Congrats, 700 days is just awesome! Keep on doing what you’re doing. 
Blessings and sobriety!
Day 321. Breakfast and coffee.
I feel stable and stronger than the day before. Love being sober!
Have good one!
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- Coffee. I’m tired. Working 8 out of 9 days right after my holidays is not good for me and the residents I take care of. I know people work more and harder than me. Still this work tires me mentally at times and it shows. Can’t be as empathetic and caring as I should be now. One more day. Five days off after. And my first group therapy session coming up Thursday. Growing apprehensive about that. It’s scary. But looking forward to it too.
Feeling like I bit off more than I can chew. Been feeling so good I set up all sort of social stuff. Need to pace myself a little. I’ve felt like numbing a bit in the last day. Thankful to have this place and all of you to keep myself focused on what’s right. On staying sober and clean. On taking three steps forward and two steps back. On taking it one day at a time. On sharing the good days and the less good ones. Going to paint some of my hallway now before going to work. Have a good day all. Clean and sober. Thanks for being here. Love from Amsterdam where the sunset was nice last night from works’ balcony.
@CapriciousCapricorn The floor runs through my whole place. I redid the kitchen part, my living room has still to be done. Next year. Sanding it is a lot of work.
@M-be-free49 Accepting stuff we can’t change and all that Emm. Sorry about your mom. Stay solid yourself. Hugs.
@Olivia You’re looking for purpose. IMO that’s a big part of the purpose right there. Most people don’t bother at all. Keep going friend.
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I have known a few people who live together where one has been positive and not the other. So it’s not a given. But regardless, difficult not to worry a bit. Thinking of you all 
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Sometimes I get very caught up in all the purpose stuff. This helps me…
We are all one of 7bn humans alive today, part of a species that has been knocking about for hundreds and thousands of years on a planet that’s been around more than 4bn years! We put all this pressure on ourselves to be something based on our narrow view of what success looks like. What’s wrong with just being here? What the odds that any of us will exist? In the greater scheme of the universe it is tiny. The fact that we are here at all is an incredible thing. Maybe that is enough? 
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That’s such a worry, but shows she really is in the right place. Glad to hear she is broadly ok, if a little dazed and confused! Good for you giving yourself time to think and find a solution. Whatever you decide will be the right thing!
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Absolutely moron behaviour! Hopefully you won’t get it. I have been very careful since spring but couple of months ago got infected by my teenager who probably got the virus from school. Who knows… Hang in there and cherish your sobriety 
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Checking in on day 65. Mental health has been shitful the past few days. Still, no desire to drink alcohol, so that’s good at least.
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Rest up and I wish you a speedy recovery
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Which I think is the socially accepted response to someone saying that they’ve stopped drinking, I guess. All mickey taking and pissing contests! 
Only these people know what they think as they walk away.
They could be thinking “I wish I could do that”
You’re doing good Tom, every thing at its own pace.
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Thanks Tom.
Blessings and sobriety!
Day 295. Life is beautiful man, I’m glad I’m takin these steps. I’m grateful for my sponsor, my beautiful girls, all of you, and most of all my sobriety. I have zero complaints, I bought a art kit yesterday and look forward to sharing my terrible drawings with you all. Live and let live, much love. @Dragonflygirl82 feel better girl sending prayers and love your way
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I know exactly what you mean Tom. My wife doesn’t drink at home now. She’s studying for a master’s, so not really conducive anyway. The eldest hasn’t since she moved back in.
Sober households rule! 
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You will be just fine. power through one day. good luck thursday!
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How frustrating the sentence is. I hope it is true that we can endure all that life gives us.
Maybe these times are only to be brave enough to fall down time after time and feel the shit, trusting we will come up for air again. fighting it makes it so much harder.
and you know by now… some days I look like I talk the talk, but walking the walk… pffff.
right there at your side! just for today!
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Day 122.28 for me.
Life is good. I miss my best friend but I try not to think about it anymore. I dont know if thats the best coping mechanism, but I was driving myself crazy and super depressed just going over it in my head constantly.
We are heading into lockdown today here in Vegas. I am going to drink coffee and put up some Christmas lights. 
Hope you all have a good sober day!
@M-be-free49 Thank GOD your mom didnt break her hip!!! God is really looking out for her. She has some angels or something. It is still so heartbreaking that you have to be there for her at a distance. I pray she has a friend or someone there to comfort her.
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Day 175 clean and sober today. Congratulations @FeelingBetter and @Charlie_C for hitting double digits!!! @Dragonflygirl82 I hope that you get better soon! @M-be-free49 I’m sorry to hear about your Mom, prayer and strength going out to both of you. I’m really proud of you @Clarity, whatever it takes one day at a time to walk through it is perfect. @anon60334405, bro you are killing it, you sound so much better keep it up!!! @Mno I’m really amazed by how hard you work every day both at home and at work, your house is looking awesome!!! I’m missing a lot of people as I’m proud of all of us here doing the deal ODAAT. Keep up the good work, love you guys!!! 
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Thanks for the support. Its going to be tough to stick to, I feel so weak and sluggish even when I just take a planned week off. I’m already hearing the mental whispers to get back at it (and my back isn’t even out of the acute stage yet!)
I found about 2 dozen mobility vids that I like the look of and have bookmarked. I’m also going to try to address my flat feet and my left calf/ankle lack of movement. The latter is a neurological defect but I think I can still work at it.
I have to try this “3 month break” thing at least. I cant have my back be a source of anxiety the rest of my life…i feel like I couldn’t go walk around a city for the day if I wanted to, because it’ll aggravate it, being on my feet that long… stuff like that bothers me. I hate to think about what this will be like in 5 or 10 years if I don’t figure it out.
I’m only 32 and in otherwise great health, so I refuse to resign myself to it or believe that a full recovery isn’t possible at this stage in my life – despite what a few doctors have said. Fuck that. I have to keep trying.
At age 8 when I had a major spine surgery, the doctors said I’d never be able to play sports again. I went on to do it all, except hockey. I still have that belief in myself.
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Its definitely the perfect time to take a 3 month break!! Your body needs it. Im going hard on working out right now just so I can wear a… sweater? LOL What am I thinking? But I did just take a 1 month break. We all need breaks sometimes. Now I feel motivated to kick ass.
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