Thanks man. I need to edit the stuff I wrote. I am sure you are right. I will produce better stuff when I am sober. Life would be less “interesting” but I have enough of that to last me a couple of lifetimes. I have lived an interesting life - like the ancient Chinese curse.
That’s not a good idea. Don’t test your self. Throw out all alcohol and all things related and go to sleep knowing tomorrow is a new day and a fresh start. The only Reminder you need is to stay sober and having alcohol near by just incourages you. Let go and move on… You can do it ![]()
Nothing is a curse . You create your own reality. You create you own life and your own happiness so start fresh tomorrow after a good nights sleep… Also, why do you have a cockroach as your avatar I’m just curious lol??
You need to dump that shit out @manishc. There’s no reason to tempt yourself. If you don’t dump it, you know you’ll wind up drinking it eventually.
Checking in day 7!
Yeah @apes2020 @Lisa07 I think you are right. It will just tempt me. I am on day 1. Step 1. Better not keep temptation around. The next few days will be tough.
Amazing work Stella!! 



Late night check in. 3 months and 2 days.
Hey everyone. How do I do step 1? Any advice.
I am back on step 1 again. I realised I really haven’t got beyond step 1. I have read a lot. But well, nothing worked. So I am back here on day 1. Threw out the last drink. I need advice. How do I do step 1 right this time.
The first step is…We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable…
The major part of working step 1 is by walking into an AA meeting and asking for help and finding a sponsor. Your sponsor can then help you through the steps. They may have you finish step 1 by making lists.
Day 254~Checking in sober, happy, and peaceful today. I’m learning the tough but valuable lesson that only I’m in control of my happiness and peace. Allowing others to take space up in my head and control my thoughts and some case actions is no longer something I want to entertain or allow. It’s been years of worrying about things that are simply outta my control. Not everyone will react and do as I would and that’s ok. As long as I’m working on myself and making sure I protect my peace everything else will work itself out. I’m grateful that each day I’m continuing to peel back the layers and become who I’m truly meant to be. Nothing feels better than being your true authentic self. Much love and always keep trying.



@Lisa07 I don’t like meetings. All the meetings I’ve ever been too are too religion focussed. I have complicated religious beliefs. Doesn’t work out for anyone. I tried many many times.
Jump on the zoom meetings here then… Meetings do work. You just have to find one that works for you.
Nothing works unless you make it work. It’s that simple…
AA is not religious, it’s spiritual. When they refer to a higher power, it can be anything that you feel is greater than yourself. It could simply be the people in the room or even nature. It does not have to be god. You need to try different meetings until you find one you like. You asked about step 1 so I assumed you were doing AA. My apologies.
Here’s a link for other resources:
Resources for our recovery
I totally hear you on this one. It’s not easy by any means when worries about others actions, opinions etc. have consumed most of my life. This one has helped me through some tough days lately. . .
Checking in on day 296
After watching The Way Back with Ben Affleck
Someone on here recommended it. Sorry I can’t remember.
But whoever it was. Thank you 
Good movie. A bit brutal, but worth a watch. And wifey made it all the way through the movie.
Have a sober Sunday y’all


You don’t have to be religious to do a.a… but clearly thinking there isn’t anything better then you is why you keep failing. When you put that ego aside. Realise there is something greater then you, and find a higher power and accept that then maybe it will work… just talking from experience, I thought I was the greatest and I didn’t need any help, I didn’t need meetings. I didn’t need a higher power, bc I was the greatest and coolest and could figure it on my own. Yeah well I failed every damn time that way. Nothing changes if nothing changes
Checking in - Day 6. After tonight I have a couple of days off. Meeting with my sponsor tomorrow for our first real in depth conversation. I’ve been calling her daily to check in sober this week and I have been doing the reading. I feel a little nervous about the meeting, but I think it will be good. For fun I plan on building a fort in my bedroom tomorrow and watching movies… yes that is right a fort! I’m a grown ass lady but something about building a fort with blankets, pillows, and lights still sounds like some good old fashioned simple fun to me
Happy Sober Sunday 



401 Days. Things are finally starting to look up for me. Hubby is coming up on a week sober and he’s serious about it this time. We’ll, I guess he has to be if he wants to keep his family. Yes, I gave him the ultimatum because I couldn’t continue living in hell. My daughter deserves better than what she was getting and so do I. Now that he knows it’s us or the booze, he’s giving sobriety his all. Attending AA meetings every day and sometimes twice a day. The last few days have been pleasant. Fingers crossed.

