doesn’t run late no matter what.
And if she doesn’t want to hear you out or discuss it, that’s nothing you should have anxiety for.
In my opinion all you can do is explain what happened and give that lady an honest excuse. The rest is up to her.
I hope your day turns out a lot better than it started, don’t let this take over and consume you. None of us are more than humans and things like that can happen to the best 
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I’m so proud of you and inspired by your strength. You truly make a difference to me and everyone here. 
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- Coffee. Another three late shifts coming up. Feeling rather low in my energy right now. Slept long which in itself is good, but did not feel like getting up at all. Well, the only thing to do is kick myself in the backside and get moving right. I will and I am. Sober and clean. Have a good week all. Clean and sober for sure. Love from Amsterdam where we have some glorious Indian summer weather atm.
@Dragonflygirl82 Big congrats Courtney! 7 Months yay!
@Jdiaz Disappointed OK, but discouraged no! One day at a time John. It’s all we all have. You’re right back at it. Keep going.
@Misokatsu Big thumbs up for trying new stuff Flo. Working on ourselves. That’s what matters. Others, well they are just that, others. Not us.
@Jennajen Shit happens and will continue to happen occasionally. It’s how we react to it what matters. You’re doing good friend. Have a good day. Hugs.
@Claartje Fijne vakantie!
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Great job! You won that battle! I’m proud of you.
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Good morning! Day 17 for me! I have my first meeting tonight, but am actually ready to get started! Letssssss gooooo! I know it’s a Monday, but it’s a sober one, so we can kill it! “No I’m not lucky I’m blessed” 
I hope y’all all can have a great sober Monday too! God Bless!
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Day 419! Still going strong. New band had our first photoshoot over the weekend. Gearing up to send out “press kits” to hype the upcoming album. Still lifting heavy and all the good stuff that comes with that.
Solo shot from this weekend, trying to look “tough” and “metal”.
Have a strong day!!!
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Day 7.Starting to feel better physically and going to see a therapist.Been here so many times before trying to take the action needed each day to make it through.Hope everyone has a good day 
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Wow, Jenna. That’s really fascinating about how your body is conditioned to prepare for the depressant. There is so much going on with us than we realize. Thank you. And, yes, my son is fine and sober. It was all in my head.
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@Misokatsu thank you for your words days ago! I am in day 5 and glad to keep moving forward. Seems I am resilient or a little bit of it
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Working on Day 17, my favorite # . Work with its usual Monday morning craziness. Quarterly taxes tomorrow. Normally, that would send me to the wine bottle. Now, I’m, meh. Life. Ten years from now I won’t even remember paying them. Unless I don’t! Be well, peeps. Thanks so much for the support this weekend. Onward!
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