06.02 it will be wedding
I’m scared…))))
We live together for 12 years ))
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Enormous congrats Mykola! Gorgeous rings. 
So happy for you. Here’s to a great sober wedding!
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Saw Ghost Town last night with Ricky Gervais and Gregg Kinnear. It was fun.
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Grant me the serenity… Seems relevant here 
Looks good regardless!
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Thanks for the British Comedy tip. I’m always looking for a fun British comedy.
And way to go!! Keep racking up those numbers. Give Mr Prince a loving scratch by the ears for me. 
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Congratulations!
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You’re showing courage to change the things you can! 
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@RyanSA Saying fuck off is fanfrickentabulous and huge congratulations. I call my demon the beer bitch brain. What @CapriciousCapricorn said is spot on.
@M-be-free49 Welcome to the 200 club Em. Keep kicking ass at kicking ass. I love reading too and would rather be in a book than a beer. I have recently limited my time with these activities.
@Mno Feeling the feels and sober equals strength in my eyes. You are inspiring and I’m proud of you.
@anon74766472 I hear ya with the non-stop thinking thing and hope you can find a balance. Hugs
@Luckyredz Congratulations on 90 days
@cwak Great job on identifying. Are you able to identify what you’re wanting to run/escape from? You are doing awesome and others have given good advice.
@anon28001181 I’m looking forward to your dismissal too bro but take what you can use later in that toolbox of yours.
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TYPO is you shorted yourself 100 days 
I totally feel what you’re saying here. You & others here are true friends and provide me a safe place to just be me
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Well @Mno, had therapy yesterday and no crying yet. One day, one day lol.
I did however realize that I totally check out and go somewhere else when “difficult” stuff comes up. He’s pretty smart that therapist of mine. He never called me out on it, but he’s been snapping me out of that void for almost 8 months now. I didn’t know I was doing it, but he was patient with me. I admitted I wasn’t listening and was embarrassed and felt it was disrespectful, so I always cover it up and pretend I was listening. I just go away, not thinking of anything else, just flat out blank. He said it’s called disassociation. He said it would take years to crack this nut, but I’m happy to put in the work. I was only able to feel the feels drunk, so going to have to try to access those feels some other way.
I’ve been slack on my photography lately because I’m super wimpy with the cold. I miss it so much, so I might need to suck it up and bundle up. I’m disappointed that I missed the opportunity to get city Christmas shots because I’m a pansy 
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WHOOP WHOOP. . . .1 year is amazing. Your presence here is appreciated and encouraging. I look forward to your P.S.s Hope you are doing something amazing to celebrate.
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It’s so beautiful!
I honestly think you can work “things” in there in a way that just makes it even more beautiful.
It’s kinda metaphorical actually, and even suits the serenity prayer more. None of us are perfect, we’re all works in progress - works of art in progress! You’re a living example of taking the things of your life and turning them into your own strength and beauty.
Just sayin’… 
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Day 15! After a difficult week I am back to feeling positive. Mainly I had a LONG walk today, and ate a lot of cheese and bought myself a coffee. The small things REALLY HELP! No serious cravings today, all easy to deal with. Hope you’re all ok and happy Saturday x
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Im on Day 50 no alcohol. Last night I had a dream where I got mad at someone because I thought they were drinking my bottle of wine. And then I found my bottle in a suitcase (there was a lot of packing and unpacking in this dream), so I apologized. But then I started thinking about drinking the wine and remembered that I didn’t drink. I began saying, “I’ll drink this when…” and trying to come up with a special event or holiday that I would save it for and I just couldn’t come up with a reason that made me want to drink it. I also felt like I really didn’t want to reset my timer. Similarly, the other night I dreamed that I was at a restaurant and ordering food and drinks. I was planning to order a butterscotch martini (which, I don’t even know what that is and it does not sound like something I would like! there was a picture on the menu that just looked like butterscotch pudding in a martini glass). In any case, I was about to order it when I realized I did not want it and that I did not want to drink alcohol. Together these dreams made me feel like I’ve reached a new level in my journey, that by being more active and conscious in my choice, my conviction to not drink seems stronger and my desire for alcohol is actually diminishing.
On a sadder note, I left today today to take a week to spend some time alone and to visit my family (we are all getting tested beforehand). If you’ve read older posts of mine you might remember I had a big fight with my boyfriend a little over two weeks ago. I felt like we got through it and were doing well, but this morning we got in another fight before I left. It was really stupid and I don’t even know why it escalated, but I got very upset and left while we were still fighting. We talked while I was driving and it was difficult, but ultimately he said we can just move on. I feel bad for walking out and leaving for a week while we were still in a fight, but I just didn’t know what to do and it’s a reaction of mine. During fights I shut down or walk away, and I’ve been trying to be better at communicating but it was just too hard today. I was really looking forward to this trip and feel like I really need it. But right now I feel very low and sad and like a disappointment to myself and my relationship.
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Woo hoo! You’ve made some amazing progress over the past year @I.cant.We.can and you’re such a selfless person giving back when you can.
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@Freckles They really do! I’m ALL about the caffeine- it’s what I look forward to the most each day. Better than booze and a hangover the next day!!
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Congrats! Well done 365 consecutive days of sobriety. 
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Congratulations on your first year of sobriety and may you have many more to come…
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Ahh shit thank you lmao
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