What a cool story, Eric…dogs are life. I can’t imagine getting through sobriety without my leo…I call him my “heart” dog-they say you always have one in your life; that dog that just gets you. I hope you have a lovely thanksgiving! 
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Thanks. You and Leo have a happy Thanksgiving too. I know a lot of pets that have rescued a lot of addicts. They really are a blessing.
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162 days. Decided instead of just reading everyone’s posts it’s time for me to start sharing on this thread. I’m very thankful for my sobriety but have been tested a lot lately by my entering a blended family. All kinds of feelings and stressors have been presented to me and some days I feel like I’m barely hanging in there. During these times it has been TS that has got me through and I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have all of you.
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What kind things to say! Thank you so much 
I’m very proud of you as well!
Hope you have a great Thanksgiving, too 
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Thank you @Clarity, @Nordique, @anon79808082, @FeelingBetter and @Tomek. Yes I’m very healthy right now and it really is a blessing that they caught it. I was reading online about when it’s not caught early and it’s pretty vicious. Everything works out and happens for a reason so I’m just going to roll with it and just be grateful. And Donna, the doctor I saw yesterday is a urologist that specializes in oncology (I think that’s the right term) and he’s the one that believes it’s cancer. I’m being seen at UCSD which is such an amazing place for something like this, they are known to be some of the best doctors in the nation. Thank you everyone for your support I love you guys! 
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Sounds like you’ve got the best help, we’re right here beside you, brother!
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Thank you so much I appreciate that very much!!!
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You are in great hands at UCSD. We moved to SD about 5 years ago. Now in escrow on a house not terribly far from campus. Wishing you the best!
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Big up to you! 900 days sober is awesome, Congrats. Keep on stacking them days! 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Day 3. Coming to terms with me having a real problem. Focusing on getting better. Realizing I cannot do this on my own.
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Hi Emm,
Thanks for asking. It’s a real roller coaster. I am glad that I have my colleagues at work that cheer me up a little bit. Mostly though I feel such an inner stress that I cannot let go. My lettre is missing but I think they just f*** up tracking it. The second I sent yesterday to my landlord isn’t moving as well. So either my landlord is nice answering to me asking if she got the letter or I have to go there in person on Saturday.
Most of the times I am so exhausted, I really don’t want to face it anymore. It just gets worse and worse.
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Great to see this mate, I’ve not been on for a while so it’s good to see your doing really well 
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Minnie! 
What a sweet creature! Dogs can sense that kind of stuff. Definitely God’s timing 
I’m so glad for you. Sometimes our rescue comes in little things
hugs
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That’s like saying I’m a little bit pregnant. It’s all or nothing for people like us and if you don’t know why you did it it’s probably time to look at some home truths. I drink bc I’m an alcoholic, I take drugs bc in a drug addict, I can’t have these things to pick me up bc they always given time bring me down. Next time reach out before not after, it’s what we are here for.
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Day 17. I do feel like I might have Covid. Of course, I have the regular craptastic feeling of the first month of sobriety. So, it could be sobriety and it could be Covid. Either way, it will start to balance out in a couple weeks. 
This headache can skidaddle anytime. 
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@Sunny11 Congrats on your 
@Misokatsu feel better soon
@DuncanNZ Wow big numbers, congrats
@Conor689908 sorry for your struggles, sending strength
@Blueroom Happy Soberversary! 
@TMAC massive congrats on 900! Was nice to read your gratitude, I’m glad your team won, especially after the losing streak with that opponent.
@Rockstar24777 sending strength and prayers that the surgery goes well and I’m glad they’ve caught it early on the offchance
@Salty hope your doctor phonecall goes well and they listen to your concerns
@liv_m nice work on calming your nerves and getting through it
75 days.
Woke up extraordinarily late again this morning, not sure what’s going on, can only put it down to SAD, it’s not really an immediate issue , I go to bed very early so even when I say I’ve slept late, I was still awake by 8:30, it’s just I’m usually up and about by 6, and if I do somehow get this new job, I’ll need to make sure Im awake at my usual time so I’ve time to walk before I go to work etc, but I’ll worry only when necessary.
I managed 2 walks today. I didn’t quite realise how much I was doing as I only ever look at the steps counter and have never really translated that into miles, well I’m averaging about 6 miles a day, and I think that’s pretty cool considering the amount of pain I’m always in and having been off all my pain meds for over a month now because as I suspected, they were not working anyhow, I know this for sure now as my pain is no different than when I was taking high doses of Pregabalin, Co-Codamol, Baclofen, and Diazepam, I can’t believe I persisted with taking them all for so long out of fear from being in even worse pain.
I’m listening to a new audiobook called The Joy of Less, (or something like that), it’s about minimalism, de-cluttering, and simplicity, I’ve done 2 de-cluttering missions in the last year but I know deep down there’s so much more I could let go of, and it always feels so good afterwards too. It’s a lot of ‘emotional’ attachment type stuff that I’ve still got, like all of my football trophies, old letters and post cards from school friends and penpals, teddies that were gifts, other gifts that I feel too guilty when I attempt to discard of so wind up keeping in boxes on a shelf in my wardrobe or spare room. CDs. DVDs. All of which I never listen to or watch. Etc. I’m hoping the audiobook will motivate me to start my final mission so that when I move, I’m only taking what makes me feel good into the next chapter of my life.
I really do love this check-in thread and reading through over 100 posts a day, it’s my favourite part of the day. Sending love to you all 
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Sorry your suffering right now Conor. Ugh it’s so hard to manage anxiety and depression. I hope you enjoy your day shopping. Ps: don’t forget my present 
just playing take care my friend.
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That really stinks! Positive vibes your way! Love and light 
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