Checking in daily to maintain focus #24

Day 347 had an up and down day emotionally. Having the routine i’ve established helps manage the highs and lows that life brings. I rarely think of drinking or using which feels like a miracle so greatful, in large part because i work on maintaining the routine as best i can everyday. I want to congratulate evryone who is sober and clean today. You rock. To those celebrating milestones well done. @anon27760155 @AyBee @Rockstar24777 God bless you all. :v: & :hearts:

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Just shy of 2 years! Big congrats to you for that - and also for facing your grief and loss sober. That’s huge and I admire you for it - thank you for sharing.
Sending you strength and condolences. :orange_heart:

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Checking in day 39. I am happy. I am blessed. I feel a level of physical well-being I haven’t experienced in a long time. I don’t know if this is the pink cloud or the joy of this year finally ending soon or the sense of freedom I feel from no longer hiding my struggle… whatever it is I’m just going to rest in this moment.

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I wanted to really say thank you to everyone that congratulated me on my 200 days and all of the get well wishes it means so much. I wish I could name you all by name I want you to know I love you guys. Thank you so much and have a wonderful night :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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So proud of you!! Congratulations Rob! :muscle:t3:

Setting that intention really helped! At least for this first day lol thanks again for the support @Kaeo! I actually might be going to Hawaii this coming year. Haven’t been back for 6 years (big island) Haven’t been back to Maui though in forever. Hope things are going well for you and you have a great new year!!

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Congrats @AyBee, super proud of you

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Congratulations @AyBee @anon27760155 and @Rockstar24777 :raised_hands:

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@Rockstar24777 I hope you’re starting to feel at least a little better!

@I.cant.We.can I really believe that my daily routine is one of the top 3 things that keep me going strong. Congrats on day 347!

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38 days. End of the day. On vacation with the family this week. Previous vacations have always involved alcohol. Went out and bought sparkling water and limes to give myself something “special” in place of liquor. Struck up a conversation with a guy at the gym tonight and bitched about all the ways alcohol messed up my life. He was totally in agreement. He lamented all the money he gave up to alcohol. It ended up being a really helpful exchange. How encouraging to find a sober friend hiding in plain sight.

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Checking in on Day 32 no alcohol. I am feeling pretty tired right now. Got a pretty big emotional swing and had to let loose some tears this afternoon…then I realized it’s a full moon in Cancer, which is supposed to bring up lots of emotional stuff. And I’m a sensitive Pisces, so people attuned you astrology might feel me on this. I also think I’m feeling the change of hormones in my cycle more strongly now that I’m not drinking OR smoking weed. There’s nothing really to cloud it and it just feels stronger. I would like to track my emotional well being over a couple months and see if I notice any patterns. If I’m going to get hit with strong emotions the same couple of days every month it might be manageable if I know it’s coming!!

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Hey, me too!

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3.5 halfway to a week. Physically feeling better, but finding myself “woobly”. Never fainted in my life, but just doing toe raises, standing in line, I thought I was going down.

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1 month and 1 day today. So feeling good about my decision to not drink anymore, but also worried at how easy it has been to get here. I read so much on here about others having strong urges after 90 days, 200 days, etc etc. I haven’t had a bad urge since probably the end of week 1 maybe in week 2. I guess I should be happy about that, but I feel like it is going too easy right now and I’m gonna wake up one morning and the shit is gonna hit the fan. I keep trying to remember what I read from @Englishd “Then, when shit goes bad I have all the tools already in place. That’s gameday. When things are going well, that’s practice.” That’s really great advice and I’m trying my best to follow it, just hope I’m ready come game day. Thank you all for listening to this little rant. Hope you all have had a good day and hope for an even better tomorrow!

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I’m feeling too lazy to write anything lengthy but I just wanted to check in. I’m just sitting back and reflecting on my growth. I’m really proud of myself. That’s not something I would fathom thinking over the past few years but today, thinking about all I’ve done for myself, like getting and staying sober, becoming more disciplined with my bills and building up a high credit score, being disciplined with money and building a savings account, finally facing the IRS monster and resolving that scary shadow that silently haunted me over the past few years, albeit unresolved, but in the process of being resolved. My LLC is official as of yesterday, I’ve got a pending sale in the pipeline for my new business that I’ve pondered about for YEARS before taking action…My dietary lifestyle and health has taken a priority in my life. Prayer has become a huge part of me as well as affirmations. I still battle negative thoughts, some stinking thinking, self doubt, and worry…but it’s presence is losing it’s power of my mind. I’m not letting those mind states paralyze me anymore. It’s a good place for me to be. Taking control. Not being a victim.

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Checking in on day 2 :sun_with_face: I fell off the wagon during the holidays, but I am grateful to have another chance. Watching my Mom’s health decline has been a huge trigger, but I need to remember that I have to be sober to be able to help her and be there for her in any real way. I am back to working the steps and going to meetings. No excuses. Very grateful for this opportunity and for this community. Lets have a solid 24 :muscle::yellow_heart:

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Day 183.
I was feeling like the sober, isolated Christmas was an exciting challenge. It took a bit of a jedi mind trick, but hey, what a novelty! Now that it’s over? The whole sober and isolated part hasn’t changed. Huh…
Ah well! It’s good to have this time for setting intentions for 2021, though really - it’s to stay sober and keep working the recovery.

I’m not proud that I lost my shit on an automated customer service line today. It reminded me of drinking, rage-y, reactive M. In my weak defense, I was told to call it by the branch (trying to transfer funds between banks – estate stuff). It (the automated voice) asked me why I was calling and said “I can understand complete sentences”. We swapped a few of those, and I believe I ended the convo in a raised voice: “You don’t understand a fucking thing! I need to speak to a fucking human now!”

Sober is good. See above re: continuing to work the recovery. :wink:
We get another day tomorrow, beautiful people.
’night, big love to all. :orange_heart:

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Congratulations on your 600 days AyBee. That’s a wonderful thing :clap::clap:
:pray:t2::heart:

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2nd check in… I dont know if anyone in Australia is seeing what is happening to the sun as of 2 hours ago , but I thought the world was coming to an end because I have NEVER SEEN SUCH VIVID WIZARDY !!! Apocalyptic stuff guys… I googled what I was seeing and its called a halo. Its a phenomenon apparently. I’m so glad I was out side to witness this… It was also occuring at the same time the moon was ‰100 full at 2.30 pm… This is what it looked like… I dead set thought we had hit end times it was that unbelivable seeing what was around the sun!

I tried to take a photo with my phone but it didn’t pick it up coz it was so bright , but this photo above was exactly what I was seeing in the sky… Has anyone experienced this event before?? :sun_with_face::full_moon_with_face::sunny: interesting experience for me to enjoy for the end of 2020!

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468 Days. My daughter starts a new program tomorrow that will involve some factory type work. We’re all very excited that it’s finally happening after fighting to get her in the past 3 years. It’s only 2 days a week to start then it will go to 3 days in 2 weeks. We’ll stay at 3 days until she’s ready to go to 5. She’ll be getting out, meeting new people, learning a trade and making a little money. She’s nervous but excited. The timing is great since she’s been experiencing a lot of depression during isolation. Today was her birthday and we kept it low key due to the increase in covid cases. Not what she really wanted considering we usually have a party but she understands. Sobriety has given me the opportunity to give her a better life. It’s never too late to turn it around.

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