Morning all. Checking in sober. Today is Day 322 which makes 46 Weeks! Having a better morning. Thanks for the support and well wishes yesterday.
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- Got word that a fellow AAer relapsed, drank so much she died in her sleep. I am sure there are more details.
If you are struggling, this is just another reminderā¦just say ānoā to that first drink. The āpainā, āmiseryā, āstruggleā that a trigger gives youā¦just isnt worth it.
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Oh how sadā¦ 
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Good on you for taking steps for healing. It can feel hard to take these actions with no certainty of benefits, but sometimes you just have to try something. I would be very interested to hear what you find regarding flat feet. I struggle with mine and overpronation and am having knee issues again. I wear Birkenstocks religiously in the house and orthotics in my tennies, but I think I need to do something else - just now starting to look into it. I really hope you find something that helps you, and thank you for sharing this with us. It gives me hope and motivation to work harder (and smarter) regarding my own physical issues.
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@Jennajen Go you!!!
Thank you for that @Thirdmonkey that message has just made me put the thought right back in the trash!
I do want today to beoverā¦ Brain op has been scheduled !!!
Life I really really want a break from drama, shitstorms and all the other craps.
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Day 11. Feeling great. Pre-Thanksgiving prep. A few errands with SO. Sunny and warm in SC. Life is good.
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Day 78: Woke up to a winter wonderland! Well, itās pretty from inside but a wet, sloppy mess out there. Rain is coming to wash it all away. After a slow, stiff start to the morning and lots of stretching, Iām feeling okay and will try some exercises before catching up on housework. Maybe bake a pieā¦or more cookies. The pie intimidates me as itās been quite a while. I have frozen crusts as a back up! Focusing on the small joys and beauty today.
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Day 3 just completed. Had a bit if a crappy day at work and normally would of run to the beer and white but instead had a good dinner and sorted my planted aquarium out. Bit of a mess it was lol. Loving reading all the positive messages on here and seeing people doing well. Its inspiring me to keep checking in and keep on my own journey.
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Checking in November 24 2020
I woke up grateful first thing i open when i wake up is TS and get my daily dose of reads then my dog is crying to be let out its a nice beautiful sunny day here in my part of the world with some cold winds hope everyone is having a great Tuesday .
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Checking in, shortly. Really. Feeling like shit.
Only thing that makes me a little happy is this:
Thatās a typical x mas decoration thing that my father build. My mother asked me if I would like to have it and even though I am not a huge decoration fan, this I would appreciate.
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@Olivia Iām so sorry youāre feeling like this, sending strength 
@Sanuk congrats on your week 
@Dee134 , @FeelingBetter , & @Charlie_C congrats to you all on double digits
@Dragonflygirl82 praying for your health 
really hope the symptoms start to pass soon.
@M-be-free49 Really sorry to hear about your Mumās fall and injury, sending prayers for a smooth recovery
@Thirdmonkey may her soul find peace, just awful
74 days.
Couldnāt wake up this morning, Iām usually out of bed by 6, but today I finally dragged myself out of it at 9:30! This isnāt great when Iām hoping to get a new job from the interview next week. I really donāt think I will get it though, I really donāt interview very well. All I can do is start making some notes and really try to communicate how much I want it.
I have managed 2 walks today, almost didnāt go for a 2nd one, but Iām glad I did as it boosts my sense of achievement, it was dark by the time I got home, will post a pic of the sky when I turned around to head back. I attended the support group on Zoom. My foot pain saga is persisting, so I think I will call the doctor again tomorrow and ask about a referral to a podiatrist, I think thatās the next step.
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Checking in
All morning the back of my head planed on drinking during lunchtime. So for this afternoon I came back to my office with a good and tall coffee, just plugged my earphones to some calm relaxing music and about to get back to work.
Just smoothing the day a lilā bit instead of drinking it.
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Nice pic! Like the previous time you posted a pic from that spot I thought it was in my neighbourhood. Success on preparing for the interview. Not my favourite business either, but we can learn how to do it better.
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Checking in, day 19. I took my cold morning shower, it boosted my energy and felt pretty good. I went to my shrink, we did relaxation. Itās unbelievable how my brain communicates with me. In relaxation I see almost a whole story, the scene is the same and everything symbolizes something. It gives me so much clue where I am, and helps to organize my feelings.
I bought a journal notebook or I donāt know how is it called, and I will do some writing daily for the first time in my life. It will be odd, because Iām not a diary-writer type and also I have some trust issues, Iām quite paranoid, so I donāt know where will I keep it. In my childhood I learnt how to write with cyrillic letters so that my brother couldnāt read the things I wrote. I know that spouse wouldnāt read it, but still I have this mistrust.
EDIT: I just remembered, that I used to put little pieces of paper into my cupboard doorās gap, so that I know if my brother opened it while I was away. Oh, how crazy I was, even then, lol.
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Thank you @CATMANCAM! Nice of you to notice.
Dont know anything about your foot pain, but have you ever tried shoe inserts? Did my husband a ton of good. Hope you get relief.
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Day 364. Iām feeling totally different about drinking versus a year ago. I had for years thought of craving a drink in the early evening as just a permanent thing that would always be there. Now itās not. Itās amazing to see that change is possible
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Thanks @CATMANCAM! Good for you to get out and did two walks despite your slow start! And good luck with that job interview!
Iām still sober on my 8th day. Had a wonderful day with my son. He had several meltdowns but I could deal with them way better since Iām sober.
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What a great reflection, I love those kind of realisations. The small but profound stuff that really affects our daily lives. And amazing how in a relatively short amount of time (however long some days feel!) these responses we build up over years or even decades can start to fall away. Lots to be proud of! 
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Day 363
Had the first chat with my sponsor and did steps 1-3. Iāve finally found a community related to gaming-addiction and it has helped me be more active on ts again too. Canāt wait for the one year anniversary as I will start self improvement on that day again, but this time not my way. I might finally be leaving this slump
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Checking in again.
Pretty low. Started to believe I aināt gonna make this sobriety last long. Iām getting obsessed with drinking. I hate my head right now for planning it like that. My girlfriend is working all weekend and I canāt stop thinking that this is when itās going to happen.
Iām still going to do everything I can to make it through today, which is all that matter I guess. I donāt know what happened in the last week for me to have so much more craving than the first 2 months. Maybe Iām in calorie deficit ? Maybe I donāt like my job? Maybe Iām tired of lockdown? Maybe itās hard to build new habits? Maybe itās hard to quit drinking after years of using? Probably all of this.
Going for a swim now. My girl will be back one tonight so weāll talk about it , again.
I feel Sorry for being such a defeated ass these days.
Hope everyone is having a good day though.
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