You are doing great . Iād be proud too.
- Celebrated Christmas on the 24th with Ms. ās family. Was an interesting evening. Between her sisterās dog pulling the pies off the counter and eating them, and us playing a new game (Thatās what she said) I havent laughed that hard in forever. If you are looking for a fun game, I recommend āThatās what she saidā. Its the dirty version of cards against humanity.
Day 91. Made it to the post office to mail my mom and my cousin the hats I knit them. I also got my laundry done, so weāll call it a win. Iām feeling a little under the weather today (runny nose, sore throat), so weāre going to call it an early night.
@Mno, your ability to catch these sequences of numbers always makes me smile. Congratulations!
@anon79808082, Iām so sorry to hear about your mom. Iām keeping you both in my prayers.
@anon27760155, you are having a rough, rough go of it. Iām sorry that this year has been such a terrible slog for you, and Iām hoping that the coming year will be 100x better. Hang in there.
Day 110: And day 2 with migraine. Awful stuff, spent all day in bed and it was a bit of a shame trigger, because it feels somewhat like being hungover. Yuck. I will have to catch up here later. But @anon79808082 Iām so sorry to hear about your mom, but glad you were able to speak to her. Sending healing vibes.
that was meant to say the waiting must have been killing you, bloody typos
Thank you!
Yes, thank you, I love this idea! A couple months ago I started keeping a section of my calendar where I mark off days (with hi-liters though bc I love bright colors, haha) It helps a lot. Both as a reminder to not drink (I love filling in those boxes each day) and to be able to look back and see so many filled in.
Woo-hoo!! Look at you go! Well done.
5 weeks today. 35 days. Going as strong as ever. Interesting thing happened at the gym this morning. A dude had a shirt on that said āWhiskey Helps.ā Without even thinking, I said to the guy, āNice shirt manā and we both laughed. Immediately, I couldnāt believe what had just happened. Whiskey doesnāt help. Alcohol ruins everything. Why did I do that?! The more I think about it, the more it makes me sad. Too many days of my life have ended in me turning to alcohol for help and all it did was hurt. Never again. F*** alcohol forever.
Sending prayers to @anon79808082 and @Lisa07
The difference between this Christmas and last Christmas is night and day. Last year I was miserable and just a few months away from my breakdown. I spent the holidays alone and wanted nothing to do with anyone. I was sad, angry, and bitter.
This year was absolutely lovely. I donāt have the words to express how special it was.
I also finally caved and started meds for my ADHD today. My doctor has been trying forever because itās pretty bad, and aligned with traits of autism. Whatever, itās a spectrum. I suspect we all have a touch
Anyway, I refuse to go on adderall, I rage on that stuff. So, we decided on dexadrine. I can already notice a difference. Iāve had a migraine since the day before Christmas Eve, within an hour of taking it, I noticed it lifting. Iām also not clenching my teeth as much. I feel mellow, which is odd. Iām sure Iāll get used to it. But so far so good
I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas, and for the love of all thatās good and holy, bring on 2021!!!
Day 138
Gonna have a chilled day tidying up Christmas tree, doing homework with kids, and eating leftovers. I really enjoy these kind of days, no expectations so no vague disappointments. The sun is shining, no work until the 5th of January. I know some of you are having a hard time. My thoughts are with you, and I am remembering to count my blessings.
Checking in.
I find the urge to drink comes and goes. Iāve been thinking about it more over the holidays and cold weather. But Iām glad to be here sober. I donāt want to go back to cravings and feeling like drinking is a necessity.
Had a good day. Did my usual routine. Feels good. Donāt forget youāre all incredible and worth it. It takes work itās not easy but keep trying and it gets better. God bless you all. &
Awesome amazing victory hopefully me but today is just for today awsome
Did any of you ever have to work up the courage, when you were a kid, to lean over the edge of the bed and shine a flashlight underneath it? Take that, monsters and boogeymen! Victorious, I could get a sound sleep, even if only until the next nightā¦
Well, to all of those cravings, urges, and triggers that still think youāve got something worth sayinā to meā¦?
Day 180.
So yeah. Take that.
I wouldnāt be here without all of you, helping me hold this flashlight steady. Super grateful for you, for this place.
We get to do this again tomorrow. Letās not ever take that for granted.
Gānight, beautiful sober pals.
180 in a rowā¦boom goes the dynamite
Absolutely amazing . Please know that thereās times you are the guiding light