Dang it. My younger’s rat is dying. He’s a very old man but he picked a hell of a day. She will not let him go until he has passed. F*ck. No lie, I am a little weary of handling the tough stuff.
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Day 7. Been tough. Cravings every day at all times of the day. So far I’ve been able to distract myself. Last night the gym helped. Today it’s checking in here. The monkey on my shoulder is telling me to figure out a way to escape to the liquor store while on my lunch break. I’m not going to do it though. Tonight I will have chaperones to help fight the urge cause they all know I’m trying to break away from this addiction. Tomorrow will be the gym. There are triggers for me everywhere. Home, work, deli, grocery store. Even the damn laundromat. I’ve tried to switch things up as much as possible but many of these triggers are unavoidable. I remind myself that I am not just doing this for myself, but my kids, my job, my future.
Anyways, I hope you all have a safe sober New Years. Will likely be checking in later.
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I’m so sorry to hear that. Sending a hug for you and your kiddo. Hang in there!
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She doesn’t want me in there. Not really listening to that and popping in every once in awhile. He’s doing death shakes but still breathing. I am really proud of her for making him comfortable.
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Just got a message from my girlfriend that the blower motor went in their furnace and they won’t be making the trip. It’s not the end of the world or anything but totally burst my bubble. Guess I’ll go for a nap and plan a finger food and movie kind of night to bring in New Year’s alone. Man is working and girls had better be sleeping lol
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Greetings earthlings. I am contacting you from the future in the year of 2021. I am to inform you that your planet is a-ok in the year 2021. You will make the jump smoothly. The future looks good 
this is star fleet captain April of TS signing off
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Its midnight there already?
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Poor kiddo. She sounds very brave.
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5.50am the next morning
Hey Rosa. Nice to feel your presence on here. You just keep posting about Chucho I want to know what’s going on. He’s a family member and losing a family member is the worst. It’s so fucking hard. I’m very happy you have him through the Holidays. I had to put my first dog Barney down on December 26 a long time ago. I never had a dog as a kid he was our first, married to my wife, family dog. I always hope and pray I wasn’t being selfish. But I just couldn’t loose him for Christmas. He didn’t appear to be suffering and he was taking and giving the love. So I don’t think I did the wrong thing. But that’s the thing. It’s all guess work. Well not all of it but you know what I mean. And I’ve never lost a pet sober. So you are helping me by posting. Cuz I got 2 old ones here. And it’s just so fucking hard. You’re such a great mom.
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Incoming transmission - I have reports from the future that your city of new york will still drop the ball. Quite literally your earthlings will drop the actual ball. Not literal 
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I just looked at the world clock. Damn its 155 pm right here in Va. Your way ahead
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This is some funny shit, are all aussie girls this cool if so I think I’m heading to the land down under
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I know the area well. I lived in new York in my 20s. And have friends still living there and over in p.a Allentown. If covid restrictions wernt what they are, I would of been in ny now for christmas and new years but had to post pone my trip indefinitely till flights are normal again. I would properly be safer betting on a flight to mars happening first before our planet resumes to our standard default mode of traveling lol
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Interesting so you originally from the states?
I grew up just north of Allentown, lived in Pa most of my life.
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No I’m from Australia. Born in Sydney Australia
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Oh ok so you were an import for a bit, I have a friend who I went to HS with married some girl and now lives in Australia, no idea where haven’t talked to him for a few years but seems to love it there
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