I have to stop eating cereal.
I didn’t have cereal for six years approximately and for some reason I decided to add it back into my diet but it’s a mistake. I will eat cereal for every meal if it’s in the house.
I’m laughing a little inside because it’s so rediculous, but it’s something I need to actively keep out of my diet until I forget it exists again. Ideally I’d just return to a keto lifestyle but for now this is going to have to keep me accountable. 
Missed yesterday’s Check-In as I fell asleep! 16 days completed. Tx
Are you looking for the meme thread? 
At first I thought you relapsed and were starting over. And then I saw your cereal screen. Well you cheered me up a little. I truly hope you can beat that cereal addiction. And on the other hand I’m still not sure 
but I don’t want to make light of anything.
Thanks @Figgie you silly duck you. Appreciate the thoughts and encouragement. You too Kayla @IcanIwill. Thanks for the hugs. And your right @Misokatsu there is just something up right now. Between the pandemic and the state of our country I just can’t take it anymore. But I will. Maybe I’ll have hope again tomorrow.
I got a good power walk in this morning. Plugged in my iPhone and all my music was gone 
WTF!!! Somehow I figured it out don’t know what I did and had a good walk with some real angry gangsta rap. So then I got angry instead of depressed. That’s better.
This was suppose to be the year me and wifey were going to travel. To visit our kids. Go to Amsterdam. Wifey’s foot surgery. Come and go to Cali as we please. But instead we are stuck here, in a lovely house, mind you, in a lovely town. Truly blessed in many ways. But. With a corrupt wanna be dictator and a pandemic and I don’t see much changing anytime soon. FUCK!!! But I ain’t drinking damn it!! I ain’t drinking today!! And I ain’t drinking tomorrow!! And if we got to hole up hear another year then fuck it. We will.
Y’all rock. Thanks for listening to my little pity party.
Sober on y’all.
it does sound silly doesn’t it?
But I’m sick for almost two hours after I eat cereal. I have a certain amount of lactose intolerance and can only have certain dairy, and then most high carbohydrate foods make me sick. 
But I love cereal so much! honestly eating a low carb diet is best for my health but for some reason my diet has gone to shit this year. Guess it’s a 2020 thing 
Checking in sober and cigarette free 
Off from work this week. Usuallly this would be considered a positive thing but my anxiety is telling me otherwise I wish I could get to the bottom of where these nagging thoughts and feelings come from, but for tonight I am just going to try to change the channel… Wishing everyone a good sleep or productive day 
Checking in at the end of day 16. Feeling kind of out of it today. I did not stick to my routine at all and I feel a difference. Had some cravings but I worked through it and now I’m heading into day 17!!! 
Have a wonderful night everyone:sleeping:
Sending you the most social distanced hug I can through the internet.
Day 24.
Today is a bloody great day. Results from my surgery last week reveal no cancer cells and only a couple of smaller issues which can be treated with medication. Hope everyone is doing well. Love and strength to all.
Great news Seb!
Day 243~ Today’s been a good day. It dawned on me how I’ve never actual “stuck” with anything before… I’ve always found a way to half ass it somehow. You can’t half-ass being sober. It’s the most humbling real thing you can do. You either are sober or you are not. The choice is yours. As we know it takes a crazy amount of strength, dedication, will power, and honesty to be sober and remain sober. There’s no magic pill or person that can do it for you. I know for me I had to get to that place that dark hole to realize what I was doing was destroying so much of my life. I wasn’t living… I was just existing. 8 months ago I told myself I could stop and would stop and knowing in my heart of hearts that was most likely a lie and not gonna happen. I started the day thinking here we go again day 1… I’ll make it to 5 PM well I made it thru that day and night. I still remember waking up thinking to myself omg I did it… and from there on out I just kept saying one more day you can do it. Well those days turned into weeks and then into months. It’s amazing once you start believing in yourself and have hope for a better future. Positive energy grows and spreads. Everyday is another chance to wake up and make the day better than the one before. I’m so thankful for all of you and for you being my ride or dies on this sober journey. I will forever have gratitude for the many blessings that came along with being sober. Life is good it’s up to you to realize it and want it.
You’ve definitely “stuck” with it and look at you grow 
So funny! I had that conversation with either @becsta or @CapriciousCapricorn at some point. I ALWAYS read it as “as fuck” instead of “alcohol free”
What a relief. That is great!! And you still got 24 days while waiting for the news. Really super!!!
Quick check-in. Long day and I’m finally heading to bed. Didn’t realize how late it is. Yikes. Sober and ED free still. Too tired to toggle to find how many days lol. Sweet dreams my TS friends. Love to you all and extra love to those struggling right now 
You’re definitely not alone @Figgie. I was here about 4 months before I realized it stood for alcohol free. I was saying as fuck, in my head, with every post I read. Then I felt too stupid to admit it. It wasn’t until someone else posted the same thing and I fessed up.
I love this. I know there are good days and bad days with sobriety, days to fight off the urges, and then other times when the urges are gone but everything inside myself that was covered up by the drinking is exposed (uh-oh) - but all of this is worth the realization that I (you/we) hold the pen now, get to design what we want for our lives, for ourselves. This shouldn’t be such a surprise, but it is! I hope it is exciting for you, to find/dream/create this vision for your life and yourself. 
And yes - I can relate to the stack of journals full of repeat entries!
