@Luisa53 How are you?
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- Didnāt sleep too bad despite lots of waking up and some vivid dreams. Thanks for all the positive feedback last night. Gave me a good insight. Breaking down the old me, or open, or in two, the one I built up since I was a toddler is actually a good thing. Didnāt think of it like that before. I was just scared of losing myself. And I still am, but I do understand and accept that some huge renovation is needed and that I need to invest heavily into that. And Iām willing to do the work. More so now than before.
Coming to this conclusion because of you all. And my sobriety. I couldnāt do this without it or you. Very grateful this morning. Have a good Friday all. Love from my place.
@BOBISGONE1 Very glad to see you back lady. Youāre one of us. We do it together. Hugs.
@Misokatsu Yay!!!
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Thanks Stella lifes been so extremly busy but all well, I miss being part of ts but felt I needed to take a step bk for abit but will be around over Xmas, such a happy place here.
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You wonāt lose yourself, you will just lose the comfort of ignoration, the comfort of self-deception. You will lose a fake, made-up image of yourself, but itās not worth to keep I guess if creating and maintaining it led you to addiction.
If you turn to your inner child with curiosity, acceptance and love, then everything will be fine.
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I know and Iām glad to start doing this work. Itās a work of love and itās learning to love myself (to quote poor Whitney). Iām scared because itās all Iāve known for 50+ years. @anon74766472 Understanding and analysing comes first, action comes after. In that respect itās interesting how some of the folks in my therapy group were already asking the therapists for solutions to their problems in the third session.
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Day 420 without alcohol. Day 21 on my āHealthy Journeyā with healthy food and daily exercise. My country is in the second lockdown and a lot of things is closed or restrictes, but I feel free.
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Thank you ! 
Hello everyone
Daily check in on Day 115 sober 
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Checking in. I think itās 381, not sure. Life is weird with the pandemic but Iām very grateful to have discovered I can live without alcohol. I used to think I needed a couple of drinks to deal with my kids, and I look back on that and feel sad. I want to be present with them, not drunk. Sticking with it.
My youngest who is ten wrote a story for school about girl whose father chose beer over her. Based on her own dad. It was a good story.
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Day 312
holy moley my 2nd ever win. Out of idk prob like 5000 games, I def stink at this game lmao. Anyways, last night after are bath me and the girls go into my room to get dressed, Addieās looking in the mirror and sees a present on the top shelf, whhaaas datt Daddy points in the mirror, idk what your talking about I say and try kind of hiding in the way, autumn comes in and looks upā¦ Itās a surprise she says. I got so scared, all this hard work that Iāve never attempted before out the window, so I screamed loud get fucking dressed. I obviously feel like shit, I was scared there goes Christmas. Well after the meltdowns and I was able to come up with a good fib and say they were present for Mommy and we canāt see them. I kept my self accountable and apologized for my behavior, it wasnāt theyāre fault. But for real it felt like the hard work Iāve never done before was shattered for a minute. Much love
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There is a saying "where ever you go, there you are " there is also a book named that as wellā¦ So you ever loose your self 
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My naan did that but sheās all raita now. 
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I am a frequent passenger on the Fuckit Express. It is difficult to not board, especially in bad weather. You are right, rather Clarence; however, it can be said that your sobriety touches so many lives, too.
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1.) You are better at chess than I am. Out of 400 games I have won 0! I do not know why I play it, I find it so enjoyable.
2.) Fear makes us react in ways we often regret. This season is extra special, one day they will understand. Be kind to yourself. You are doing your best.
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Your presence makes the group a happier place.
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Good morning you beautiful, sober people! Tomorrow will be three completed weeks. Wow. So grateful to be this far along. Literally everything in my life has improved, even if just slightly. Full of hope for the future. Great days are ahead. Letās win today 
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Day 1 sober. I need y to o keep the meetings and the good work I did before. No giving up although I feel wasted
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Day 412ā¦ I was thinking about how much easier life is in sobriety, seriously drinking was a full time job for me. Itās like i retired from a profession that I despised. For those who are in the early days stick it out, i promise you is worth it.
@jjcarson92 congratulations on 11 months man!
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