I can relate. I also struggle with taking care of myself … for me, it’s taking care of things I putt off for too long. I also try to sleep and exercise enough, that’s a real challenge 
taking care of yourself can be a lot of things … I’m sure listen to your screaming body will be worth the effort 
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It’s not Facebook its friggin snapchat, instragram and YouTube… These influencers showing what they do with their days! Unrealistic shit.
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Checking in on day 87 … in an effort to develop a healthier routine I worked out waaay too much the last couple of days and now I feel like I’m hungover and can hardly leave the couch. At least I’m overdoing something healthier than alcohol 🤷 finding balance is not easy…
I think I mentioned I’m working on my thesis. When I was drinking, I stressed about it sooo much, I was paralized with fear. I believed I was worthless because it didn’t go the way I thought it would. Right now, I have a good relationship with my supervisor, I think I know what I’m doing most of the time and sometimes, I actually enjoy working on it 
that makes me sooo happy:sunflower:finishing this f****** thesis is my biggest goal right now
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Nice work. I use to be so focused on my front. But now I’m obsessed with my back gains lol.
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Day 284. Woke up in a pretty good positive vibe this morning. Only lifted one time this week with the gentleman, and the rest has been at my house and for the most part I’ve felt good about it. Maybe just a nice break from him was needed. I know I was having dreams last night, but I can’t remember about what. I prayed again last night for the first time in a while. Everything’s good man, life isn’t always great, but my life is so much better.
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You’re right @anon27760155, my daughter spends too much time on YouTube. That must be where she’s getting it. Ty
I only have 65 kg. Developed back muscles, traps and shoulders give some kind of “illusion”.
I need to work on my traps.
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Body type comes into play for sure, I’m built the same way. Theres names for the 3 main types - endomorph, mesomorph, ectomorph (?)…thats just off the top of my head, haven’t looked it up in a long time.
Some of us are just triangular like that and build shoulders/lats/traps more easily…I’m not complaining! I love my build. Finding well-fit shirts can be hard sometimes though, when theres broad shoulders and trim middle.
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this is a killer exercise for your traps. Keep your elbows as straight as possible, only lift the weight your traps, start with 20s, do 7 reps, then go to 15s go for 10 reps, then go to 5 pounds and do 15 reps for 4 sets. Also shoulder shrugs are good for traps. And then deadlift with proper form will work your traps as well. Close grip lat pull downs will also help with your traps. 1 arm shoulder presses are good also good for traps, obliques,and tricep. Keep it up bro, progress not perfection 
I still have alot of work to do. I’m between 195 and 200 lbs. Also yes my elbows are bent, because it gets heavy and hard to keep them straight after a couple sets lol
I still have alot of work to do. I’m between 195 and 200 lbs. Also yes my elbows are bent, because it gets heavy and hard to keep them straight after a couple sets lol
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Good morning 
I needed to see that post
What I can relate to us the progressiveness of the alcohol
If I had a drink right now I’d be crazy
…my last run which was on the 11th was a dangerous one
It led to drugs
I can’t drink in safety. I never could and it gets worse every time
I got to change or my life will crumble…
I’m kinda scared too but I can find comfort… only when I’m sober
Thank you for your post
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I think your strong enough to restore me to sanity… Thank god recovery has compassion
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I’m feeling motivated also mr bomdhil
God bless
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Cockroach checking in. Not fully sober yet. Tried real meetings. Had a surreal experience. I think I will stick to online meetings. These religion peeps are crazy. Seriously. Anyway enough of that. Online meetings are cool. Trying to set write goals. Too lazy to write. I just write in my head - all the time - 24 hrs. Some much junk to unload into words. Being a writer is a tough job.
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Well I’ll always be here for yah bud that’s for sure and I’ll always do my best to give yah the best advice I can.
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Thank you and you give very good advice!!
I’m a goofy kid but I’m in a low place
Thank you for being there. Your a very good guy
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Well man. I like the saying, rock bottom will teach you things mountain tops never will. I was in a very low place 284 days ago, I wanted to die man in fact I tried to die. There are alot of days I’m still in a low place, I learn not to act on the lows but to simply keep a routine for myself going. Like I said exercise was my best friend in the beginning and still is my best friend now. When I first got sober I was afraid to be alone and lose friends, i kept saying don’t isolate and keep hanging out with my friends who use… to myself. I learned they were triggers, and that I needed to stay away. Now I didn’t fully isolate myself, bc I stuck to exercise and going for bike rides by myself. But that’s where I found myself and became comfortable being alone and realized I don’t need friends like I thought I did.
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Wow man…
I can relate to the isolation at this point. All I really want to do is get up, go to aa and come home.
My old buddies when I was 16 literally said, matt has nothing to offer so why be around him
Ya know with those type of friends, I was still lonely.
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Day one. Going to work at never having to have a day one again.
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