I’m sorry to hear about your mom, uncle, and cousin. I hope everything turns out okay. I know this must be so stressful for you.
Day 117 alcohol day 29 pills
Found myself fantasising about going out for drinks last night. Not right now, but an imagined future self where I met friends for drinks and socialising. Maybe I’m just missing the social contact due to lockdown here. I guess I just don’t drink today and let the future take care of itself?
Take care everyone
Happy anniversary Lisa. It’s great to see, remembering all the hardships through this last year with regards you and your husband. Congratulations.
With regards to the happiness. Something I’ve come to realise is this is still expectations. We expect to have some good days and wonder why bad days follow.
I’ve come to the realisation that days just are, it’s not what happens in them it’s how we react to them.
Again it’s an ego thing!
What is happening is either something we can control or not.
For example, I want to go for a walk, it’s raining. The weather is not happening to spite me, it’s just happening. It how I react to it that sets my mood.
Accept it, put on a coat and get out and enjoy.
I hope you can see what I’m trying to get at?
I personally don’t look for any particular type of day.
I let the day happen and enjoy the moment.
Even the moments that try to alter my perception of the day! I have found myself swearing at it and moving on to the next moment. Haha problem is boss lady hears it and thinks I’m having a bad day. It’s hard to explain that it’s just a bad moment.
Happy anniversary!! 
That was sweet and brings me Joy to know that my words help 
thank you
easy does it 
congrats on your 3 months 
But the stress is mainly work related, which is a good thing because we are busy, job security is always welcomed.
Covid is hitting pretty hard where I live. Seems like every week for the past three weeks we’ve had 2-5 employees test positive or be quarrentined because they have been exposed. My friend at work had his grandpa and aunt pass away due to covid. Then his mom has attempted to OD twice because she can’t handle the stress of losing her dad and only sister.
Crazy times, hard to know how to feel sometimes. One day at a time has never meant more to me than it does now. Good thing that’s exactly how I have approached my life every day for the last year.
I’m extremely happy to have reached a year of being sober. A lot of good has occurred in the last year because of it. But life in general can be quite sobering so I’m taking nothing for granted right now.
Thank you to everyone for the support you’ve given me, this community has been an instrumental part of me being able to be sober. I can’t thank you enough.
I’m proud of you, Chris. You’re a big inspiration to me and this forum.
I’m happy to hear this!
Checking in early on day 2. I feel terrible last night and this morning. I’m hoping this feeling doesn’t last too long. I wish I wasn’t feeling like this yet again. I’m struggling with some things right now, I’m sure that’s why I relapsed, and I feel like I’m just stuck in this sad place. I think I’m going to sleep a little longer and hopefully just take it easy today. Have a great day everyone. 
Congratulations mate. Just stay strong through these trying times.
Hang in there, Brielle.
Day 314. Feeling good! Got the day off.
Happy to be sober!
Gonna do some reading on the forum to gain some strength today.
Have a good sober tuesday!
Day 98
Let the records show! Today my husband came home without shouting “are you ok?” through the kitchen window. Scared the bejesus out of me when the front door suddenly opened.
And my daughter gave me some yellow jelly beans this evening, and they tasted so much like a grapefruit alco-pop thing I liked to drink, memories of drinking flooded into my brain. Was weird not to get the associated buzz.
Good night sober peeps.
Congratulations on One year!!
TS-friends, I made it. I’m 90 days sober, the longest streak I ever had. Couldn’t have done it without all of you - even though I still struggle with sharing, coming on here and reading about your stories always helps and reminds me that it’s doable! So thank you!
I used to be the loud party girl in my early twenties, but transitioned to the sad and lonely drunk in the last couple of years. After some kind of almost unreal calm in the beginning of my sobriety, I’m feeling depressed again. No drive, no energy, wallowing in my sadness all day depressed, like I know all to well. I don’t know if it has anything to do with turning 30 next week or all the changes ahead (I’ll be moving and looking for a new job in February, being sober is almost unheard of in Austria and it makes me nervous).
Anyhow, I’m not laying in bed drinking all day anymore. I’m attempting to have a routine, I walk 10.000 steps a day and eat healthy. Generally taking care of myself and being responsible for my life more than ever. The lows used to feel so much lower and I felt like I was stuck completely and failed at life. Now I now that this too shall pass. Not drinking has already made a huge impact on how I handle my depression - the feeling of having hope was completely impossible for me 90 days ago. Even though I have a lot of healing to do, I’m confident that being sober will help make that possible 
hope you have a great day
@M-be-free49 “It’s not that things are perfect now, but my day feels so much less “blown about” by the goings on in my world and the world. In truth, I was the one causing so much of the storm…” I relate to that so much!
Congratulations on one year, what a huge accomplishment in tough time like this 
