Great job on your 200!! And thank you for being here with us.
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I am doing well enough today. Iām adding refined sugar to my timer tomorrow and I am so nervous. More nervous than nicotine and porn!
I love you all! Thank you all for your support.
Here to is another beautiful year together.
Perhaps I will be in a better financial place where I can start contributing financially! Fingers crossed.
You all are beautiful! Do not forget it!
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I came across this last night JenĆ©. I wanted to post it somewhere. Wasnāt sure what to do with it. So Iām going to leave it here for you and anyone else that might want to copy it and use it later. Sorry itās a tad long for a check in.
Dear Self,
If youāre reading this, I assume you are struggling to quiet the voice in your head that says you can, or should, drink. That youāre not really an alcoholic, or even if you are, itās not that bad. That itās just for tonight, youāre a grown adult and can make your own decisions, and are perfectly capable of enjoying a drink or two, or five or seven, and be perfectly fine overall.
Or, maybe youāre upset. Maybe something bad has happened, or you are afraid might happen soon. Maybe something stressful is going on. Maybe youāre overwhelmed and anxious, and the voice is telling you that you are being ridiculous to ādeny yourselfā any longer.
Maybe youāre happy and relaxed, and something in your brain is piping up louder and louder. If youāre this happy and relaxed now, a couple of drinks would make that feeling even better. Right? Isnāt that how it works?
Whatever the situation going on, there is always an excuse that we can come up with to drink, if we try hard enough to create it.
Just do this for me (for you), just this once, please. Just wait until tomorrow. Itās just for today.
You chose to quit drinking, and you have the complete freedom to choose to drink again at any point.
The reason that you havenāt is because you accepted the truth that once you take that first drink, all bets are off. You came to the conclusion that for you, it is no longer worth the risk.
You may not feel that way now, or today. I get that. Iām not asking you to do this forever, but please just hang on for another day. Thatās all I ask.
Love,
You
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@apes2020 congrats on 30 days 
@Sabrina80 congrats on 3 years
@Blueroom congrats on 400
@cwak congrats on 40
@EarnIt congrats on your week
@Nordique congrats on 200
@Sirlucas congrats on your week
143 days no alcohol
111 days no cocaine.
The restlessness persists, the property hunt continues. Meditation is still helpful but the days are feeling really long and frustrating. Iāve been bingeing on crisps all week and that needs to stop again. 2020 has been a rough ride, but the best thing to come out of it is sobriety and so I will always remember it. Thank you to all of you here no matter where youāre at in your recovery journeys, this place and all the posts really have made the difference for me this time around. I was looking forward to my local zoom CA meeting tonight but itās been cancelled. Iāve been invited to my dadās again for another roast dinner tomorrow that Iāll help prepare. Will certainly be a good distraction for a few hours.
See you all in 2021! 
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Congrats on 200 man
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Day 115: Howdy, beautiful people! Taking a moment to say I see you, I love you, and you matter. Iām sure Iāve missed congratulations on milestones and Iām sorry. But we are all here working on bettering ourselves, and each of us deserves kudos for everyday we continue that effort. Iāve been wandering in here and there on the forum and itās been such a comfort at times, painful to see people struggle but uplifting to see the medics swoop in to offer assistance. You all amaze me by the words of encouragement you share.
Iām hanging in there, itās hard, and Iāve said all the things about my dog here already. We thought we were losing him this morning but he perked up a bit and now he is sleeping calmly. I always wonder if there are people who are reading my posts thinking, geez, get over it, itās just a dog! But heās my furry child and I feel what I feel. Theyāre such a treasure to us.
Happy NYE, fam. 
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congrats on your 200 
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one week sober, what a great way to end the year, hereās to many more 
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Oh Lisa, Iām sorry about whatever it is that is making you feel this way - that your past wonāt leave you. I get that you made some choices then that you wouldnāt make now (as we all have) but everything @Sober_Ninja said already - youāre still way better off now because of the choices youāve made the last 15 months.
I know this is small, but please know what a difference youāve made here.
Sometimes I think that this sobriety thing is like building a really, really strong house out of toothpicks. One toothpick a day, or maybe one for each craving subverted. I dunno. But your 15 months, your strength and commitment to sobriety, have added a lot of toothpicks to my own house. And Iām grateful. 
Big hugs to you and I hope things get lighter soon.
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@Lisa07 I truly appreciate you opening up. Sounds like a difficult time but I must ask. . .are you able to forgive yourself? Can YOU walk it through your mind and let it go?
@anon60334405 Made me smile knowing youāre smiling. Have an awesome time with your girls.
@apes2020 Somehow I missed your 30 days. Keep rocking it girl. Good to see ya back in the saddle again.
@MagicILY As long as youāre not āescapingā sometimes space and time is a good thing. Take care of you.
@cwak 40 is a big deal. . . youāre doing fanfrickentabulous
@Nordique WHOOP WHOOP. Congratulations on leveling up to the 200 club. Pave the way as Iām right behind ya.
@liv_m Your #s are amazing in many different ways. Congratulations and thank you for being here.
@Penguin I see you and I appreciate you.
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@CATMANCAM Awesome numbers. Keep kicking ass
@Dolse71 & @Dazercat bookmarked. . . thanks for posting
@EVERYONE Again I canāt stress enough how important you all are to me. Please stay safe, clean and sober. I love you all.
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Hugs to you and your sweet pooch, Rosa.
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198 days. Keeping my mind busy cleaning and putsing around the house. Am making a trip today to see two friends that I havenāt seen in over a year. When I started my journey and had moved to a different province it is one of these friends that was the only one to check in on me. She has constantly encouraged me and expressed her pride. She is a true friend. Iām going to stay with her and her girlfriend at a hotel. Although they will both be drinking I am confident I will not. I am not a drinker. Iām very excited about getting to see them both. Iām also excited to just get away for a night by myself.
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Check-in in. Today is day 11! Didnāt think it would be possible to make it to double digits, but here I am!
Happy New Year!
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You just keep us posted on how both Chucho and you are doing. Heās not just a dog, heās family and I feel for you. Hugs & love girl.
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Day 91. Quick check-in. Thanks for all the congrats yesterday; it really lifted me up 
More bread making with the new machineā¦ little guy picked the recipe today so it is fun to be in the kitchen with him (mostly, can be a bit painful lol) but the house smells amazing. Yucky weather meant being stuck inside yesterday, so off we go in a few minutes to play in the dreary weather and dig in the snow. Maybe Iāll get a row in on the rower but Iāll start with the outdoor play. Hope the last day of 2020 is going well. Hugs if you need them. 
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Holy moly, Salty! Felicidades on your 90 and now 91! I hope it feels great. Proud of you!!!
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