Good luck!!!
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3 days down, no cravings today, a good day
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A little bit stronger and a little bit wiser. As long as we continue to grow we must hold no regrets.
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My sponsor asked me how was I doing and I replied Iām feeling OK, he said I donāt give a shit how your feeling Iām asking what your doing about it. Our feelings are what get us in trouble and we are to quick to use them as an excuse.
So now if I was to have an emotion that in the past would have made me pick up Iām like āI donāt give a shit how you feelā and quickly move on.
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Mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpaā¦
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Thank god for Google translate 
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Oh man. That would never work for me. I do base a lot of my life decisions based on feelings cause I can trust my heart. Itās my brain thatās a liar. My heart knows sober us best. My brain will try to rationalize and convince me the booze is fine. Or will make me feel better. If someone said āI donāt give a shit how you feelā to me Iād be done with them so fast. I DO see the good points about having an action plan though to deal with your feelings. As in āwhat are you gonna do about itā Iām working on those with my therapist for my anxiety instead of medicating it with booze. The action plan is like run up and down the stairs to burn off the excess energy. Write in my worry time journal for 15 minutes and then forget about it. Etc.
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Day 17. Feeling rested and mostly chill. Working on crocheting a blanket to keep my hands busy cause Iām a little bored. Boredom is definitely the enemy of sobriety for me. Cause for some reason booze brain goes āyou Know what would make sitting around more fun? A glass of wineā but now I know THATS a big fat lie. Cause it will be fun for one day and then Iāll have 3 days of suicidal ideation and panic attacks cause my meds wonāt be working thanks to the wine. Speaking of ā¦ ima go take those right now.
I hope you are having a beautiful autumn day where ever yāall are on the planet.
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Yes! Mine are more geared to the root causes of my drinking. āI matter and I am enough,ā āWhat can you do about it right this moment,ā āThis, too, shall pass.ā
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Very cool number
Staying SoberThank you! 
Day 591
Just wanted to share this because itās brilliant.
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Day 7. Another first week in the books . It took me by surprise too. I had just came back from running errands when the notification popped up. I stood there thinking āhuh, how about thatā.
I am enjoying the heightened awareness one gets when theyāre happily sober though I know itās temporary. Also, thanks to everyone for being awesome 
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Checking in on the 23rd day. Spouse drinks wine right next to me. Not easy to endure, but I donāt struggle as much as I thought I would. Still sick, today I worked a lot, had two deadlines for tomorrow and luckily managed to finish in time.
Iām setting up my sober weekdays step by step, figuring out what works for me and what doesnāt. Not easy, because everything seems so empty, my everyday life, my future, and also me. Hard to fill them with content, value, sense.
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Day 236~ I need to vent. Im so stressed out with so much going on itās really becoming unbearable. My sister is now starting on me via textā¦ which is lame like pick the fucking phone up and call me. Sheās mad that I havenāt been sharing with her the things my adult kids have been doing. Like for real?! I have so much going on with working 50+ hours a week. Plus our rental properties and opening the shop not to mention the ailing health of our dog. The phone works both ways. Itās just always drama with her. Iām actually proud of the way I handled it. Before I would have totally went nuts on her and started flying off the handle but Iām not that person anymore. I canāt bring myself down to that level. I told her Iām sorry if I hurt her but I didnāt do anything trying to hurt her. I feel like Iām always āin troubleā. Itās hard having so many people to answer to. Iām doing the best I can and thatās all I can do. She loves throwing in my face that I have a closer relationship with my sister in law. Which back in my drinking days I did but I no longer do as she still parties and thatās not my thing. I hate being accused of doing something I didnāt do and especially being accused of purposely hurting someone. I go out of my way to NOT hurt people. Iām not going to fall for her trap. I said Iām sorry if I hurt her but thatās all I can do. God just writing this Iām seeing the changes Iāve made over the last 7+months. I canāt please everyone I can only live my best life and know Iām doing the best I can. I just pray that she doesnāt keep this going I donāt have the energy or time to fight. Iām tired. Thanks for listening to my rant.
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Sending you lots of hugs, strength and positivity!!! Keep doing whatās best for you and keep doing the best you can. I think youāre doing an amazing job.
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Thanks girl Needed to vent lol I hate keeping it in. Just so frustrating smh 
familyā¦ canāt pick em they say lol 
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Check in - part 2
I was thinking about my childhood and remembered, how often and how intensively did I use my imagination to escape from reality back then. I could totally forget about myself and my surroundings for hours. Alcohol worked so similar for me. And I also realized, that I still lock myself into my imagination, I isolate myself and the distance between my world and reality keeps growing. Itās hard to connect with others (even family) and itās more and more difficult to feel myself home in the outside world. At the same time my own world feels more and more lonely, because no one can come inside. I think thatās the problem I should work on. Escaping should not be an option. Neither into alcohol, nor into myself.
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Quick checkin! Day 29. Iām back at work. Itās going okay. I forgot how cliquey it can be here. 
anyway by the time my lunch break is over thereās only a few hours left. Went for a walk this morning. Some weights later at home and maybe a bike ride. Thatās about it! Wishing everyone a safe day!
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