Amazing T!!! Congratulations 
so proud of ya! 
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Thank you so much 
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Congratulations on one year!!!
Yay for 10 days down!! Keep it up brother! Love and lightā
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Checking in on day 10.
We are on vacation this week, well more of a stay-cation. Keeping busy winterizing the RV, insulating the goat house, organizing the garage to get the snowblower ready and easily accessible and just some cleaning of the house that needed to be done desperately. It feels good to have the motivation to do these, as I normally wouldnāt.
Cravings were pretty strong earlier today, but instead of pouring a drink, I made an espresso. Peppermint mocha espressoā¦ delicious 
I dread next week when we are back to work and I have time on my hand again to be able to drinkā¦ one day at a time.
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Checking in Nov 25 2020
Today no thought of drinking or smoking
Just feel like i need more rest i should be okay .
Ready to get back to work next week staying home isnt for me 
Monday hurry up !
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Checking in day 72
@Tomek @Truckinmonster21 @Misokatsu @anon28001181 @Mbwoman
Thank you for all your kind words and insight. After my swimming yesterday (in which Iāve been able to have some moments of mindfulness or flowing swimming - which are amazing when Iām able to), Iāve felt better. I red all your words and it came right through me as I was walking off the pool. I came outside and saw the cloud and snow and remembered the images that the thoughts are clouds and that I am the sky. It did help me put perpective, and made me able to remember what Iāve told myself and the choice I made myself like you said @Tomek. I then been able to shovel a little more into the Ā« why Ā» of those craving @anon28001181 and found a lot of things while talking to my girlfriend. Realized we had a huge autumn, lot of stressful events and that I was tired and not giving myself a lot of break, nor any actually. So I went to buy some chips and ice cream after the pool, but we ended up working out, having a nice supper and good talk cuddling at last. Slept well and was very happy to be sober today.
The thoughts of relapsing might be part of recovery, but relapsing isnāt part of my recovery plan. I plan on keeping my sobriety, and before I drink thereās a lot of things I can do.
Chips and ice cream are still untouched and ready to be enjoyed, lol.
One day at a time.
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I was thinking about you today and Iām really glad that you didnāt relapse. Keep fighting!
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Checking in!! Day 17
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Ourstanding!!!
Sister, that is what counts. Sometimes it isnt prettyā¦but your are doing it!
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I also thought today that this virtual community was very helping me. I really felt the support yesterday and just the thought of coming on here to write that I was back to day 0 made me frightened and made it another reason of why I didnāt want to drink. Anyways, really grateful for that today. Thanks again.
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Checking soon out. Feel Ć little relieved now. Took the courage and texted my landlord if the lettre arrived at hers. As I have no mail confirmation via tracking which was the whole purpose of spending this money. She confirmed. I am glad, at least she was so fair.
I signed up the contract for the kitchen. It will be delivered mid Feb. And the apartment contract beginning mid Jan. This is still okay. I am exhausted. Need to sleep somehow. Cannot sleep.
I wish everyone a nice and sober evening.
In Germany they are discussing the upcoming Lockdown until Xmas. Then over Xmas less regulation as Xmas is theeeeeen moooost important thing in life just to have an even harder. Lockdown afterwards as surprise, the numbers will go up.
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Glad to hear it!
I hear you on not allowing yourself enough of a break. Iāve done that many times. Iād be sober so Iād burn the candle at both ends and eventually get to a breaking point and need some relief. I guess itās sort of the ātiredā aspect of HALT.
In fact, Iāve been going pretty hard at work the last couple weeks, so this four day weekend is a much needed break for me.
Enjoy the chips and ice cream!
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Checking in on day 12. Went to another AA meeting last night and there was about 30 people as itās a beginners meeting. I was asked to share and had a second of hesitation but my body stood up in strength as I felt like I needed to share āwhat it was likeā and I felt good after sharing, like just a bit of shame, guilt and resentment was lifted off me. Grateful to wake up sober, grateful to be at work this morning and I hope everyone is doing wellā¦
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Thanks Dee nice to meet ya 
Kudos on staying strong in your AA meeting lastnight that inner strength is amazing when your sober especially when you have a great group ! Keep rocking it
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- Tisā the season for drinking and festivities. Do relapses happen, yes. Do they need to, no. For 2 decades I ātriedā to quit. I poured enough booze down the drain during those decades to get the population of a medium sized country drunk.
Truth be told, all those yearsā¦I used excuses, moderation plans, situations to give me permission to drink. I knew it would never end well.
The day came when I put a gun in my mouth.
The next day I became sober. I finally accepted that drinking could no longer be a possibility. Drinking could not fix a damn thing. I finally accepted that I had to do more than just ānot drinkā.
So when faced with a relapse, what will you do? Me, I will not drink. I want to live.
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Day 79: Checking in. Busy in the kitchen, watching British mysteries, wiping muddy paws on this very wet and grey day, thinking of good and bad times past, heat and ice on aching hands, mostly the mood is light and cheerful. Iām doing a-okay.
Sending out my love to those who are hurting. Iāll try to catch up here tonight.
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Awesome and yes I am!!! Cool someone from San Diego! I thought I was the only one lol. Good luck with your new house!!!
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