I really like the small clarities like rain analogy, @Mychelle. All my love and support to you. You will emerge from this like a butterfly trapped in a stifling cocoon. Cannot wait to see what you do with the rest of your life!
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Thatās fantastic! I love the graveyard. LOVE Halloween. This is a holiday they will never forget. Good for you and I hope, in your moments of temptation, you donāt forget the magic you made sober, either.
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My son, whoās 25, said at day 30 he was wondering if he was going to have to white knuckle this for the rest of his life. Now at day 63, he feels free and notes, oddly, there are days where he DOESNāT think about taking a drink. Yay!!! I like your answer that itās always in your head because that gives you control to say, yeah, youāre there. I hear youā¦but Iām not listening! Iām gonna use this trick myself. I really like how you found the commonalities of this morningās postings from a bunch of different people going through different addictions. Strength in numbers, no?
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I really like them analogies too. Especially the butterfly one! Thank you for saying this! Iām so thankful for you also! You teach me so much and give me so much joy! Iām extremely proud of you!
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Day 116 clean and sober today. School was awesome yesterday and Iām so grateful to be able to attend even though itās online right now. So much to learn and study, feels like drinking water out of a fire hydrant lmao! I need to ask @Brookiemonster618 how to balance studying, working and sobriety as sheās the real rockstar here when it comes to that lol. Anywho, I hope everyone has an amazing day today and Eric @Dazercat youāre in my prayers bro. Love you guys!!! 
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Lost my way in recent months. But Iām back. Day 2. Checking in daily got me to 54 days last time. Hopeful and optimistic today.
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Itās like in the movie āBeautiful mindā, where the non-existing people have never disappeared from Nashās schizophrenic mind, he just learnt how to ignore them.
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Glad to see you back! 
Day 74! Has anyone else noticed that you have developed a mantra? I catch myself saying āI dont drink anymore, thats just not what I do.ā I was driving in the car yesterday and I became aware of itā¦ I realized I tell myself this alllll the time. I think what we tell ourselves on a daily basis is so important. Other things I repeat to myself is that āI dont even miss itā āI lost my privileges, but its not even a privilegeā āThat was my old life.ā I think it may be reprogramming my mind because I truly believe that I do not drink anymore, thats just not what I do! Hope you all have a great day!
@Mephistopheles 1000!!! Thats one hell of a number!! Way to go!! 
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Mantras are super helpful! Most of mine are geared towards altering my perspective/mental health, but of course that isnāt mutually exclusive from addiction.
āMy way is not the only wayā is a big one.
And I use the serenity prayer a lot for letting things go. Often times not all of it, sometimes its just a quiet āthings I cannot changeā to myself. Donāt have to say the whole thing.
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Great news Seb!! I hope the report comes back with successful news and you get a fast sober recovery. Thanks for keeping us posted.
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Checking in on day 74 clean and day13 tobacco free, I started the gym today it nr on killed me https://tse2.mm.bing.net/th?id=OGC.3fba92937cd32bfc73cad4d64167d5d8&pid=Api&rurl=https%3A%2F%2Fmedia.giphy.com%2Fmedia%2FCt4552ADvcDYI%2Fgiphy.gif&ehk=f3ZUEMefyfcVTnZjnDcu%2BBxJdOhDNySlyj7bPVCAuPk%3D have a blessed evening
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Music really is magical. Mom finished up her teaching at the West Ruislip Elementary School in London. She taught the Americans kids that were over there with the military. And she got her masters at the London University. Back in 78. It was her favorite place in the world England. Mine too. I had this engraved on my parents cemetery marker āthe song has ended but the melody lingers onā. 
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I never thought about it being a āNew Mantra,ā but youāre right. Iām sticking to āIām not drinking today and Iām probably not drinking tomorrow.ā
Sometimes I think I should get rid of the āprobablyā because it gives me an out? Or does it just keep me focused on today?
Good one.
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Great job on the 74 days and the no smoking. I love the gym gif or whatever it was. Thatās exactly how I feel about it too.
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Yeah Iām defenitely not a gym junkie lol thatās for sure but if I donāt try Im gonna be as big as a house before Xmas eveš
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Love it!! You could take out the probablyā¦ but then again ātomorrowā does end up being ātodayāā¦ so I think you are good!! 
@TMAC love yours too! A great reminder that mantras dont have to be just about not drinking. Altering mental health/perspective sounds like leveling up to me!!
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youāre totally right - ā¦coming out of a blackout while trying to break in to my neighbours house (through the cat door) in my underwear was much more awkward. waking up in a jail cell not knowing how i got their was much more awkward. having my partner describe to me how i acted the previous evening when i hit on his friend was much more awkward. i can handle a simple āno thanks - not drinkingā. yesterday i actually had the thought that maybe i would just have one beer with him. what a terrible idea. it was a moment of weakness. if it wasnāt for this forum i may have convinced myself i could do that. evil and elusive moderationā¦not this time!
Thank you - have a happy sober day!
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No smoking still , my phone was fucked but goose boy 050 is back.
Bless yaāll
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Checking in for days 24 & 25.
Feeling so peaceful since Iāve been back out walking, the injury is still no better but the mental health benefits of the walks for outweigh the pain.
One of my cats was at the groomers today, so has was bathed and de-matted, since arriving home with him though, my other cat is showing major non-recognition aggression and hisses and low growls at him every time he moves or tries to pass him. I really donāt know what to do, I already use Feliway, hoping that just giving it time helps, but I dont feel like I can go for my 2nd walk of the day because of this now.
Iāve got another viewing on my flat tomorrow, and this one sounds really promising as the guy already has a mortgage approved and has viewed the other flats on this development but mine is the cheapest so heās interested and ready to buy, so more cleaning tomorrow, and hopefully a more relaxed relationship between the cats. 
I feel so much more stronger in my sobriety this time around, itās mind-blowing. Iāve got one final addiction to tackle which is binge-eating disorder, and I do try every day so I know Iāll get there eventually. 
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