Thank you 
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My heart aches for you thinking all the BS, violence and drama youāve had to endure. I donāt really have any words to offer comfort other than compassion. Ava is growing, tho, and Iām sure as she matures sheāll be able to see things differently. I wish I was there to give you a hug 
I love Chironās journal idea, too!!!
Take care today 
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Iām sorry for your loss Menno. We do get to share a leg of our journey with extraordinary people. Iām certain you had an affect on her life too. So sad you didnāt get the chance to say goodbye.
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97.04 Days
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- Coffee. Weekend. Meeting with my friend today. See if we can move forward a bit. Last night a storm blew much of the remaining leaves of the trees. Today the weather seems nice. Going to try to catch a little bit of sunshine. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. Love.
Some good reads here this morning. Thanks for sharing your journeys friends.
@JBird Seems to me you some clear ideas about what you want in life Jenna. Thatās a good start. Now how to put this all into practice? Could you get some support in real life maybe? Peer support has been my saviour in early sobriety. Maybe you should try that too? Thereās much choice. from 12-step programs to SMART recovery to Buddhist to many more. Iām glad youāre here, this place has been very important in my own journey too. Keep posting and coming back. You can do this.
@Peace Glad you are back and gladder you are sober Jen. Happy you found a program and a sponsor too. Youāre not alone in this. Hugs.
@MrsOdh Moving forward Sophia. Youāre doing good.
@Dragonflygirl82 Sometimes all we can do is keep going Courtney. You are. Things will get better. Youāll feel better. Lifeās not linear.
@Zoozoospetals Itās very nice to read about your journey Zoe Leraine. Make sure you have the facts about possible medication straight. Being sober will change how you function quite a lot in itself. Anyway, it makes me glad to you moving ahead in such a positive way. Keep going lady.
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Day 4 (Meth) - beginning to feel normal again, like I can do normal things again, maybe even leave the house and see people. Think I can start playing the piano again today, maybe dealing with some emails etc. Maybe even go to a meeting. Looking forward.
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Huge congrats on your 90 days and nice to see you got a few bonus sober days thrown in for good measure, well done 
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Iām sure you days go quicker than mine, must be those long dark Swedish nights or is that Iceland,. What do the cards have in store for today?
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Day 3??? Iāve definitely missed something here recently but thatās done now, I too have a sponsor now and am doing the steps. And people can think and say what they want but you have made the best decision of your life. I wish I had done it years ago instead of constant relapses and thinking I knew better than everyone. Makes sense doesnāt it, if you want to be sober do the work. Iāve got lucky with my sponsor and I hope you have too but remember you are allowed to try on as many shoes as you want until you get the right fit. A good sponsor only wants you to do what your told and stay sober. simple. wish you well. 
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now I have 2 joys in my life 
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Day 67 . Yesterday I was invited to dinner at my sisterās house with old friends. I have been participating in occasional invitations since the recovery process. They drank alcohol with the meal. I drank soda and lemon as I planned. I continued with a nice coffee after dinner. Did I want to drink ? Honestly I didnt. Previously I felt myself sorry that I couldnt drink like them. But now I know itās not a reward, itās not beneficial to me, and itās my choice not to drink.
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Weāve got plenty of darkness here to, havenāt seen the sunshine for days. Itās all gray and dark,and itās getting worse. Luckily itās winter time soon and weāll get an extra hour.
Had a meeting for the class project this morning so havenāt checked the cards yet, but the horoscope looked good 
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Day 1sober. Learning about my failure and taking action. Example connecting with more people and being vulnerable saying what is happening
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You are a superstar Cate @C_8! Many many congratulations and a warm hug for your 1 year achievement 
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Hi Jenna, nice to have you back here! I got nothing else to say than I feel you on the self hate, overcriticalness with body image and how that poisons bloody everything. One thing I have learnt in therapy is how I concern myself with all that in order to avoid feeling other feelings I am afraid will be even more uncomfortable. Like I donāt know, to do with other people for example, so I turn to on myself and find fault and over-monitor and observe. As a way to not have to deal with other things, and becuase with ourselves we always have the illusion we can change things, untill we are finally content with the result. But it might not really be about the result. Donāt know if you can relate to this. But it might take the edge of a bit to think that these problems are maybe not there for themselves but as strategies, functions of the mind. It helped me a bit.
Wishing you a good strong day today!
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Iām In the same boat and I say screw leap year. Thatās some damn hard work you put in, congratulations youāre amazing
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Donāt stay in these thoughts without doing something about it. I mean, itās not about chasing them away or trying to avoid them as they are there anyways. But when they pop-up, ask yourself some questions in response to them. I do ask some like these: āOk, what do I need? what this craving or this thought is telling me about my state? (because when I drank there was always a reason, boredom, tired, hungry, etc.) What can I do? What do I want to do? What can make me feel better? What is my plan in case I am about to relapse?ā
When I have those thoughts I right-aways go in my head and tell me what are my options. That might have just saved me a couple of days ago. Sometime you just gotta take actions, you gotta move into the direction youāve set yourself without thinking too much.
When craving you canāt relay on your thoughts and only them. When the spiral is on, weāve got to relay on planned-action, known strategies, friends, anything else than just āthinking ourself out of itā, because our thoughts are from the same brain that led us to drinking for years. Itās not going to change in less years than that.
Take care
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Day 262. My body woke me up 3 and wouldnāt let me go back to sleep. So went and did my workout, today was better. Fog is not as heavy today, so gonna make the best of it lol. Yeah have a great day everyone
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