Definitly ! I appreciate it 
coming here daily is what helps the most my higher power and myself
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- Autumn is in full swing here. Drinking is getting further and further away from me. A busy day at work ahead. Would have felt terrible about it hungover like I would have been 493 days ago. Now itās just that, a busy day. Have a good week all. Thanks for being here for each other, for me and for yourselves. Sober and clean. Love from my little square.
@jjcarson92 Excellent work Joseph! Big congrats on 9 months.
@anon27700620 Two months is going place friend. Well done, congrats!
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Still on day 1, not coping with stress or pressure very well at all. I know I have been sober before, I know I can be there again.
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I know, thatās probably a universal teen thing 
She did order herself a pair but apparently 3-5 days is āan eternityā in teen years so she took mine. 
Iām not borrowing her new pair when they arrive because thatās more ārippedā and holes than actually pants.
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Day 320, yay!
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In my humble opinion, her calling you a shitty parent all the time is verbal abuse. You are not a shitty parent. You are doing the best you can do and your girls know that you love them. All parents just do the best they can with what theyāve got. Youāve been dealt a crap hand with someone who wonāt play fair with you. That doesnāt make you a shitty person or a shitty parent. You are doing amazing with your sobriety and that is going to matter so much to your girls. Theyāre going to remember your love and theyāll remember that you were there when you were with them, that you were present and clean.
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I just saw this my sober friend and wanted to send my belated congratulations! How awesome to have two years of sober living. āLearning To Flyā, such a great analogy and one of my favorite songs! Thank you for all your support and way to go. Donāt ever look back!!
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@anon60334405 itās not about the money, man. Remember this next time your girls run to you 
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Happy Monday all, checking in on day80 clean and day 18 smoke free, have a blessed day love Emma 
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Alright Hazy?
Whatās the problem?
Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 43
Zoom meeting with the project group in 30 mins.
And Iām so pleased to have the house for myself again, I can play music whenever I want. And do things as I usually does them without having to care or worry about anyone else. Me who actually hate routines and could live just about anywhere. Itās funny, but I think the basic need of being free is what makes it important. I might do things just the same a lot of times anyway, but I want the freedom to do it my way, or just the opposite way the days I want to. Without caring about anyone else or be judged by them. Iām still totally exhausted from having annoying guests here that long and I swear that itāll never happened again. Iāll help whenever I can but I have to step it up and stop helping on the cost of my own comfort level. Sounds harsh but If I want to feel good thereās not much of a choice.
So now to the family and friends update.
My nephews birthday is coming up, my brother have invited all the family members different days because of the Covid-19 outbreak. My family is invited together with my sister and her hubby (the one who stopped drinking eventually) my brother planed it the way that my sister was going to pick us up and not bring her husband, because my brother doesnāt like him. Sheās bringing her husband ofc and because of that thereās one place short in the car so my husband canāt come. He probably wouldnāt anyway because heās working double shifts this week, but we didnāt had the time to say that before they started fighting over it. My brother and my husband likes each other a lot so I think itās mostly my brother who thinks itās a problem.
My old childhood friend, the guy who turned his back at me when I stopped drinking and eventually started with drugs is going to move to my village. He just got a contract for an apparent here last week. Heāll live within walking distance and our boys will be in the same school. Heās back together with the lady he was breaking up with this summer, and they are moving here together. And in the middle of November heās going to start working with my husband again so my husband will be sleeping at home again like ānormalā people. And Iāll get a girlfriend to go and have Fika with. Itās nice, but for what I know my friend is still doing drugs even if he claims he stopped drinking. So itās a little worrying at the same time. Iāve distanced myself a lot from him but weāve always been close and now when heās living that close again Iām worried that we might drag each other down like weāve done in the past.
The friend who borrowed money seems to be getting on right track, he was here picking my husband up for work yesterday and once again assured me that heāll return the money within a two weeks. I believe that when I see it, but Iām glad he seems to be getting his shit together once again and hopefully he stays that way.
Thanksgiving and Halloween parties is on hold for now, so the argument about inviting my aunt is on hold as well I guess. Besides that my teen and my cousin had a fight, my teen turns 18 in February and doesnāt want a party she wants to go abroad if thatās possible, with only us her closest family and her boyfriend. My cousin have been looking forward to attending the party and is a little bit of an extreme planner so sheād already planned half of it well see how it ends. Hopefully this Covid-19 think is slowly fading so weāre hoping for being able to celebrate Christmas in Spain and borrowing my husbandās boss house by the ocean. And in that case weāre bringing the teens boyfriend as well (He counts as family now) and celebrates her birthday early the way she wants it, so she can have her party the way family wants it.
Happy Monday everyone
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Really not good this morning. Im low slightly angry and am about to relapse. The cravings today are off the charts! 12 days in Sobriety and 10 for smoking and i just feel like i NEED a drink!!! 
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Itās the addicted part of your brain thatās panicking. Addiction sees its grip on you weaken. Donāt give in! Good you are here. We got you. Together we are strong. You can beat this. One day, one hour, one minute at a time. Also your anger makes me think of HALT. Know it?
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Hi. No i dont but makes sense! I know today is going to be one of those days where I have to make choice. Relapse and feel crap and even worse afterwards or struggle through and hope i feel better later or tomorrow!
Im so close to just breaking down.
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Honestly you are stronger than you think. You already know what would happen if you gave in. Itās a struggle and a fight but it a struggle worth fighting! Keep yourself occupied by other stuff. Like reading and posting and commenting and talking here. You are doing good friend. Stay with us.
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Thanks! Im about to go to the gym. Ill post after. God bless
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Donāt go doing anything silly.
Youāve already said it yourself
So make the right choice.
Itās that easy, but it damn hard to stop ourselves from doing it.
Been there, done that.
At times like this, we have to dig down a little deeper into the store of strength and courage that we all have inside us.
All we need to do is to learn that we can do anything if we simply put our minds in gear and go!!
Keep reaching out bud. 12 days is not to be sniffed at at all.
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