Checking in daily to maintain focus #24


I don’t think I could have made it this far without this forum. Thank you TS Community for the support and the info… and for the laughs I love the meme threads. :yum:

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Felicidades on your 30 days! You seem to be focused and it is paying off. Happy for you.

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Wowie wow!!! Congrats and felicidades, beautiful! So happy for you and your kind heart.

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Thank you Rosa dear :heart_eyes:

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Yeah, this world is a crazy place, always was and always will be. I can only do my best to preserve it, to not spread hate. To be modest. To learn how to love myself then loving and accepting others will be a consequence. Not out of emptiness.

As you said well, a bloody drink won’t change the world but it will let me focus on the bad side.

Congrats on your 49 days :sunflower:

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Checking in, day 65. It was a lazy day, didn’t really do anything and it felt great. I have little cravings here and there but it’s totally bearable. Before TS I would probably have relapsed because of them.
I ordered chisels for sculpting, I’m so into it now, probably will spend my evening watching youtube tutorials in the topic. Today I practiced faces:

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When did that happen?? Really happy for ya!!
I know how hard you been working. That first month is a real bitch.
ODAAT

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Wow! You carved that? That’s amazing such detail.

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Ist Friday night sober in many years, and have crossfit plans at 9am on Sunday to keep me motivated and something to look forward to (I cant believe I am looking forward to crossfit). Surprising super chill about not drinking. Finding I have a lot more things to enjoy (including talking to all of you♥️). Almost through my first week! Doing a happy dance in my living room. Check out our Minnesota winter trees and my cat Frankie Fastpaws.

song I am dancing to, if you need a mid day stop and move…

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Checking in. :wave:t2: Enjoying my Saturday. Staying Sober.

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Back at 100 days. Having a hard time with news late last night that my father-in-law is unwell. His wife called (they’re wintering in the USA). Admitted to hospital and Covid was negative. Large mass found in chest. Thought possibly something called Valley Fever but just now got word it’s negative. He was discharged but now back with breathing issues. It’s looking bad. I’m guessing cancer. He is immune compromised due to being renal transplant recipient (which is also declining as it’s on its last life as it’s been so long).
I know I need to focus on gratitude and let go of what I can’t control but I feel so helpless & sick. I’m so tired of losing people. Mum, then dad, then a couple uncles recently. Enough already. Trying to see if we can get him home; if he’s allowed to fly safely.
Sorry for my Debbie downer post but I need to drop those feelings

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Great job on your first Friday. :clap: And hello to Frankie. I hope to see him on the pet or cat thread. I bet Frankie appreciates you being sober. I think My Maverick knows I’m a better human now that I’m sober. He’s all over me at certain times of day now snuggling more than he use to. I think the pets can tell the difference.
Enjoy your sober weekend.
:pray:t2::heart:

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Aww I’m sorry you’re having a hard time @Salty. Hopefully they’ll let him fly and at least be around his loved ones. Keep us posted.

Congratulations on triple digits! Try not to let what’s going on around you overshadow this great achievement. :tada: :partying_face:

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Congratulations Salty. Wow. Such joy for your 100 days and the sadness. You got some feelings all over the place. I’ll save the fireworks and send image
And pray for your father-in-law. And pray for God to give you the strength you’re worthy of and deserve.
:pray:t2: :heart:

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Thank you! Well, it’s polymer clay so I shape it also with my fingers. I carve with an unused meat needle and a pen, can’t wait to receive proper tools.

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Im sorry. That is totally not what I meant. I was never blaming anyone or anything for the reason I drank. I drank because I wanted to. What I am saying is that I was weak because of emotions and I didn’t channel myself correctly.
But, with this I truly feel attacked and un-encouraged. I was simply trying to relaate to someone else in regards to how badly my week has been. Forgive me, I am very new at being sober. Or should I say, not at all, since I keep messing up.
I’ll come back when I am better and more in tune with the entirety of it all. Didn’t know the rules.

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Happy day 100, amiga. Felicidades! I’m so sorry your FIL is ill. It’s a helpless feeling to be far away when something like this is happening. Sending a big hug your way.

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I’m sorry you have to go through all this. Unfortunately I don’t even know what to say, but I’m sending all the positive energy and hugs I’ve got your way. :heart:

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I don’t want to speak for anyone, but I have to add, that there are no rules, there is no only right approach. Although it is true, that for long term sobriety we need to work on the issues that caused it. I know that you don’t doubt it either.
I hope you won’t leave, it would be great to have you here!

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