Keep up the good work! Is that you playing drums?
Day 102: All quiet here. Been dealing with some body aches since yesterday and am hoping to avoid another pain flare, so Iām taking it easy. Iām grateful that my husband decided to take all next week off and his company gives him the following week off each year, so we will have some down time. He is looking forward to having more time to spend with our buddy Chucho and I think the pressure for me to take care of our sick doggo and watch him like a hawk will be lifted somewhat. I can feel the stress in my body, my gut, and my heart and it hurts. Iāve tried doing quick stretches here and there, but some more structured yoga would be helpful, if Iām cautious about it. During this break for my husband, there may also be an increase in his drinking habits. What that will look like is somewhat unknown right now, but I do know that it has been a bit more challenging to be with him while heās drinking lately. Itās usually only a couple few beers, but when he has more of a break he likes to drink more liquor. I feel some discomfort building and so tonight Iāll talk to him about it. One of the previous times I relapsed I let those feeling build until I just said to him I wanted āone,ā and he said, āyou sure?ā And I said yes. Thatās all it took for me to go down the road toward a binge. He will respect my decisions and itās up to me to make the choice to not drink, but I can ask him to be sure not to offer me any, at the very least. Iāll tell him Iām feeling some discomfort being around him drinking and we will navigate that together. He has already said he will adapt as needed for my sobriety, itās just a matter of figuring out how to do that. Ok, I feel better already.
Hang in there during this time, people! I send you big awkward but loving hugs.
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thank you . Loved the pun. They are looking so much better the drunken pedicures I use to give myself. 
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Just throwing it out there. My friend sent me this:
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Day 336
Yesterday was pretty tough and seems to be fueling today. Have a headache since I got up, slept terribly with more using dreams. Maybe itās winter blahs maybe itās milestone approaching probably a combo effect. Maybe itās depression being single, no kids, no job, no car no pets allowed while living in a communal sober house. I realize all these things have perks too. Bright side Iām clean and sober and Iām not homeless, I have support quite abit of it. I still get that look at all the stuff I screwed up. Iām level 42 now some these things I let pass me by being drunk and stoned. Had a great stretch of feeling up days recently. Trying to keep the down days from being too overwhelming and dragging on is easier said than done. Weekly house meeting later today so hoping talking with the counsellor that comes will help. Talked with family and friends. Prayed and did daily readings, did my household chores. Writing this out here helps a little. Headache is still there. The fact that I start to get ready to make some of the necessary changes to move forward and Covid comes. I know making plans while my higher power laughs. Fricking jerk Lol ahh poor me rant over for now.
God bless you all. 
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Iām sorry to read that youāre struggling. I quitted smoking 7 years ago, but still could start it again anytime. But even if you have massive cravings: isnāt it better to live a sober life with cravings than wasting ourselves on booze, cigarettes and drugs?! I think itās possible to get used to discomfort even for a lifetime. But I also think it wonāt last forever.
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Sounds like a good day, Conor! He birthday is all day, btw, lolā¦ So how many hours before she goes to bed?? 
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I quit smoking over 5 years ago and Iām pretty sure Iāll never do it again. Just as long as I donāt pick up that first one Iām safe. If I do Iām lost. The cravings did subside quite some time ago for me. Still a post like this one from you still reminds me and makes me pick up a tooth pick and chew it. Thatās a habit I still have, although covid and working masked has helped me to wean of it for the most part. Talking about smoking makes me grab one though. Driving does too. But better than actually lighting up right. Ow, and what @tomek said.
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Your numbers are climbing up pretty fast charlie. You passed the one month mark. Nice work 
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you must be on 200 and I havenāt seen a post anywhere but you were really close the other day 
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Absolutely killinā it. Way to go! Iām so happy for you and proud of your hard work and determination. You rock!!!
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Welcome to the 200 club Donna! Nice freaking work!!
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Menno, lol; is that what Luna would do? 
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@Petr. Congratulations on 2 years man. Whatās the biggest difference youve noticed over the 2nd year of your sobriety?
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yeh!!! I knew it had to be close. What can I say that you donāt already know, nothing but fuck it Iām saying it anyway. Iām so proud of you and getting this far bc you had the strength and courage to never stop trying, itās been a bumpy road at times and that just exaggerates the character of the lady you are. Your caring and loving towards all and a valued part of our little community.
The next bit is 100 % fact that I would not be where I am without you bc the time I reached out for help you were the first to reply so my 88 days can be added to your 200 bc without you they would not exist. Well done and Thank You
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Thank you!! Iām pretty chuffed, lolā¦ from my UK verbage, 
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That just made me tear up~! Thank you so much, Paulā¦ I can unequivocally say you have a huge part in me still being here. You let me be as I was/am at any given time. Thank you sweetie. 
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