Day #80! Covid test came back negative. Yay! But still it’s surging here. That result plus turning in the epilogue definitely triggered an urge to drink,especially since I had to pick up beer for my husband. Then I wondered if maybe I was dehydrated. Writing had been hard going, unusual for an epilogue and usually a sign something else was off. Came home and made my favorite mock tail- a slice of orange, splash of maraschino cherry juice and diet tonic over lots of ice. Downed 3 while making dinner (steak salad) and watching TV (Star Trek Next Gen - does the acting/blocking/direction/writing improve after Season 1?) . Totally forgot about the urge to drink. Though I cannot forget the piss poor Klingon story line.
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Day 3. Check.
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Great news on the test result! And on the fighting triggers and urges. I’m almost finished with the final season of TNG having spent the last few months rewatching the whole series. It gets loads better after the first season, though never quite as good overall as my memory of it. Still love the heck out of it all, though, flaws and all.
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I hope your back feels better soon. I can totally relate to feeling off when physical pain gets in the way of routine and day to day living. It stinks! Major congrats on 10 months!!!
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You have so been an inspiration for me over the last days to power through myself. And not only to me I assume.
insomnia and worry suck!!! and plays tricks with the brain.
Give luna a hug, take a deep breath and feel your body, look for a part that feels open and soft no matter how tiny a part. And start from there. 
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Wow! How many divers were you with? I assume you were taking the video…? How deep/far down were you guys? And the big one is a shark, yeah? Eek. (I just realized I would probably hurl from terror, which wouldn’t work with a scuba mask/gear on… …i guess this is just another reason why I pursue land activities!) Seriously though - this is amazing. You must be looking forward to your next big trip…
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wow. f… Hurt people hurt people right.
rooting for everyone that works on their pain, addiction, trauma or how to call it… in whatever form or shape it comes.
One day at the time.
hope you still had some sleep.
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Day 590. We finished moving! 
Our new neighborhood is awesome, I wouldn’t be here if I was still drinking! Clean living is best living!
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Hi, I hope I am doing this correctly. I am checking in new to the forum after a very long hiatus! I am back now and committed to a sober future.
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Congrats on 80 days and no Covid-19. Your doing so great ! I hope your feeling well.
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425 Days. I’m seeing a pattern in my life when something really good happens, it’s followed by a few days of hell. I wish there were some consistency in my life. I would love a straight week of happiness just once to see what it feels like. AA meetings have been my saving grace lately. There’s nothing like unloading a bunch of shit where people can relate. Today’s my wedding anniversary (29 years) and everything else just overshadowed it. Not that we planned anything special but it would have been nice to just have some peace in our lives. Every time I say things can’t get any worse, they do so instead I’m going to deal with life on lifes terms and hope it gets better.
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Day 140.
Now that it’s cold out, I’m getting into my nightly tea ritual. I went thru my little cupboard and found some teas I bought, probably a year ago, that were all “cleanse-y” and detoxifying, etc. I think my objective was to counterbalance all the other liquids I was pouring into my system. Sigh, a box of tea can only do so much!
I think back to those nights I chased after the kind of headspace I’m in now by repeatedly, unquestionably pouring a glass - despite it never really working at giving me “this” (what I feel like now). Wanting to change my drinking habits (by buying tea, apparently) but not wanting to give up the glass…
It’s not that things are perfect now, but my day feels so much less “blown about” by the goings on in my world and the world. In truth, I was the one causing so much of the storm…
I pick you guys and tea any day. 
G’night all – big love 
@TSan thinking about you and your Mom. I would just want to go there too. I hate this too.
@Blueroom thank you for sharing that touching tribute about your teacher. Some people leave such a large legacy behind…
@anon74766472 be well, and you’re always welcome to come back and visit.
@Joy you and your almost 500 days are a joyous inspiration! I ordered a really really big cake…
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It’s also your 425 days anniversary here! Happy Anniversary. I appreciate you on here soooo much. 
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Aww thanks M. You’re such a sweetheart!!
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I am feeling better thank you. Good enough that I did some cleaning around the house today like a propper healthy adult. Lol
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Yes! I have a lot of food decorations in my tree, it’s a sport to find them
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hi friends 
… I’m slowly climbing out of my weeks sleep coma. I’ve literally been asleep the past week. I feel flat and empty and have alot of anxiety. My legs are full of pain from laying down for so long… I managed to get up and get to the grocery store this afternoon so that’s a good thing… I will get back to my cheerful self this week but it’s a slow task… But I’m here
… I’m slowly climbing out of my weeks sleep coma. I’ve literally been asleep the past week. I feel flat and empty and have alot of anxiety. My legs are full of pain from laying down for so long… I managed to get up and get to the grocery store this afternoon so that’s a good thing… I will get back to my cheerful self this week but it’s a slow task… But I’m here
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