I’ve never concentrated so hard on peeling something before hahahaha 
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Day 13. I don’t know that I have put down a number in a couple of days. I hurt. Second chiro appointment today. I feel better but I still feel like crap.
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@Truckinmonster21 feel better soon 
@Ledmeyer53 congrats on double-digits 
I found out I had liver disease on 10th August and haven’t touched a drop since, it really gave me the kick I needed 
@Kmills888 congrats on double-digits
@EarnIt I really hope your pain heals soon
149 days no alcohol.
117 days no cocaine.
Another positive, hopeful day, thanks to the book I’m reading, it’s definitely one I will read again and again, and I’ve never done that with a book before. I am still hoping I hear something from the job application I submitted on Xmas Eve, the closing date was Mon 4th but perhaps they have a lot to sift through. My bladder operation has been cancelled due to Covid, which is disappointing as I’m in constant pain with it and peeing every 30mins even through the night. Sorry if tmi. I’m trying to psych myself up for the restart of the DBT skills group this Friday, being away from Zoom has been nice during these few weeks off, I hate sitting there on camera feeling self-conscious and anxious about being chosen to answer questions on the spot, but I need to stick it out, only 6 more weeks.
I restarted my diet yesterday, after bingeing on crisps every day since Xmas Eve. It’s so hard, I get such strong cravings, but my intention to lose the rest of my weight is strong too, and I must just keep going and stay focused on the goal, I aim to be at target weight by my bday in July.
I’ve found a bungalow I really like in the same town as where my Dad lives, which is where I grew up, lots of bad memories there, but that was all a long time ago and I need to let it go. I need the landlord to overturn the no-pets rule, and for it to be available by the end of this month, it feels like the one though, and my calculations tell me it’s affordable 
Keep going everyone 
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Ahh ok! I misread your last post then!
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Day 18. Feeling awesome. I woke up early before dawn. Finding it difficult to sleep.
Took my dog for an early morning walk. The morning air was so fresh. And best of all there was hardly any people around.
Came back and cleaned my desk. It was super messy. Being an addict and alcoholic, I wasn’t very concerned with tidying up. I need to clean my home office next. Lot of things I need to throw away. Bonfire time.
Spent some time with my mom. Mending bridges. I think the secret is not to have any expectations or grudges. I remember Master Oogway’s quote from Kungfu Panda:
Did some work today. Looking for domain names for a new web portal I plan to create.
Started part 3 of the Game of Thrones audiobook. The audiobooks are so much better than the TV series. If anyone is interested in listening to them, I have the whole set. I can share them. Just let me know. If you liked the TV series, you will love the audiobooks.
Went for a long evening walk. Discovered a better route today. Less people and longer. In total I did 17,568 steps today. I could not even do 5000 a month ago.
Overall I am feeling great. New Year New Me. A little cliched but that’s how it feels. 
Thanks for reading my long rambling post and a VERY big thank you to everyone for being so supportive. I love this forum. 
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I am so glad you’re doing so well! It seemed like you were struggling before when you would post about relapsing and I was really rooting for you.
I was actually about to restart the GOT series on HBO and try to rewatch the whole thing from start to finish so that’s good to hear that the audiobooks are good also.
Glad you’re getting out and exercising too, sometimes it’s hard to stay motivated to do it each day. Keep up the hard work 
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Day 200,
Battling depression want to just sleep, but cant sleep.
Went to the dr today cause I need a form for the DMV completed. And refill my scripts, she declined to do both. Referred me to a psych and a neurologist both appointments are way out. But waited till the appointment was done to tell me that.
I came to VA for treatment originally planning for FL. But back in July COVID was rampant in the panhandle so they told me to go to VA. I thought VA was warmer I was wrong. Its bitter as hell out.
I’m on call for work because of the protests in DC, and we had more foot traffic on the Metro than I have seen in a long time, it’s a shit show in DC right now, just check the news.
When my sig other kicked me out back in May, I made it clear to my kids mom I was doing a nationwide job search we discussed the logistics of my kids, and how it would work. That was A ok, until I went for treatment her husband is an alcoholic and refuses to get help, I’m the bad guy for getting myself better. She should be controlling my therapy and be on my contact list. I set boundaries regarding my treatment, how she isn’t to meddle in my relationships or my personal life, so she cut me off from my kids.
In the end what do I got 200 days, it’s a start
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Happy hump day check in, day 11 here, feeling a bit restless…amazing how much time is sooo wasted when you are a daily drinker like I was!
No more. So thankful to have found this place and to all of you for sharing 
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That’s, right, an a hell of a start considering the challenges you’re dealing with while staying sober. That shows some determination. Congratulations! Hang in there and stay safe out there if you get called in. I haven’t chatted with you much but I like seeing you active around the forum.
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Game on Nice one mate!
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life has not promised you day 26 so for now just enjoy what you have. Well done.
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Thank you I appreciate it,
In the meantime the good ole boys will learn
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Yesss!!!
I know people who have got it more than once 
Thanks for the support @Nordique . The problem is that I have PTSD and I am bipolar too. The doctors I visited earlier, did not get the meds right. I relapsed more times than I can remember and I was a bl*y prk to everyone around me. After many trials and errors, I finally found a good psychiatrist. Now the meds are just right. It was really difficult to stay sober being bipolar and with wrong meds. But everything is good now. I feel like a new me.
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are you taking the piff 
Well done officer
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@manishc I’ll second that. It’s good to hear you sounding balanced and focused with a plan moving forward. Good for you!
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