Aw you sound like a keeper @Fargesia_murielae. The fact that you are caring and observant enough to try to go above and beyond to make sure your wife knows she is cared about really melts my heart. 
She is very lucky to have you!!
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Congratulations on your first week. 60 years old here. And I have never felt better being sober this year. Yes. I picked 2020 to be sober. It’s a good thing too. You can do it too! I wish I had done it sooner. But one day at a time now is better than me being a functioning alcoholic now. And yes this app has been my rock. I Could not do it without the support from everyone here.
Keep coming back. Your worth it.
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Day 42, my second check in (I deleted my first one because it was just a long rant about my daughters fathers mental illness and I decided to save you guys from that)
Anyway, in other news my Dad is having a manic episode today. He had one 9 years ago. It is stress induced. His wife found out he was hiding pot and his drinking and that along with no sleep triggered this episode he is having. My dad isnt someone you would guess has an addiction or a mental illness. I feel bad for the guy for hiding it. I dont know if he thinks he has a problem. I invited him to Sobertime to try to help him because it has been SO helpful for me!! Honesty you guys are the best. I dont know where I would be without this place. Maybe he will try it. He said its nice that he can actually feel emotions right now because usually he cant feel anything. I also feel bad that he lives his life holding everything in to the point where he has a manic episode. Anyways, pray for him. Have a great day everyone.
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@Tim904 Especially at night, when I thought sleep would come but it would not, i found if i turned to the memes thread i’d emerge some time later, the urge having passed.
my dog girl, on the other hand, wasn’t a fan - my middle of the night giggling interrupted her sleep i guess!
Also - just hold tomorrow morning in your mind’s eye. you’d rather wake up grateful to have watched another craving float on by…
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Good to see you!
Thank you for chiming in. Already, this group, this app, has been extremely helpful. My anxiety is down, too, which definitely helps with 2020. Go you!
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Time for bed. Checking in after an exhausting but somewhat productive day 25. Happy weekend everyone. Good night and good luck.
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Checking in on a Friday night. Mavy and Me on the couch. Couldn’t be happier. Except…
Unless somebody comes over to do the dishes 
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Time to train the cat
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Day 204~ Been a good day. Finally a mini break from work and able to unwind and relax. Got to camp around 7. Had a nice dinner by the fire with some good tunes playing in the background. Simple but perfect. 
Side note: mini venting needed: I do feel something stirring up. I’m feeling a bit of frustration building up with certain family members and so called “Friends” I need to continue to work on my boundaries. I cannot allow people to treat me as a second option or the next best. I go ALL in for the ones I love and care about. But don’t burn me. It won’t end well. This new Courtney sticks up for herself and won’t allow it.
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Well that was bizarre.
I woke up this morning feeling really pissed off at myself for having had several glasses of cognac last night, and for the fact that I would have to reset my counter.
Then I realised that it had been a (quite vivid) dream, and that I had NOT in fact had any cognac or anything else !!!
I suppose that it’s just some little corner of my brain crying out for some booze, while the rest of my brain knows full well that I don’t want any. Bizarre.
Has anyone else had vivid dreams like that ? Anyway, heading back to Switzerland today…
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Congrats on one week! Sounds like you and your son will be able to support each other through recovery. Pretty awesome 
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Ya I’ve had 2 drinking dreams and I was pretty upset when I woke but only very briefly and then realized it was a dream. Weird.
However I’ve wanted to share this but I forgot. Now is as good a place as any.
The other night I had a dream that I was at a bar. A long rectangular bar. I recognized people and walked all around the bar trying to fit in. I didn’t fit in anywhere. I actually just now remembered that.
Good dream. But I was frustrated trying to fit in with people at this bar. I’m taking that as a good sign.
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@Misokatsu I’m so sorry that happened! I know what it’s like to be accused of using when I wasn’t and it’s really shitty. 
@Carly7033 Those succulents look great!
@MrsOdh I love your little money tree! It looks so healthy!
@Bomdhil , @Anonymous83 , and @Mychelle Congratulations on your one week sober!
@Mno That Gouda looks amazing. There’s nothing like some good cheese!
@CapriciousCapricorn Good for you with the sugar! That’s something I need to do too. Sugar is an inflammatory substance and I can only imagine that it would be better for your fibro without it.
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All set up at my weekend AA camperoo it’s 5am now Saturday I’m sat in me deckchair watching the sun rise ,cockerals crowing in the background . checking in on day 44.GOD IT FEELS GOOD TO BE ALIVE AND FREE.
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Keep it up. Strong share! realizing you are so strong can make you every time turn this frustration around and use it to start protecting yourself turning it inwards towards yourself instead of to the outside world. recognise it so much. like you are screaming in a crowd and nobody hears you.
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Sounds nice with the camping. I hope we’ll be able to do some camping this fall too.
I hope the family and friend issue works out to the best. Don’t be afraid to end the friendship if it doesn’t. Or as I usually says, just because you’re family you don’t have to like or even hang out with each other.
You deserve the very best.
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Well done…