Still going. I feel like each week that goes by I’m on here less and posting even less. It is kind of bittersweet in a way. The reason I’m not on here as much is because I’m working more and trying to get my shit back together, which is great. I miss getting on here though. I just need to find some more time to prioritize getting on here to post.
Things are going great as far as not drinking. Last 2 weeks have been over the top stressful but the thought of drinking hasn’t entered my brain. I’ve tried to comment on everyone’s milestones that I see. If I’ve missed anyone I’m truly sorry and congratulations!! I hope everyone had a great weekend and has the best Monday they can!
So years ago you got a DUI and an accident, and he won’t let go of the thought you were having an affair even though you have evidence contrary to that affect?
I been there with an insecure partner and no matter how you prove them wrong, they still believe it.
My response would have been well if I was at a liquid lunch with a guy, I wouldn’t have gotten in an accident driving cause we would have been doing other things.
Disclaimer 0 out of 5 stars do not reccomend you say that. It never ended well for me
Thank you sista!! I needed to hear that. You’re right, he needs to be taking notes. This is coming from someone that just finished up his felony case in fucking Supreme court this week. He got really lucky and was only sentenced to 2 years probation after facing 5 years in prison. He’s no longer drinking and it seems to be finally sticking after a few eye opening experiences. Being clean and sober has given me my voice back and boy have I been using it A LOT.
Exactly @Fury!! The DUI accident was in Sept 2019 and I was at work but was having a bad day so I went out at lunch and chugged a bottle in my car alone. Because it was out of character for me, he’s convinced I met someone at a bar. That was the day I knew I needed help and went into detox.
I love your response though. I’m definitely going to say that if it’s brought up again.
Sending warmth and support. Relationships in this time (sobriety/pandemic!) are difficult. I know I’m feeling the stretch and the squeeze. Like Glennon Doyle says: “we can do hard things”. I really recommend her book called Untamed btw - it helped me to stop focussing on people pleasing and to sometimes just follow my wild emotions and wild intuition. We are taught by the world to feel disappointed by things that are actually just emotional responses. But, you can get there. All relationships have their hurdles/issues and thats exacerbated by this time so hoping that you guys can talk it out when you’re both cool headed, and not hot headed (its probably not good time to try and talk when you’re both emotional anyway), and better with some distance, rationale, a cool head. I had a strange psychosis last week where I thought I was going to hurt myself. I tell myself that I just need to make it to the end of the day, and that it usually takes 3 days to turn around a mental health pit or funk. Sometimes only 2 or 24 hours! The fact that London is LIGHT today helps!
I’ve had crazy dreams too, mainly that I’m blacking out again and i’ve cheated on my boyfriend or lost my job (which I start tomorrow!) It might be interesting to record them in a journal (you may have done this already). I also read that people in your dream are only representations of your subconscious, which I think is interesting.
Anyway, sending warmth for a good week, recognising that its our failures that we learn from (cf. Elizabeth Day) - i’d honestly be nowhere without the things I’ve learned from the dark periods and difficult times in my life. But equally, I think its important to dissect the days we feel good: who were we speaking to, what were we doing, wearing, eating, where were we. I’m trying to focus on adding this thought to my life rather than focusing too much on the failures too!
Ramble of the century! Happy Sunday all. I start a new job tomorrow - nervous AF! My last job let go of me after 1 month in horrible circumstances and I’m just TERRIFIED now. Like PTSD that the same thing will happen again, unexpectedly. I need at least 3 days to LEARN the job! xx
@Lisa07 OMG sista he needs to let that shit go. You can’t do it for him but you don’t need to tolerate that shit. Use your voice girl and just keep shining. @dalex77 Congratulations on triple digits
I so believe in this too. Good vibes can be recreated within certain settings and identifying these settings is important.
215 days. . .wth is with the warning of limited likes??? Guess I’m really feeling the love through peeps shares today. I’ve been up for almost 3 hours and in an odd headspace of sorts. I am looking forward to celebrating the wee one’s birthday today but can’t get my mind off of getting my stuff together and taking off on a roadtrip. I dreamt last night of being single and living on my own. The dream consisted of normal daily activities and I was extremely happy. It’s not that I’m not happy right now but am feeling very restless and vulnerable. Will continue to ride these feelings out. So looking forward to unpacking some shit with my girlfriend and not having anyone except myself to be concerned about.
