I totally understand… working from home is so hard and you’ve got to be so disciplined. But like you said don’t be so hard on yourself… you are not that drunk person anymore and everyone deserves a break now and then. Set small goals just like before… you got this. 
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Venting to you guys/gals felt like $500 worth of therapy. Thanks for listening. There’s so much else going on in my head but I’ll unpack that stuff when the time is right. I hope you’re all okay, 2020 has been a cunt.
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That’s a great idea! Thank you for sharing that, I think that could be something that would help me as well:sunglasses:
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Monitoring and self-care is so important. And even if we stack up days like u, we have to keep being aware and working. Thanks for the reminder and inspiration!
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I am ten days off cereal 
I feel so much better without it. After election night I think I’m going to cut all sweets out in the slow march back to keto. But I’m doing an election night party with the in laws and will be bringing treats. Already starting to reduce the sugar but that will be the deadline.
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You will be the president of your own no sugar land lol 
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… I go through phases of eating nutrigrain cereal, and the Milo cereal… I know when I’m buying it that I shouldn’t but when I do I go ahhhh stuff it I’ve got it now, I can’t waste it so il eat il all over a few days and then tell myself OK no more! And then a Month later I see it half price at the grocery store and boom lol the vicious cycle begins again lol…but I like you have given your self a dooms day cut of line… No coffee, no cereal ummmmm that’s a one lol
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here is another helpful video for anyone that might be in a pickle and really feeling it… It’s just about being kind to yourself 
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That Kentucky fried chicken cereal is not real is it lol!?!? Noooo it couldn’t be real lol?
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No it’s totally from a meme! I needed a ridiculous picture for my ridiculous addiction. I love cereal so much. There’s just something about the crunchy cereal with the milk. But I have no moderation with cereal. I’ll just eat it for every meal until it’s gone and cereal / milk also makes me sick after eating it, so it just has to be a big no for me. I didn’t eat cereal for years, then suddenly I started having cereal. It was the strangest thing!
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- Quick early check in. Coffee. Time to work. Had a very nasty dream. Trying to shake that now. Got a bit of a headache. Not the ideal way to start my work week. Then again, after this next 5 days I’ll be off for another 2.5 weeks. So let’s hold on to that. And it could always be worse. Like not being sober and clean. So glad I am. Have a good weekend all. Love from Amsterdam and Texas.
@Desire2ChangeToday Glad to have you back Shay! Let’s work this. It’s worth it. You know. Hugs.
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awful news, so sad to hear, much love going out to you and to her close ones
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Day 6, going to attend a meeting today, need to find a sponsor this time around, need a better network of support. Still find it hard to believe how I was feeling once I was high this last time, I was fully ready to throw it all away, everything. I don’t want that, I can’t have that. Mad what this drug can do to you.
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Day 92 booze, day 5 benzos
Terrible sleep last night. Restless, like I’d had a double espresso before bed. Mind racing. Valium has a long half life - even tho I weaned down maybe I still had some kicking around the system until yesterday. Glad I’ve got no pills in the house so I couldn’t give in overnight. Better go get a coffee. Well done everyone. Keep going
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Checking in day 5. Looking forward to going to bed sober 
and waking up without regrets. That never gets old! Staying on track and remaining patient with the process. I know true change will take time. Sending well wishes everyones way 
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Day 609
I hardly ever talk about dreams mostly because I never remember them, but I’ve just woken up from a pretty funny one.
I arrive home to a box at my front door. Inside is a white cat. I’m expecting the delivery it would seem. I get it some food and water, play with it for a bit and then go about my business. A few moments later I hear a commotion and find kittens literally pouring out of my washing machine, maybe 20 or so. While I run around in a panic trying to work out what’s happening and what to do, kittens crawling everywhere, all over me too, I notice there’s now a couple of dogs and a load of puppies running around aswell. At this point there has to be about 50 dogs and cats in my small apartment and I’m in a mad panic. Then there’s suddenly a load of people in my apartment aswell, all looking for there cats and dogs, and shouting at me about it. It’s chaos by this point, you can barely move around the flat it’s so tightly packed with people and animals. Some of the people are people from my life I haven’t seen for decades. Old friends, family, even a couple of ex’s (you know, just to make it a little extra special weird 
) Then I suddenly woke up.
What the hell was that all about, I don’t even have a cat or a dog?
Anyway, have a great sober day folks 
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Look up dream interpretation of it. I did briefly and it’s interesting…
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That is so funny. I literally have an image in my head of dozen of kittens crawling out of a washing machine LMFAO … I’ve been dreaming every night as well. Full on vivid dreams. I havnt dreamt like this in yrs… It’s so interesting right !
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