Checking in at the end of day 4. I’ve joined this app 2 years ago and I’ve learned so much about sobriety. I’ve read a lot. I’ve listened a lot. I’ve attended personal meetings. I’ve done the 30 day experiment which kept me sober for nearly 7 months. I’ve made the most beautiful sober friendships through TS and I managed to keep sober for another 3 months. But eventually I would always turn back to alcohol. I fought so much with myself. With my consciousness. And I always lost…
Last Friday I’ve started to attend this online meeting which a very good friend on here referred me to. I found this amazing sponsor who I contacted the first time today. I finally don’t feel alone anymore. It’s hard to describe this feeling because TS and you wonderful people helped me so much but I have the feeling I am at this absolutely new sober path of my life where in the first time of my life I am reading the big book and starting to really have a plan for every day. It helps me enormously to know that I have to call my sponsor every day! And she tells me what to do every day. This is exactly what I need. Someone that guides me through this. I know I am just at the beginning but I finally have this feeling I’m on the best way which makes absolute sense. Thank you all on here for always listening, giving advices and just for making this beautiful community because without you guys I would have never come so far!!! 
Goodnight everyone
yes I like this approach and try my best to do the same, tommorow isn’t OMG I’ve got bloody work it’s OK I’ve got an opportunity to put food on the table it’s not gonna be great every minute of the day and I’m bound to come into contact with a few idiots but that’s OK. Then I normally turn up and freak out about something anyway and learn another lesson 
well done on your sober days mate 
All of you thank you for your kind words…
Im going to sign out and just incase it all goes tits up… I’ve enjoyed every topic, every comment and every one of you beautiful people on here!
Take care of yourselves and hopefully I come out of this operation!
Take care, I’m rooting for you!
Oh don’t think you’re getting rid of us girl. Your coming back on here as soon as you’re able and we’re all going to enjoy how you kicked ass AGAIN. And you’re going to be joking about it. “Tits up or tits down”
You burn so brightly.
You burn so brightly in the dark.
Breathe! You can do it! Sending strength and healing!
@CapriciousCapricorn Yeah, that doesn’t sound cool at all. Part of recovery is learning about making boundaries, so it is detrimental when recovery activities overstep boundaries. It is ok to say no.
Day 1 ending. This morning was really good.Someone prayed over me and told me things that helped me to release shame and guilt. I cried a lot
@anon35096624 you are such a gift here!!! Thank you for all the goodness you have communicated here!!! Thank you for not giving up
Day 2 - Again. Not proud but have never given up trying. My backs against a wall this time and it’s now or facing huge financial troubles and losing my extremely demanding job. I want to quit and stop sacrificing my mental health for money but that’s not truly an option yet without financial downturn. My girlfriend of a year now living together has watched the cycles. Always thinking I can control it until I can’t and I’m left with horrible withdrawals and am out of my mind. Got to a few weeks recently and starting this again after falling off for a month or so. I barely made it thru the last 4 days of lowering amounts and then two days clean. As of tonight I finally feel the tides turning back around. This is bigger then me now I must do this for my family and my dreams. And of course for ME!
Good to hear he’s ok bud. Bet that a relief for you!
We will all see you on the other side Danni. 100% sure of that. In my thoughts beautiful lady.
@apes2020 @Desire2ChangeToday
I can recommend www.jetpens.com as a great place to order pens and stationery from (they ship to Australia, April).
They have wonderful buyers guides and other info articles and videos to help you make the right decisions.
I have bought sooooo much stuff from them. My particular fancy is very fine tip gel pens (0.3mm) and love the antique brown and grey inks. Used to use blue-black a lot but these are now my favourite. They just look beautiful on the page.
Ayyyyyyy, I’m guilty of this too. If you can’t do it, you can’t do it. I would call your sponsor, firm but polite, and ask for help and/or assistance getting help. Let her know that the meeting will need to be canceled otherwise because yo ass can’t open it. I don’t want you to get a resentment over it 
That sounds perfect to me.
I have found the idea of celebrating is different. It’s just nice to spend time doing something you like with people you care about. And the best thing is, it doesn’t even have to be a special occasion to do that… Or maybe it is easier to make any occasion into a special occasion if you keep it low key!
Owwwww my favourite its a fine gel tip as well. I’m very particular about my pens so I am very excited to look at the link ! Thank you 
I’ve been using micron pens recently and love them… Also an old favourite are delfonics pens. They are amazing 
Great news!!!