Congrats, lady! “Don’t count yourself out.” Absolutely the best words of wisdom right there.
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Awesome job! You’re killing it! 
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Especially if you got your dog 
Hey all. Checking in with 32 days, at half past it will be day 33, one of my favourite numbers and also my current age 
I am feeling less low than I was yesterday, that really did catch me off guard as I’d felt great all weekend. I’ve managed to go for 2 walks today, saw some Cows and a Muntjac, the Sun came out for my second walk which was nice.
I had my first session of Zoom for the Personality Disorder support group today, that’s running alongside the DBT skills course, it was good to.connect with other people with EUPD and feel not so alone, I even came out about being an addict and shared that I was 32 days sober and they all clapped! Wasn’t expecting that but it was nice of them, I just said I hadn’t managed to do any journalling since I stopped using and that I missed it.
At 4pm my recovery worker called me, the last time she called I was 18 days clean, so it was good to be able to share the progress and have a catch up. She’s really proud of me and says I should be less self-critical because despite all I’m going through I’ve made some amazing progress and fought for the help I’m finally getting for the PD now. So that lifted my spirits.
Day 3 of my diet now, it does really suck I can’t lie, I’m treating it like all the other addictions I’ve stopped for now, and just keeping myself distracted.
Sorry to hear others on here are having hard times mentally too, let’s keep battling through together 
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Day 36: I was thinking today about how I’ve been sober (Edit: and working on my recovery) most of the last two and a half months, and how my last reset was not starting over. I may be counting my days sober from that reset (and I absolutely see the immense value of that exercise), but I have learned so much about myself in these last few months or so, and it’s because I’ve embraced being vulnerable, put myself out there by being honest with my friends and family, been active (almost) everyday in TS, done a ton of reading and journaling, sought and participated in therapy and, well, most importantly, have strived to be honest with myself. I’ve been “going through it to get through it,” or even to GROW through it, as they say. Therapy is hard, I’ve had some hard conversations and have let go of some long friendships that were no longer viable. I know I’m still “new,” and there is a forever amount of more growing to do, but instead of dreading it and hiding from it, I’m hopeful and even curious about what is to come. And for the ladies out there - I made it through PMS without hardcore cravings! It’s a huge deal!!! That was often my biggest trigger. Phew!
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@anon79808082 @C_8 You’re right and I love taking comfort in the reality of impermanence. It takes a little more effort for me to actualize that idea, when I’m actively going through a rough spot, but it is helping.
I’m hoping to have these looming issues dealt with by the end of the week. I know I’ll feel relieved and proud of myself for making it through. But for now I just have to trudge through and hopefully keep a calmer demeanor throughout. 
I appreciate you ladies.
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I’m not interested in pissing people off anymore.
When I’m coming from a healthier place I don’t feel like taking a go at others… go figure. 
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Glad to see you checking in!, Hope all is well!! That’s so scary! I’ve seen panthers in the refuge here, I was riding my bike through the pathway and it was way up there; I had stopped and it turned around and looked at me and then kept walking away… I scooted out of there pretty quick!
Be careful over there!
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Day 36 checkin. I’ve been seeing lots of posts about people feeling pretty down. I can definitely relate and I don’t know what the deal is. I already am depressed and taking an antidepressant but the last few weeks have felt especially worse. I still physically feel like crap and no matter what I do it doesn’t seem to help. I thought quitting the booze and fast food would help due to decreased inflammation but so far hasn’t proven to. I sound like a broken record. I’m just soooooo sick and tired of feeling bloated all the time. I’m thinking of doing a cleanse for a few days (the one I’m looking at is 3 days) to hopefully alleviate some symptoms and get a jump on things. Otherwise I have a scope scheduled on 10/23. To be continued…
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Checking in. I had been to my therapist today, it was ok, but not so demanding as usually. Although I realized some pattern in my life, there is a sign what keeps popping up, at the next session I will ask to check it more deeply.
Starting from tomorrow my stress level will rise a lot probably, because the schools will be closed for at least 3 weeks, I will have to homeschool in addition to work.
My parents are still struggling, but at least they seem to stop hurting me. In the past I was so worried, that with hurtful words they can destroy the little self-esteem I was building, they can take my strength away, I will question myself because of their approach. And now it’s so good to feel, that even if they hurt me, even if I can lose the relationship with them or their love, they cannot say anything to lose myself, they cannot destroy me in any way. As if I had an armor: I can feel the hits, it even can hurt, but I don’t get injured.
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Day 14. Happy to be sober today. All the life advice I received as a child is starting to make sense. Loving and forgiving yourself is so important; it’s just such a relief.
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Day 24- today it’s rough. I’m doing all the things I should be like taking my meds and practicing gratitude and exercising but I’m low.I have no idea why. Meh who cares. Tomorrow’s a new day and maybe that one will be different.
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Amazing. Well done!
Goodnight all, time to pack it in for the night. LOTS of work to get done tomorrow ! It’s crazy how things can be quiet for a while, and then everything arrives all at once !! Nuts. Oh well, I can’t / shouldn’t complain, considering how many people are out of work these days.
The weather has turned cold here, that’s for sure, though it still warms up quite nicely by afternoon.
Anyway, I’m off to bed… I hope that you are all having a safe and sober Tuesday night.
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Loving that photo , lmao here.
Hope you had, or have a good Day @Dazercat
#SOBER♥️BEATS
@050Nl is going to bed now over here.
Checking out !!
Peace ,yt
Stay safe peopz
bless and live LIFE 2 the max !!
@Misokatsu , Fleur… Just a few steps to get back at 1 Month.
Mentioned it looking/beīng nosey at your app 's profile info 
keep it up
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Day 108: Feeling good, was sick yesterday so it is good to feel better today. Honestly yesterday was almost like a flashback to those days when I was still hungover on Monday, glad it went that but man it sure felt like it and made me wonder how I ever chose to feel like that for multiple days a week. Either way, work is going great and the family is doing well so we are all good to go here! I hope everyone else is having a great Tuesday!
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@Desire2ChangeToday Brilliant number!
@Rockstar24777 u are killing it!
@Galen_82 Well, if u survived the 12 out of 10 time, u can survive anything!
@TSan I am also feeling like all I am doing is the necessary stuff for life. It sucks so we have to carve out some personal, of course sober, time.
@CapriciousCapricorn u gave me some wonderful words of encouragement, I wish I could be as articulate to u. The not giving a fuck feeling is so sneaky and dangerous. But u are worth giving a fuck, so dig out those fucks and start giving them.
@Dazercat Jesus, is it something in the air or something, so many of us are struggling at the moment. I am giving the cat lots of strokes, his purrs sooth me.
@RosaCanDo U are working so hard! It is paying off!
@IcanIwill @Imcrafty Yep, it is certainly a funk time for many. At least we can feel we are not the only ones?
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You know, don’t let “them” and most certainly “him” rob you of joy. That’s how they win. Have faith in your fellow citizens, especially these dynamic kids. Let’s be the opposite of fear. These next weeks are gonna be tough but we will meet on the other side. I promise.
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