Well done on 120! You’re like me, and thinking a lot about how you want to be better. I think it sounds like you’re in the right direction to continue in your recovery.
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Felicidades, Eric! You’re a swell guy, you know that? Thanks for being here.
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I’m so sorry your still going through this and she is still acting up causing you stress… Are you able to sit down with her for a one on one and have a calm talk with her , ask her why she is behaving that way etc? Can you maybe take her out for an afternoon just the two of you away from the house and everyone, make her feel a bit special and noticed/seen/heard etc , I know you live very remote and far from things, but even if you were to take her for a nice walk just the two of you and really let her talk to you etc?.. I don’t have kids so I cant speak from experience, but I myself was a nightmare brat child. I rebelled from my parents because our home environment was questionable. They were alcoholic gamblers and neglected to care about raising me with intrest , attention, basic parental wants for a child etc … I was shown zero affection or interest, they just let me run muck from the age of 12 not caring about how my life evolved etc… I was ignored… So in saying this, I just thought maybe your step daughter, does she have a name? Maybe she is behaving this way because she is still hurting from her past… Just love her. Show her intrest and care and love. Talk to her calmy one on one. Show her your not going to abandon her. She is feeling abandoned and not wanted. These experiences will effect her for the rest of her life… Help her feel loved. I guarantee deep down that is all she wants. To feel loved and wanted 
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This is great! You’re so close to your personal best, and I know how good that feels. Keep doing the work, it’s really paying off for you!!! Thanks for being here.
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day 33… Had a sleep in this morning till 8am. Its a Sunday so I enjoy laying in on Sundays… Woke up to grey skys and rain… Love that on a Sunday… Made my coffee. Going to skip my 10k steps today coz I’m sore from yesterdays bike ride. I took my bike out for a spin yesterday and ended up riding for hours. Very sore tooshy this morning lol! 
I had a very broken sleep , I woke up at least 4 times last night doing night ninja fights with my comforter lol. It was a humid summers night and apparently that is when my best night ninja comforter fighting skills are displayed … I’m going to make a coffee, start some prolific epic journaling and let the day flow… First weekend of 2021 
I had a very broken sleep , I woke up at least 4 times last night doing night ninja fights with my comforter lol. It was a humid summers night and apparently that is when my best night ninja comforter fighting skills are displayed … I’m going to make a coffee, start some prolific epic journaling and let the day flow… First weekend of 2021
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Hi Lynn.
Your sober date is on Christmas Eve 
And you haven’t had a drink since ?
That is a HELLOVA BIG DEAL in my books. I’m really happy for ya.
And that’s a great attitude not looking to far in advance. ODAAT. That’s all we got. And that’s all we got to do.
God Bless, that is great!!
Good for you.
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Love this!!! Try to do it first thing when you wake up. And try to fill 3 full pages. Your consciousness streams out best and clearest at this time
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Believe me, I tried it all. Talking, taking her out. Everything. It doesn’t help. This far she crashed every place she’s gotten in to, two foster care homes and one youth facility center refused to have her because of her behavior. Back at her mothers place she’s used to have whatever she wants or just choose where she wants to live. With her Ma, with relatives, in a foster care home. She basically had the social services wrapped around her finger. They closed the case when she moved here. And unfortunately we do have rules here. When I ask she simply says
“Well that’s how I am”
Once again I know she’s just a child. I was about her age when I started to get into trouble myself. And I do want the best for her, I just don’t have more energy to put in. And I don’t know where to find it. I can take a lot, we have all special need kids. I know everyone is different, I just can’t handle when you’re plain mean with purpose, steals, lies, manipulates and are all selfish. We have to hide our things and our food, serve food to the kids to make sure they boys are getting any at all because she takes it all, without considering that there’s more people living here.
At first I thought the same way as you do. I fought to get her here, because my idea was that she needed her parents and a secure place to stay. A place to call home, a family. But I’m not so sure that it was a good idea, and I’m starting to get more and more certain that I’m not the one to help her. Especially not at the cost of my boys welfare.
I’m greatful for all the input and advice I can get. Thank you for answering, I hope everything is good with you.
Tweenie does have a name, It’s actually a little funny my soon to be 18 y/o and tweenie is as I previously wrote, born at the same day. Tweenie ia named Isabela we call her Bella, and my teen is named Daniela, we call her Ella. So it’s Ella and Bella. (Guess how many times that gets a little hard ) to increase the confusion one of our close friends have a daughter called Isabel, aka Belle. Ella, Bella, Belle…
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your a legend Eric!! Amazing work 
your a daily inspiration to so Many of us and a fantastic human
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Congratulations Eric on your first year…I remember my first year cause it was the most honest I’ve been to myself…you are a big inspiration to so many people and I always get something when I read your shares.
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Congratulations 
You are amazing, I wish you all the best. I’m really grateful to have you here.
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I agree with the last part, not sure about the “dress becomingly” part, currently wearing a 20 year old dressing gown, and not apologizing
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All you guys are just too kind.
It’s been such a pleasure and you all have been so inspiring to me.
@RosaCanDo @TSan
@Kaeo it’s an honor to follow in your
footsteps 
And thank you Sophia @MrsOdh the stuff you’re working on and over coming is not for the weak. I haven’t read it all yet but seen bits and pieces.
And again @apes2020 it’s so great to have you back.
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You Are The Perfect Person to Continually Kick Ass
Congratulations on your 200
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Checking in on my first 24 hours again.
Glad to be back 
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Wooohoo!!! A WICKED huge congratulations to my brothah from another mothah!! You rock my friend!! 
you are always there with a kinda word or a funny meme you have a big heart and you are an inspiration. Here I got you a “Gif” 
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Thank u! I truly believe it will. Im not giving up hope. I know it will stick one day
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New year new you. I was in a meeting tonight and there is a person called clancy who is just a bit well known in AA circles. This person was in AA 10 years before they got sober, 10 YEARS!!!, then one day he woke up and didn’t drink for over 60 years. We never know when it’s our day and we’ll never find out if we stop trying no matter what our drug of choice is.
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