Checking in for the night
January 5th 2021
Bronchitis go somewhere im going to be okay and always give my 110% nothing will stop me got my stuff ready for work tomorow morning this Trucker needs to keep them wheels turning LETS GOOO !!!
I hear you on that one 
Day 39 no alcohol, Day 38 no cannabis. Proud of both of these accomplishments. Not like today is a milestone or anything, just feeling glad with my decision to abstain and that Iâve been able to stick with it. I was with a couple people who all had a beer or two with dinner and I didnât feel like I was missing out or anything. Although, that might just because Iâm not a beer person. If they were drinking wine or cocktails it might have been harder! In any case, I was content with my seltzer and had a good time.
Cheers to another dayâŚ
Great job on 25 days. Those milestones can be bitch! I know a lot of us here have gotten, letâs say, âmoody?â Approaching them. That first month is huge. Donât mean to put more pressure on ya. But it seems to be a common experience many of us have had. I remember at 6 months. I new about the milestone malady but it still came and of course it went. Just feel it. Let it come. No feeling is final. Check in here. Do some power walking with your favorite music. This too will pass.
One day at a time my friend. One day at a time.
So glad to have you back Amy. 3 days is a good start. I hope you can look forward to a new and improved you. It seems like you got a lot to be grateful for. My biggest tool is my daily morning gratitude list. It really starts my day off great knowing all I got being sober. I know some people on here do it twice a day. We got so much more to be grateful for when weâre sober.
Youâve been through a lot. Cut yourself a break. And try not to be too hard on yourself. Good luck with that 75hard ? Whatever that is.
Your worth it.
Oh, your post! Such a snapshot of so many mixed things in one dayâŚ
First, congrats on your 120. Hot damn indeed! 
So mixed to have this milestone amid all the stuff with Mr. Chooch, but in only your Rosa way, youâve woven these threads together⌠Thank you for updating us on how he is doing but also how you are with it all. Weâre all learning how to navigate life in sobriety, and this one is a biggie - and your sharing it with us helps us all. Hopefully you feel the heartfelt hugs coming your way and to Chucho too. Sending your whole fam strength and love, and times of deep connection to Chucho with all of that acceptance. 
And it bears repeating: 120 days yessssss! 
Quick check in on day 735âŚI just got out of a brand new meeting and now Iâm just sitting by the water waiting for my zoom meeting to start. Great work everyone stacking up those numbers and to the newcomers stick around it does get better
Day 190.
I dug a little deeper and found about one half of a micron (or so) less resistance to all of the things in my day that are not in my control, and hey â it helped! Seriously, itâs a fine line sometimes and Iâm still learning with each case (most work related, but some outside too): Whatâs too much âgiveâ, and when am I compromising my values, boundaries, my own âright alignmentâ? But where I am being too resistant and need to yield a little more (to something not in my control)? Which case calls for which action?
Iâm just taking these things on a case-by-case, day-by-day basis. Making these decisions is the stuff of life, after all. Relieved that Iâm sober to do so. I donât know anymore how true discernment and alcohol mix. They certainly donât in my life.
But now I tuck in for another day. Gânight all. We have another one in us tomorrow. I believe it.
Thanks, M. I appreciate you. And a big high five on your 190! Say hot damn out loud with gusto for me!!! It feels good.
Holding strong at 10 days in. I have had a few trips to the doctor. Last one was for a liver ultrasound. I do have some liver damage but its not to the point of no return. All I was trying to do I get so me medication to help with cravings. Anyways. Feeling very positive for some crazy reason. I know my liver will heal and Iâm thankful to have stopped when I did.
Great job getting to double digits. The human body is an incredible healing machine if we give it a chance and stop poisoning it.
Stick around. Your worth it. And itâs worth the hard work.
So pretty! When I got married many moons ago I told him I wanted to go there for a honeymoon. Didnât make it but maybe someday I will!
Doing slightly better. Just had an appointment with someone who will do the wallpaper in my old apartment and I will take this offer. The price is okay and it reduces some stress as to would friends or my brother really be able to help me. Now, this is a characteristic. I feel better to not being dependent on the circumstances. Feels better now. Fuck the money I have to spend. I am not spending it on booze but on my inner freedom.
I hope one day soon you will make it hereâŚand until then I will be sending you and of course everyone else a little bit of paradise from the Hawaiian Islands
173.07 Days
- Coffee. Caught up on sleep a bit. This is the time over here we start really missing sunshine as this typical overcast grey gloomy winter weather continues and could continue for another 3 months. Looking at holiday pics and thinking about going to Greece this spring. Would be the first time sober. Sounds good to me. First time I went there after quitting smoking wasnât bad or hard either.
Anyway, some preparation to do for my therapy group tomorrow. Actually looking forward to it. Have as good a day as you all can. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam and Leros Greece.
Iâm here, Iâm alive and Iâm sober.
Day 128
Another group meeting today, even if itâs a red day here and my husband is off work. This is why I really dislike group assignments. If everyone did what they where supposed to do in time, we wouldnât be having a meeting today.
Good thing is that I can wear Pyama pants, it wonât be showed in zoom anyway. I love this working from home thing.
Tweenie started the morning with picking a fight about the fact that I wonât allow her to drink more than two glasses of milk for breakfast. If we wonât check in her sheâll be drinking it all by herself and not leaving any for the rest of the family. And then she continued about her meds which she havenât been taking the last couple of days, blamed it on me and tried to get her father, my husband on her side. We where supposed to take a walk and go to the store before my meeting. Tweenie have refused to take a walk the entire winter break but she wanted to go today. Yesterday at dinner she ate 5 burritos and a huge plate of chips and dip. That was even more than my husband whoâs been working all day had. I once again told her that she canât do things like that because thereâs a lot more people than her in this house who also wants some food. And that thereâs no way she can be hungrier than my husband when all sheâs done the last two weeks has been watching tv. So today she decided to go on a walk so she âCan eat a lot of Hamburgers for dinnerâ more fighting because I told her that sheâll only get two (everyone gets two, because thereâs only 20 pieces in one pack) so she got even more mad. It all ended with that she and my husband went to the store and on a walk alone.
I refused to go to the store with her. Weâve only got two local grocery stores, we know the owners in both of them. And sheâs been stealing in both off them, even when sheâs been to the store with us.
I know, I know all my updates lately is about tweenie. But the thing is that it was mostly nice and calm here before she came. I feel for here but at the same time I donât want her to mess up our lives and create havoc here everyday.
Goodmorning TS family !
Onother beautiful morning onother beautiful day greatful iam above ground nothing will stop me nothing will determine my day but my own decisions and actions im in control iam my own leader to set an example for others that it can and will be done have a wonderful day !