Day 132 clean and sober today. Man, I feel really lost for some reason. I’m starting to mess up with school and the new job is putting me into a position I don’t want to be in again all while not being sure of what wage they’re going to be paying me. My “friend” is the general manager of the company and I feel like I’m being used in a sense because they’re asking me to do work that I would normally make a decent wage at. I know I need to talk to them but I’m struggling with anxiety and my depression has been pretty heavy for the past few days. I hate confrontation but I need to set boundaries. I am really sad about my schoolwork starting to fail and it’s really all my fault not necessarily because I started working. I have gotten so heavy from the depression that when I’ve had time to do my work it’s so overwhelming that I just sleep. I feel really out of control right now but don’t feel like using or drinking at all. I just feel stupid and like I’m messing my entire brand new life up. I have no idea what I’m trying to say but thank you for being here to listen to me. I love you guys, have an awesome day today!!! 
I’m sorry you’re feeling so down man, I’ve definitely had more than one day like that since I stopped drinking.
Usually it passes and I bounce right back even more motivated because I proved to myself that nothing will make me drink again.
I’m sure that will happen for you too! Everyone gets into a funk now and then, especially when we are dealing with so much change like you have been.
Just keep kicking ass, remember how much better things are for you now, focus on your school work to distract you and stay sober.
I know you’ll be back to normal in no time 
That’s so nice you got your mom in your corner backing you. It sounds like y’all can work this together.
I only call my wife “wifey” on here actually. 
I have a feeling she wouldn’t like it. I don’t mean it in any derogatory way. It’s nice to come on TS and just be me.
And I was always like your mom years ago about Meds. My Dad taught me to hate the Pharmaceutical Companies because he was addicted to pain meds and booze most of his life. And he blamed it on them. He had a point. But not everything is so black and white I’ve learned. There’s good and bad in everything.
Give Chonki Boy a scratch for me and have a good day. Day 7. One week right?? Atta girl.
Checking in on day 45. Some thunder and light rain today brings a calm melancholy. Taking things moment by moment for now.
I’ll be staying here. The supportive words of yourself and others on this forum have been super helpful, and even though I didn’t succeed this time there is still hope.
You’re not messing up your new life. Life is not always going to progress in a linear or upward trend. There are going to be hiccups that you will learn to navigate. It may not feel like progress in the moment, but if you can deal with these issues and stay sober, I think you’ll feel like you made progress on the other side of it. Everything you want is on the other side of that fear and anxiety. You just have to work through it, as uncomfortable as it may be.
I don’t know exactly what you need to do to find a balance between work and school, but I do believe you have the capacity to figure it out. Also, asking an employer what your wage is, is a completely reasonable thing to ask.
I hear you on the confrontation thing; I hate it too, but it needs to be addressed. Can you find other work? Does he feel like you owe him for getting the job?
If it helps: music never disappointed or betrayed me, humans did. Music is always there for you, it gives what you need, strength or compassion. Worth stick with it.
You are in a new situation, it will work out. Just give it some time and don’t be too hard on yourself.
Oh, yes, and standing up for yourself and set the boundaries is always a good decision. There was not a single case when I regretted it.
Man. I want to go to your meetings, them some comfy ass chairs. Although sometimes I almost fall asleep in the chairs we have now, so I’d definitely prob snooze in those
Day #4. Not feeling too bad. Rainy gloomy day here so other than taking care of my girls, I’m taking it easy. I feel so grateful on days like this that my husband works so hard it allows me to be home with our children. He is also super supportive and I am able to be open and honest about my addiction and he never shames or judges me. Also being at home allows me to work on myself without the pressure of an outside job other than being a mom. I’m not saying being a stay at home parent isn’t a real job but I do appreciate the fact I don’t have another job to pile on top of it. Hope everyone is having a wonderful sober day. For those who are struggling I am sending strength and positive vibes your way. Have a terrific Thursday y’all!! 
Happy you’re still sober! So that’s a great big fucking success! Did you possibly bite off more than you can handle? Can you re-evaluate everything you’ve taken on and maybe drop something? Don’t they talk about how we should be doing baby steps? I feel you’ve taken a lot of giant steps in the last month. My son, after telling us all the shit he was going through with recovery, dual diagnosis, and graduate school would always step back and say. “I’ll figure it out”. I bet you will too. I hate saying “you got this”. But in this case I think you do or will.
Checking in on day 1.5… Nothing more to say for now
Can y’all send me some of your dang rain 
There it is. I’ve been waiting… Congratulations on one year!!! Amazing job, super proud of you
Checking in at day#55. Super busy at work. Think maybe I should cut back on the coffee because I barely slept last night. Asked my husband if he noticed any difference in me. Apparently I’m less neurotic and my hair is shiny. Go fig.
31 Days I’ve kept my legs shut (I’m a sex addict) 
82 days not fucking my brain and other organs… (I’m a drug addict)
But today you test me…
This mother trucker is not failing…
Just say No!!!
Find strength deep and walk away from those gremlins…
Truly inspiring. Thanks for sharing this year’s celebration with us all.
Man I seriously need to move 
. That sounds so awesome. My meetings are literally the meetings you see in a movie, there is no places for mindful meditation, or yoga, or a gym, or literally anything. I’m grateful for my meetings but man I would love to experience other life, I wish I wasn’t so afraid, I’m afraid of trying it. And leaving my two girls