Yes, he was using that age thing as an excuse. It’s a defensive mechanism.
Indeed, everything in life seems to fall in their right place, once person takes action towards having healthy balance in life 
Thank you! I had another restless sleep, but it still feels better to wake up just tired, rather than hungover and burnt out. Day 2! 
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@TSan Huge congrats on the triple digit club!! That’s amazing, so proud of you 
@Harold Congrats on 9 months, that is an amazing accomplishment.
@manishc Awesome job on 17 days, it sounds like you’re really committed this time. Keep up the hard work 
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Hey hey it’s a beautiful day 46 for me .
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Thanks @Nordique . This time I am trying to do things differently. As Einstein said doing the same thing over and over again is insanily. Actually I found a good doctor this time. This one knows what he is doing. The meds are a HUGE help. Since I am bipolar and have PTSD, determination and meetings aren’t enough. Need meds too. This time the doctor has got it right. Fingers crossed.
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Day 437. All good in the hood!
Congrats on 9 months @Harold, nice job man.
Anyone struggling reach out to someone, don’t struggle alone. You can message me anytime if you want to talk. Stay strong, battle on.
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Morning, everyone! Checking in sober. Today makes 52 Weeks (364 days)!! I still have 2 days to go to officially make it 1 year tho (thanks to leap year).
Been doing a lot of self-reflection due to the new year and the upcoming soberversary. It is amazing how much recovery has become a part of my life, and how valuable it has become to my wellbeing and ending my arrested development.
- I’m a recovering alcoholic - alcohol was my primary means of escape from myself and my pain, recovery has meant learning to face my life rather than avoiding it
- I’m a recovering depressive - I’m diagnosed with major depressive disorder, the tools of recovery are helping me with my outlook and my acceptance of life’s challenges
- I’m a recovering Catholic - I was raised believing a God of guilt and punishment, recovery has led me to a God of love and forgiveness (I have found this in Buddhism and meditation)
- I’m a recovering Type-A - I internalized my fear of punishment and the pressure to do things right the first time to the point of health issues, recovery has taught me to let go of these fears and ego-driven thoughts and to accept that I am human
- I’m a recovering pessimist - my negative attitude was a close kin to my constant guilt and fear of making a mistake, the caring and support of others in recovery have helped me to shed this pessimism and find new hope and happiness in others and in myself
- I’m a recovering escape artist - alcohol was just one of many means of escape I used to get away from the constant fear and negativity within and around me, with the tools of recovery I am learning to face these concerns rather than run away
- I’m a recovering introvert - my fears, insecurity and trust issues have held me back from opening up to others, but the unconditional kindness and support of others in the recovery community is healing that and allowing me to be vulnerable and open to others without needing liquid courage
2020 was a challenge in so many ways, but it was one of the best years of my life in terms of growth! Here’s to this continuing in 2021!!!
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Day 120/4 months: Hot damn! That feels good. Haven’t had time to scroll through the check-ins yet, but I wanted to get this thought down.
Today I’m feeling an overall sense of acceptance. Specifically about my dog being in his end of life stage, but that has sparked some thoughts about acceptance more broadly. I heard David Kessler on Brené Brown’s podcast Unlocking Us talking about the stages of grief and how they’re often misconstrued as a linear set of stages. Humans like to categorize things and the idea of being able to understand grief from start to finish as a set of stages that go in a straight line appeals to us. Of course that isn’t how we experience grief at all, nor is it how Kessler intended for the model to be applied. We can bounce around these aspects of grief, experience more than one at a time, as complex as the human experience is that’s how complex experience with grief is, different for everyone, and so on. But these models help us to unpack and understand some of what we are feeling so we can find some peace with it. My thought, anyway.
This morning I understood that I will not force or even cajole Chucho into taking medicine or food. I will do my best to be creative on how to deliver it to him and I’ll keep trying, of course, but it will be on his terms. If we miss a dose, so be it. Of course it was always going to be this way but by my accepting this fact I can find some peace for myself and release some of the guilty feelings and stress. This made me think about how in our journey to evaluate ourselves and our relationship to substance or behavior that might be more detrimental than not, we get a lot of opportunity to practice acceptance. Accepting that we can’t drink or use a substance or engage in a behavior without real negative consequences for ourselves and others. Some of us struggle with this more than others, but it’s a lesson for everyone. I was even thinking about how this applies in our pandemic world, and how it seems so many people not only struggle with accepting our current reality but aggressively fight against it! Sigh. I’m grateful to my buddy Chooch aka Mr. Chooch aka Chucho for yet another lesson. A Chucho-gram, for your day. Thanks for reading my ramble. Sending love out, people. 
P.S. Here’s a link to that podcast:
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Those are some great reflections. I relate to some of them a lot. I like the idea of recovery in all these aspects instead of seeing them as “diseases” or pathology only.
Thanks for sharing and big congrats on the year sober!
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It’s actually not bad. My husband has the day off tomorrow and hopefully help with tweenie will come soon.
So are you guys having like full darkness during wintertime too?
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We have to try. I have to try. Stress is getting more and more. Constraints will be intensivied / decided today here in Germany which really can put me in a difficult situation for my move. Idk.
Yesterday during my yoga practice I bursted into sobbing tears. Maybe to many heartopeners. Couldn’t sleep, neither.
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Nice! Felicidades and well done on 9 months. That has to feel good!!!
Not like you no. When I go to work it’s dark and when I get out it’s dark too. And we tend to get these weeks of overcast weather which means it remains gloomy all day. Busy season for my SAD lamp.
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You are working in health sector. In Germany we will have a regimen depending on how old you are and if you work in a vulnerable place. I gave myself an antibody test. I am curious, scientificly 
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Awesome work on a whole week! Glad to see you here checking in.
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Good morning! Good to see you checking in.
I’m working in old people’s care and I’m first in line yes. Our government did not think things through too well. People working in hospitals were added as first group after pressure from society. Now home doctors, police officers, and more want to be vaccinated first too. The people living where I work have to wait bc the government deemed it too hard to get the pfizer vaccine to them. So do you have antibodies?
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I had to Google that Sad lamp thing, and now I need one. Can’t believe it hasn’t been advertised here at all. Does it work well?
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Day 337. Tired alot still. Know idea if this medicine is helping or not, but still taking it. Much love everyone, have a good day
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