What is it that leads you to believe that individuals can experience recovery from addiction?
I believe individuals can recover if they put the effort in believing just not in themselves but hope from a creative intelligence. Taking strength & guidance from other peoples shares & successes. Taking the time and effort to learn about their addiction and accepting help into recovery with an open mind, positivity & faith. To accept they are powerless over the disease but wish to become better as a person spiritually.
I am grateful that I am able to keep a roof over my head, pay my bills, have full-time work, and the ability to live a reasonably comfortable life the way I want. I am grateful for my little 4-legged buddy. I am grateful that I haven’t lost anyone to coronavirus. I am grateful that I have never had to worry about going hungry or homeless.
I am grateful for whatever it is that keeps me going every day, despite how bad I may feel at times. I guess you could call it hope. I am grateful for my ability to recognize my shortcomings and have the desire to address them. I am grateful for the Navy recruiter 9 years ago who never submitted my paperwork to join, because it meant working on myself for 6 months rather than a week or so. Those 6 months waiting/pulling myself together (not knowing he never sent my papers) were the beginning of where I am now. Had he submitted the paperwork like he said he would, I would have gotten the rejection within a week and would have likely gone back to full-time boozing. I’d probably be in a very different place (or dead) by now.
I am grateful for all of the people here, especially those who I have developed personal friendships with. I am grateful for my intelligence and my ability to conduct myself in a way that I can feel good about. Life feels better when you live honestly and know that you are always trying to do the right thing, even if it isn’t always the easy thing.
I got a nice little present of sorts last night for 900 days - the local team I support (the one my Dad and I have season tickets for) won their 2nd match of the championship playoff and now move on to the semi-finals. Even better, it was against the team who was #1 in the league this year, who we had lost to all 5 TIMES we had played them previously this season. We dominated them for the entire 90 minutes this time.
I really miss going to the matches, it gave my something to look forward to 3-4x a month, and you really feel like part of a community with the team and other supporters. But we’ll be back soon.
I was so excited about the win last night that I wore my kit to sleep and will probably wear it today too
Anyhow. It’s been a hard year, 2020 – personally and globally – but I am grateful to be at this point, grateful to be here. Thanks.
Congratulations on 1 year sober Happy Birthday @Blueroom and congratulations @TMAC on 900 days that’s amazing!!! Day 176 clean and sober today. Went to a specialist yesterday in regards to a small mass they found on my kidney when they did the MRI of my back. The doctor said he’s 80% sure that it’s cancer and will be scheduling surgery. He said that it’s about a 1/2” in diameter and that it looks like they caught it in time thank God. This will be the first major surgery that I’ve ever had so that’s scary but I’m still so grateful that they saw it and are going to do something in time. Have a great day I love you guys!!!
@Conor689908 Hi there Conor, thank you for the update. I’m sorry you’re struggling. Keep your head above the water, this will pass eventually. You’re loved and missed Tuesday zoom was unusual you not being there winding me up
@TMAC Congratulations on 900 days! I love that gratitude list! It’s so easy to forget what you have when it’s difficult and/or you’re in pain. Nice selfie, you’re looking ripped!
@Edmund Who’s that mini Chewbacca?? And is that mohawk your handiwork???
@Tomek You’re lingually talented, I’m sure you’ll find a way of journaling that would be helpful So are you using cyrillic alphabet for another language entirely, not Russian? If so, that’s cool (not the trust issue part, but your creativity )
Day 124 check in!!
Super congrats on 900 days!!! @TMAC @Blueroom 365 days!! Woo hoo what a great accomplishment!!
Christmas decorations were a hit yesterday with the 2 year old. Today its finger painting. I cant help but feel like I am living the life right now. My mindset is good right now and my depression is gone, hallelujah, thank you sobriety!!
Watched a good documentary on Netflix… “The Devil We Know.” Super scray. I think @apes2020 would like it… (Hope you are feeling better btw!)
Thats it for today, hope you all have a beautiful sober day.
I’ve been so busy the last few days I’ve barely had time to keep up with everyone here so I hope everybody is doing well and staying safe with this resurgence of the virus in a lot of places.
Anyway have a great day everybody and I’m catch up on reading here when I get a chance, love you guys!
Wow, that’s a lot to take in and unexpected. Can they do a biopsy or is it not feasible? I had a mass that they did a biopsy and knew it was cancer.
You’re healthy and it’s found early, Rob… keep a positive vibe.
So scary! Good, though, that you are looking into your health in every way. Catching it early, being sober- all positive! Sending many more good vibes your way.
Day 55. I’ve really fallen behind in this thread; there’s over 600 posts I’ve missed so hopefully I’ll get a chance to skim through to see what everyone has been up to. Working from home today so maybe I’ll have a chance to do some catching up. Dreading a doc appt on phone today to discuss some health issues and my doc has a way of making me feel at times like things are in my head because my mum died of cancer. Yeesh; people can still be anxious and have legitimate concerns. Anyways. After a few weeks of no improvement, I decided to advocate for myself because there’s been no improvement and it’s starting to concern me a bit. Wish me luck.
It’s nice to be home without anyone else here since little guy is at school. Get some work done, then I’ll use some lieu time I have banked and slack off lol. Enjoy your day, sober family.
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A lot of effort is behind this milestone, don’t forget how hard you worked to achieve this - way to go!! 
So are you using cyrillic alphabet for another language entirely, not Russian? If so, that’s cool (not the trust issue part, but your creativity 
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