Oh dear! 
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@anon79808082 Thats a lot of rain! 
Good thing you are a ray of sunshine!!
Send some of that rain my way. We are breaking records here in Vegas going on the most days without rain!
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Done! 
And thank you for being so sweet~! 
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Great job on your 37 days. Thatās awesome. Iāve only had a couple of relapse dreams and I donāt think I actually drank. I donāt remember my dreams. Almost never. My wife remembers hers and tells them to me in detail. She asked her psychiatrist about her dreams. He says āDreams are weird.ā Thatās it? Thatās all you got after all those years in school. 
Have a great rest of your sober Sunday. Your doing great!!
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Day 27: Got some lurking ill feelings (not physically), like nagging self-doubt and anxiety that is mostly being crushed by the beautiful morning and a more general satisfaction. I do intend to do some grounding work, some recovery reading and do some writing today, along with time in the kitchen (my favorite!). Planning on a relaxing evening and early night to transition into the week. I want to address these niggling feelings now before they grow, and definitely donāt want to feed them. Something big on my mind is that Iām naturally a planner, so it takes tremendous effort to stay in the present and address what is happening now. Hard work but worth it.
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I felt some pretty great benefits on week 6. You go girl!! Enjoy your colors up there. Still waiting for more colors down here. This will be my first time in ages that Iām not driving my Mom and Dad around NH and MA looking at the foliage. And them acting like children. Look at that tree!! Look at that tree! Look at that tree!! They were so cute and so grateful for the littlest things. So happy Iām turning into them.
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From what Iāve learned the first part of recovery is abstinence. Than you must work on those feelings. You definitely must address those issues in your past. Sorry to be blunt but you are not ok. How could you or anyone be? Your addiction mind is telling you everything is fine cuz itās easier and thatās what we want to hear.
I know I should stop but I tend to ramble on. Just one more thing. Another slogan for ya.
I just know your a great person and you deserve a sober life. Your so worth that.
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Gorgeous shots! You live in Amsterdam right?
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Foliage is all gone. Earliest autumn ever. What a happy memory for you! Joy is in the simple things, no? Thatās why I proudly embrace my simple mindedness!
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Day 37 Thankful to be alive and clean. Noon meeting, and helping my sister make crusted Italian chicken. Addiction is more than just drugs and alcohol. It is obsession and compulsion. Starting to see a lot of other behaviors I have problems with. I am excited to learn more about me. It might not be easy but Iām worth it. Iām willing and open to it. You donāt have to know WHO you are, youāll figure that out daily as youāre making changes to become better. Itās unlearning unhealthy behaviors and character defects, that have been set in motion through out our lives, and learning to change them in yourself. Iām teachable!!
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Thank you! Youāre such an encouragement.
Hahaha, that wasnāt much insight from the psychiatrist!
Had a good day despite getting angry in the morning. Thanks to @Olivia who came for a cuppa, scones and card games. I had classical music playing so it felt like I had my s**t together. 
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Woooohooooo!!! Way to go! 
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Checking in on day 72 clean and day 11 smoke smoke free Iām really struggling Iāve got new phone how do I get ts app and get all my info bk if I download new it starts me from begingging and if I search it it logs me in straight away but thereās no homepage with my info like money daved days clean etc if anyone can help @SassyRocks do you know how I can sort this out definitely donāt want to loose my info that Iāve built up over the past 18 months
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just re enter your start date and daily spend and it will do the rest, youāll have a clean slate with no resets, yah
Day 8. Got up early, took my dog for a walk, and then had to take him to the boarders for the next couple of days. Ran some errands and then came home and cleaned the house. Laundry is finishing up now, and Iām restarting a knitting project. I started reading a book about codependency last night, and Iām finding it very applicable to a lot of situations in my life. Looking forward to an early night, since I have to be up early for work in the morning.
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Glad you got through it. Good work!
I got a bit pissy myself yesterday for a few hours. I wanted to go up to the store, but ended up having to change my wifeās car battery in the hot ass garage, first. It put me in a bad mood for a few hours. Then I got annoyed at myself for being in a bad mood over something so small. Then I realized I hadnāt eaten much. Made some dinner and was able to cool my jets.
Iām not sure about having fun putting together IKEA furniture though! 
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So awesome, Tom! Happy for you!
look at you go 
Iām loving watching your days right now.
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