@Petr WOW WOW WOW!! Absolutely amazing job!! 
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Thank you @liv_m. I did two 15 minute positive affirmation meditations this morning and will make it a daily practice again. I used to meditate and do Qi Gon every day but stopped along with all of the other things that I did on a daily basis to maintain my balance and sobriety. Have a great day and thanks again!
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Congratulations 
that’s awesome 
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Checking in, day 43. I’m still sick, somehow I can’t get better. Yesterday I accidently hit my head to the headboard and teared up, cause it hurt a lot, and then just started to cry hard, although I haven’t done it for a long time. I felt so miserable and thought that who am I kidding, everything is just so bad, nothing works in my life and it’s just a huge mess without any solution. But then, after calming down a bit I asked myself why would I believe this 5-minute breakdown rather than my whole day, when I felt ok? It’s ok to feel hopeless from time to time, but I shouldn’t fall for it. I feel more comfortable feeling myself miserable, than working hard to feel balanced and good and powerful. But feeling cozy in the bad mood doesn’t mean it’s more valid, feeling hopeless doesn’t mean that there is no hope. Btw, thank you, @Hazy once again for recommending the “respond not react” video, it was really useful. One important thing I have learnt is that thoughts are real but not true. It helped me to understand this situation better.
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@Tryingtogetitright congrats on 5 months 
@stop.the.ride congrats on your week
@SoCalBookworm welcome and congrats on double digits
@Petr congrats on 2 years! 
98 days.
DBT this morning was very interesting, I like this module. We are learning about fact checking and opposite actions. It’s all making sense.
I finished the little extra details on the bears today, they are now ready to take back to my Mum’s grave. I’m feeling a little sad as it approaches what would have been her 60th birthday, the 22nd, but doing the bears has been something healing to focus on.
I have read another 2 chapters of the sobriety book I’m reading, and as usual this reinforces my resolve for living the rest of my life sober.
I think I will wrap the gifts I bought yesterday this weekend, to break my last minute Xmas Eve stress pattern. Other than that, no plans as usual.
I did my Gaia Oracle card last night, for the first time since getting sober, and it was a good one: ‘Healing’.
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THANK YOU. I’m determined. I don’t want to end up sick or dead.
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Amazing! Congrats and well done. Thanks for being here and spurring us all on with your achievement!
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I would say put your best foot forward but I guess they both look great now, well done on seeing the inevitable and changing the future.
The anxiety calms down as time goes by, I still get a little bit now and again but my mind doesn’t blow the whole day out of proportion bc I know what will be will be and unless I get hit by a bus the days never as bad as my mind tells me. Well done on day 1 
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Great positive post full of I WILL and not I wish I coulds.
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I have been having a rough day or two with craving cigarettes. The mental nicking is so much worse than the pangs of withdrawing. Because, when my muscles spasmed and I was in bed for 36 hours with flu-like symptoms, I knew there would be an end to the pain and discomfort.
This, though, is worse because I do not know if there will be an end to the nagging and taunting to smoke again. I quit for 3 years once. I do not remember most of it because I went into a fugue. What I do remember, I felt like I was stretched and chained in the sun…I was being tanned like leather. Shrinking, yet unable to get smaller.
Did I trade one master for another? I am having a difficult day today to say the least
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it ain’t bothering us so why let it bother you. If we can’t be open and honest on here then what’s the point. Proud of you 
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Great sober days and thanks for the inspiration 
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Thank you Paul for sure! 
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God I love this forum, you guys are AWESOME!!!
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Thank you 
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Thank you ! Looks like 100 is next up for you
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